~*-+-
*~
GOB: I live in the cruelest of places, where my heart, my soul, my dreams, are ripped out and shattered in front of me.....
Tala: I need to escape, find who I truly am. Knowing not who you are is the deepest of sorrows you can ever hope not to have.
Max: Empty souls wish for world peace, ending world hunger, but how can any of that be accomplished, when all we do is lie, cheat & steal?
Kai: Can darkness really be so calming, so beautiful, so... right? Or is it nothing but an empty wish from an empty soul?
GOB: Sometimes, in the rush of life, we forget to take the time to think... such thoughts may be depressing, but it is always better to have thought about the pains, longings, and hurts you have faced, and will face. Losing hope is what drives wars. Lost hope. To be able to fight, to be able to kill another without thinking twice of it, to be able to accept that without a second thought, you must have lost all hope of peace, love, and kindness. The world is full of lost hopes. And more and more are being continually being drained of hope....
But what will you do? Will you be next? Or have you already lost all hope? If not, how long do you think you will last?
How long???
~*-+- *~
Thanks To The Following Reviewers Who Give Hope And Light To Aspiring Authors In Their Struggle To Let Their Creativity Flow:
~** Maeris ~~* England is nothing, but a place. The true story lies in the mind of the reader.
~** DragonBlade ~~* Dark is nothing, but the opposite of light. Nothing, but an opposite...
~** Lefty ~~* Torture is something to do to those who deserve it. Reviewers should never face torture.
~** Hiwatari-gurl ~~* Conversations can hold many a hidden meaning. Reviews can hold many a different praises.
~** phoenix the 1st ~~* Updates come and go, but they will always arrive.
~** ruth 4 kai ~~* The poems I write will always be for yours and others enjoyment.
~** Sacred Dog ~~* Thank you for reviewing my work. Your regards are most appreciated.
~** Syaoran-Lover ~~* The Bladebreakers are not that wise, to see what lies in front of them. Thank you for the kind review.
~** MasterFranny ~~* Thank you for reviewing both works by me.
~** ComputerAngel ~~* Now you will have the knowledge of what happens.
~** wateva ~~* Updates are now in progress. Thank you for your appreciative support.
~** false-image ~~* Your support is immensely appreciated.
~*-+- *~
Disclaimer: Any and all characters, places, ect. That are not the pure creations of my mind are the possessions of those who created them and I, in no part, take and credit for their importance in my fanfiction on this website.
~*-+- *~
( Tala & Kai )
~ "You stop me from speaking out. Locking me into an eternity of silence. Such silence is pure. So am I pure or just pretending to be?" ~
The lines from the familiar poem drifted unbidden, and unwanted, to Tala's confused mind. He knew that there was more going on than he could ever comprehend, but it killed him, it suffocated him, to see what had become of Kai.
The Unbeatable Kai. The Great Kai Hiwatari. The Kai Hiwatari... He was always someone you couldn't help hating at some point, but at the same time, you respected him, admired him. No matter what anyone threw at him, he stood strong, unbending, to anyone's will, but his own. He refused to let himself be corrupted.
But now... now it seemed as if Kai, yes Kai, was giving into his demons. Tala knew everyone had their own personal demons to wage war against, but Kai never gave in to his. Or at least... not until now.
The Russian youth sighed as he turned over once again in his sleep, this time to face the dark window, so small that only a piece of the sky and a sliver of the moon could be seen. He looked at his reflection in the dark mirror. (The window if you didn't get that.)
He got up slowly, and made his way to his duffel bag. He scrounged around in it before finding and pulling out what he was looking for...
His journal...
~*-+- *~ (Max, Rei, Tyson, Kenny)
Max ran his hands through his hair.
This Was !!!NOT!!! Happening!!!
The quartet had begun their search for Kai, but met with the worst possible news...
"HE WAS HERE!?!?!?!?!"
The Bladebreakers stood there in complete and utter shock.
They had started there search by asking the desk clerk in the hotel lobby if she had seen a tall, quiet, teen, with two toned blue hair, and crimson eyes. They also told her that he usually wore a sleeveless black shirt, a white scarf with two ends (GOB: I don't care if it's only one end in Season 1, it's two ends in G Rev!), and red armguards, each with it's own wicked blade attached to it.
She told them that she had seen him and that he had been staying in this very hotel, but had unfortunately checked out just the day before.
"I can't believe this. We just barely missed him!" Rei shook his head as the Bladebreakers all sat glumly on the blue couches in the lobby.
"Hey guys," Max said slowly, as if just remembering something which, before, had no importance. "I remember seeing Tala hear that day we came. I'm thinking he must've been here too."
The Bladebreakers looked at one another deeply and horridly confused. They had never even given a spare, lonely, drifting thought towards the red haired Russian youth.
When Kai had disappeared, all alone, while going about it in a way that he was sure not to be interrupted by anyone who could possibly find an reason, no matter how minuscule, to talk to him. He always seemed like the type of person who preferred to be solitary, alone, apart, from others. In all honesty, it seemed to the Bladebreakers, that Kai wanted to be...
Forgotten.....
~*-+- *~
( Tala's Journal )
Sometimes, I just don't know what to do. I see him there, just standing there, alone, leaning against the wall. Eyes closed, arms crossed, his usual pose. It almost seems as if he's trying to.. I don't know, escape from reality. He seems to try to always fade back into the woodwork, trying to have nobody notice what he's doing. It's like. He wants to be forgotten.
And it hurts. It hurts me, as much, maybe even more, than it hurts him. Kai was always one of my closest friends, and was, no is, the person I trust most in this shit-hole we call our world. Sometimes I feel so helpless.
And it wouldn't be the first time.
When I first came to the abbey, I was headstrong, arrogant, without a care in the world. I admit it, I was a jerk. But it didn't matter. I was to arrogant to care. I thought I was a real big-shot, winning all my battles, beating up anybody who gave me a hard time.
Then when Kai came it changed. All of it.
He came in one day, when I was laughing and kicking this one kid I beat in a beyblade match. He took one look at what was going on then challenged me to a match. I agreed, no sweat. But then he added that one condition, which, to this day, confuses me.
He said we both had to use a plain, regular beyblade, without our bitbeasts. He said that he wanted to know if it was me that was a good blader, or if it was Wolborg who won all my battles for me.
I saw red, no pun intended, and excepted without a second thought. I wanted to teach him a lesson for disrespecting me. Yeah, I had a huge ego.
It was all over so fast. I never saw it coming. I still remember the look on his face, after he had won. Well, creamed me.
It wasn't one of smug satisfaction, which I had been expecting. No, he seemed almost disappointed... in me.
After that match, he came to my room, and asked to talk to me. I thought he would start gloating, but instead, he sat down calmly on my bed and asked me the strangest thing...
"I'd like a rematch. You cheated."
~*-+- *~
GOB: yes, it was indeed Kai who wanted the rematch, and it was indeed Kai who accused Tala of cheating during their first match against one another.
Kai's journal entry will be mostly random thoughts on anything and everything that has befallen him during his time on Earth. The thoughts, though random, will all relate to Kai's relationship with Black Dranzer, his Grandfather, the Bladebreakers, other beyblade teams, and finally, Tala.
~*-+- *~
( Kai's Journal )
Darkness... I've never understood why darkness has always been thought of the sign of evil. That was the main reason most people believed that Black Dranzer was evil. I never really believed that he was evil.
In all honesty, Black Dranzer always seemed the weaker of the two phoenixes. Always being forced to hide behind the darkness. Hiding from light. Hiding, afraid, scared, of anything that could break through his barrier...
My Grandfather has always been a mystery to me. I used to think that in his own, strange, ways, he really did care about me.
All my belief in that was shattered long, long ago. But still hope lingers.
No matter how hard I try to fight it, a part of me craves my Grandfather's exception, pride, anything, that shows me that I am more than a toll, a weapon to him.
The Bladebreakers and the other teams all see me as someone to be wary of, and they are right to think so. I am dangerous. But if I ever dropped the act, the mask, the barriers, I would be nothing.
I am naught but a shell of my former self.
I know longer know who the person that looks back at me from the mirror is. I know longer know who I am. And if I can't know myself, how can I let others?
Tala... there is so little, yet so much, I can say about him. But I won't.
I no longer want to analyze everything, like a cold, unfeeling, monster.
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Determination
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Fear of my failure
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| It's okay people
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| My hatred is pure
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He deserves it all
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Whatever he gets
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Think he can take it
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Let's all place bets
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Is this desire okay?
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Can I place judgment on him?
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| I guess I should be patient
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And go out on this limb.
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Though I'd rather laugh
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Lift palm and slap him
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| I'd rather punish
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And kill in a whim
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| How dare I feel guilt
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| For the words I write
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He didn't regret
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Even in hindsight
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Hatred so intense
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Consumes like fire
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And only I suffer
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He's such a liar
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He hurts the innocent
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And kills adopted blood
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Can't you see them fall down
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Drown in the thick mud?
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Sickness so estranged
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| It consumes his soul
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And my precious dear
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Reaps the evil toll
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| What if I don't trust
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| That he'll be repaid?
I want to get revenge for everything that has befallen me, yet I also want to forget. Is it normal to feel unworthy, yet too good, for anything and everything, that I do not know, but I want to know. I need to know.
I am empty...
~*-+- *~
GOB: The chapter you have been reading has now come to an end. Thank you for reading my work. Now please review this piece.
GOB: I live in the cruelest of places, where my heart, my soul, my dreams, are ripped out and shattered in front of me.....
Tala: I need to escape, find who I truly am. Knowing not who you are is the deepest of sorrows you can ever hope not to have.
Max: Empty souls wish for world peace, ending world hunger, but how can any of that be accomplished, when all we do is lie, cheat & steal?
Kai: Can darkness really be so calming, so beautiful, so... right? Or is it nothing but an empty wish from an empty soul?
GOB: Sometimes, in the rush of life, we forget to take the time to think... such thoughts may be depressing, but it is always better to have thought about the pains, longings, and hurts you have faced, and will face. Losing hope is what drives wars. Lost hope. To be able to fight, to be able to kill another without thinking twice of it, to be able to accept that without a second thought, you must have lost all hope of peace, love, and kindness. The world is full of lost hopes. And more and more are being continually being drained of hope....
But what will you do? Will you be next? Or have you already lost all hope? If not, how long do you think you will last?
How long???
~*-+- *~
Thanks To The Following Reviewers Who Give Hope And Light To Aspiring Authors In Their Struggle To Let Their Creativity Flow:
~** Maeris ~~* England is nothing, but a place. The true story lies in the mind of the reader.
~** DragonBlade ~~* Dark is nothing, but the opposite of light. Nothing, but an opposite...
~** Lefty ~~* Torture is something to do to those who deserve it. Reviewers should never face torture.
~** Hiwatari-gurl ~~* Conversations can hold many a hidden meaning. Reviews can hold many a different praises.
~** phoenix the 1st ~~* Updates come and go, but they will always arrive.
~** ruth 4 kai ~~* The poems I write will always be for yours and others enjoyment.
~** Sacred Dog ~~* Thank you for reviewing my work. Your regards are most appreciated.
~** Syaoran-Lover ~~* The Bladebreakers are not that wise, to see what lies in front of them. Thank you for the kind review.
~** MasterFranny ~~* Thank you for reviewing both works by me.
~** ComputerAngel ~~* Now you will have the knowledge of what happens.
~** wateva ~~* Updates are now in progress. Thank you for your appreciative support.
~** false-image ~~* Your support is immensely appreciated.
~*-+- *~
Disclaimer: Any and all characters, places, ect. That are not the pure creations of my mind are the possessions of those who created them and I, in no part, take and credit for their importance in my fanfiction on this website.
~*-+- *~
( Tala & Kai )
~ "You stop me from speaking out. Locking me into an eternity of silence. Such silence is pure. So am I pure or just pretending to be?" ~
The lines from the familiar poem drifted unbidden, and unwanted, to Tala's confused mind. He knew that there was more going on than he could ever comprehend, but it killed him, it suffocated him, to see what had become of Kai.
The Unbeatable Kai. The Great Kai Hiwatari. The Kai Hiwatari... He was always someone you couldn't help hating at some point, but at the same time, you respected him, admired him. No matter what anyone threw at him, he stood strong, unbending, to anyone's will, but his own. He refused to let himself be corrupted.
But now... now it seemed as if Kai, yes Kai, was giving into his demons. Tala knew everyone had their own personal demons to wage war against, but Kai never gave in to his. Or at least... not until now.
The Russian youth sighed as he turned over once again in his sleep, this time to face the dark window, so small that only a piece of the sky and a sliver of the moon could be seen. He looked at his reflection in the dark mirror. (The window if you didn't get that.)
He got up slowly, and made his way to his duffel bag. He scrounged around in it before finding and pulling out what he was looking for...
His journal...
~*-+- *~ (Max, Rei, Tyson, Kenny)
Max ran his hands through his hair.
This Was !!!NOT!!! Happening!!!
The quartet had begun their search for Kai, but met with the worst possible news...
"HE WAS HERE!?!?!?!?!"
The Bladebreakers stood there in complete and utter shock.
They had started there search by asking the desk clerk in the hotel lobby if she had seen a tall, quiet, teen, with two toned blue hair, and crimson eyes. They also told her that he usually wore a sleeveless black shirt, a white scarf with two ends (GOB: I don't care if it's only one end in Season 1, it's two ends in G Rev!), and red armguards, each with it's own wicked blade attached to it.
She told them that she had seen him and that he had been staying in this very hotel, but had unfortunately checked out just the day before.
"I can't believe this. We just barely missed him!" Rei shook his head as the Bladebreakers all sat glumly on the blue couches in the lobby.
"Hey guys," Max said slowly, as if just remembering something which, before, had no importance. "I remember seeing Tala hear that day we came. I'm thinking he must've been here too."
The Bladebreakers looked at one another deeply and horridly confused. They had never even given a spare, lonely, drifting thought towards the red haired Russian youth.
When Kai had disappeared, all alone, while going about it in a way that he was sure not to be interrupted by anyone who could possibly find an reason, no matter how minuscule, to talk to him. He always seemed like the type of person who preferred to be solitary, alone, apart, from others. In all honesty, it seemed to the Bladebreakers, that Kai wanted to be...
Forgotten.....
~*-+- *~
( Tala's Journal )
Sometimes, I just don't know what to do. I see him there, just standing there, alone, leaning against the wall. Eyes closed, arms crossed, his usual pose. It almost seems as if he's trying to.. I don't know, escape from reality. He seems to try to always fade back into the woodwork, trying to have nobody notice what he's doing. It's like. He wants to be forgotten.
And it hurts. It hurts me, as much, maybe even more, than it hurts him. Kai was always one of my closest friends, and was, no is, the person I trust most in this shit-hole we call our world. Sometimes I feel so helpless.
And it wouldn't be the first time.
When I first came to the abbey, I was headstrong, arrogant, without a care in the world. I admit it, I was a jerk. But it didn't matter. I was to arrogant to care. I thought I was a real big-shot, winning all my battles, beating up anybody who gave me a hard time.
Then when Kai came it changed. All of it.
He came in one day, when I was laughing and kicking this one kid I beat in a beyblade match. He took one look at what was going on then challenged me to a match. I agreed, no sweat. But then he added that one condition, which, to this day, confuses me.
He said we both had to use a plain, regular beyblade, without our bitbeasts. He said that he wanted to know if it was me that was a good blader, or if it was Wolborg who won all my battles for me.
I saw red, no pun intended, and excepted without a second thought. I wanted to teach him a lesson for disrespecting me. Yeah, I had a huge ego.
It was all over so fast. I never saw it coming. I still remember the look on his face, after he had won. Well, creamed me.
It wasn't one of smug satisfaction, which I had been expecting. No, he seemed almost disappointed... in me.
After that match, he came to my room, and asked to talk to me. I thought he would start gloating, but instead, he sat down calmly on my bed and asked me the strangest thing...
"I'd like a rematch. You cheated."
~*-+- *~
GOB: yes, it was indeed Kai who wanted the rematch, and it was indeed Kai who accused Tala of cheating during their first match against one another.
Kai's journal entry will be mostly random thoughts on anything and everything that has befallen him during his time on Earth. The thoughts, though random, will all relate to Kai's relationship with Black Dranzer, his Grandfather, the Bladebreakers, other beyblade teams, and finally, Tala.
~*-+- *~
( Kai's Journal )
Darkness... I've never understood why darkness has always been thought of the sign of evil. That was the main reason most people believed that Black Dranzer was evil. I never really believed that he was evil.
In all honesty, Black Dranzer always seemed the weaker of the two phoenixes. Always being forced to hide behind the darkness. Hiding from light. Hiding, afraid, scared, of anything that could break through his barrier...
My Grandfather has always been a mystery to me. I used to think that in his own, strange, ways, he really did care about me.
All my belief in that was shattered long, long ago. But still hope lingers.
No matter how hard I try to fight it, a part of me craves my Grandfather's exception, pride, anything, that shows me that I am more than a toll, a weapon to him.
The Bladebreakers and the other teams all see me as someone to be wary of, and they are right to think so. I am dangerous. But if I ever dropped the act, the mask, the barriers, I would be nothing.
I am naught but a shell of my former self.
I know longer know who the person that looks back at me from the mirror is. I know longer know who I am. And if I can't know myself, how can I let others?
Tala... there is so little, yet so much, I can say about him. But I won't.
I no longer want to analyze everything, like a cold, unfeeling, monster.
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Determination
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Fear of my failure
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| It's okay people
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| My hatred is pure
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He deserves it all
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Whatever he gets
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Think he can take it
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Let's all place bets
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Is this desire okay?
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Can I place judgment on him?
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| I guess I should be patient
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And go out on this limb.
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Though I'd rather laugh
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Lift palm and slap him
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| I'd rather punish
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And kill in a whim
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| How dare I feel guilt
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| For the words I write
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He didn't regret
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Even in hindsight
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Hatred so intense
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Consumes like fire
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And only I suffer
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He's such a liar
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| He hurts the innocent
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And kills adopted blood
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Can't you see them fall down
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Drown in the thick mud?
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Sickness so estranged
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| It consumes his soul
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| And my precious dear
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| Reaps the evil toll
~
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| What if I don't trust
|||||||| ------ |||||||| -------|||||||| That he'll be repaid?
I want to get revenge for everything that has befallen me, yet I also want to forget. Is it normal to feel unworthy, yet too good, for anything and everything, that I do not know, but I want to know. I need to know.
I am empty...
~*-+- *~
GOB: The chapter you have been reading has now come to an end. Thank you for reading my work. Now please review this piece.
