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GOB: New chapter out, sorry about the very long wait!!!
Kai: You should be.
GOB: *Gasps* YOU WANT ME TO KEEP WRITING???
Kai: No. Just wanted to get your hopes up. *cruel smirk*
GOB: Evil demon... I don't own anything....
Kai: Damn right you don't.
GOB: BUT the plot. *Scowls*
Tala: O... k... Here is the thank you section...
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++ DragonBlade = Glad you liked it! It was all serious because I was really depressed.
++ wateva = I'm glad you like my fic that much! It makes it all worth writing ^_^!!!
++ DarkVixenOfLight = Hehe, I will tell you how he 'cheats' maybe in this chapter or maybe not. I don't know yet!
++ demon's-gurl = I hope you won't hate me for updating so late!!!
++ ruth 4 kai = I am deep... HERE THAT WORLD??? I AM DEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
++ Syaoran-Lover = As always, my trustful critic. Always telling me what I did wrong... LOL, I'm glad someone knows what grammar is... to me, it's all Japanese! The Bladebreakers will find them... somehow.... *means I have no idea*
++ Hiwatari-gurl = Yayness! I loved that chapter to ^_^ !
++ Maeris = LOL, that was a very random filled review! But good all the same!!!
++ Rya Starling = Nah, if anyone is finding Kai's JOURNAL it's Max or Tala. I'm not a big Tyson fan... *Holds gun with bullet that has Tyson's name engraved on it*
++ phoenix the 1st = Ahh, another loyal reader/reviewer. HUGS FOR EVERYONE!!!!!
++ Lefty = Awww, I'm not that good. Amazing maybe, but not good... ^_~
++ MasterFranny = I know! I did update Dangerous Memories, as I know you know! Oohhhh, Kai plushie 78....
++ ComputerDevil = My story rocks? YAY!!! Now you will know what happens!
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GOB: About the journal entries, I will be starting with Max's journal. Midway will be Tala's journal entry. Lastly, ending the chapter, will be Kai's journal entry. Now, go on, read the chapter that I have painstakingly typed out.
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( The Bladebreakers )
The Bladebreakers were all sulking around, depressed, in there hotel room.
Rei kept flipping the channels to the TV, trying to forget the current frustration that had consumed him since they had found out about Kai's sudden departure. He couldn't believe that they had missed him, just that barely. He was beginning to have serious doubts on whether they would find Kai at all. He felt as if they would always just miss him...
Tyson was sitting in the little kitchen, poking at his peanut butter and jelly sandwich. He had made the sandwich thinking it would help the slight depression he had gotten after hearing the horrible news. Kai had been so close, yet they had lost him... once again, they had lost him. Tyson just sat there, poking, poking, just poking at his sandwich. He had taken just one bite and put down the sandwich with a sigh. Food just wasn't the answer...
Kenny was the only one who was putting his depression into good use. He was using all the pain inside of him to fuel his search for Kai. He had decided to add Tala to his search as well, but it hurt him immensely to do that. He knew, deep down inside, though he refused to acknowledge it, he knew the Kai trusted Tala more than he trusted any of them.
Max sat on his bed, the lights turned off, writing in the light of a simple, but elegant, lamp, glancing out the window every now and then.
(Max's Journal)
Everyone is so depressed. I have always hated it when people got depressed, so I always tried my hardest to cheer up anyone and everyone who was depressed, but now... I can't...
I can't, because I just can't bring myself to cheer people up when I, myself, am depressed. It would feel all wrong... Like I was lying to them, giving them false hope, false cheer, false... everything. I know how much it hurts to be given false hope. I was given enough of it as a child, back when my parents were still together.
They would always tell me everything was okay, and that nothing was wrong, whenever I heard them fighting, or arguing as they put it, and went to them to ask what was wrong.
I must have asked them over a billion times if they were thinking of getting a divorce, or splitting up, or going bankrupt, or any of the other problems that adults always seem to have when they argue. Of course, like any other parents on the planet, they ensured me that nothing was wrong, that they would never think of getting a divorce, that they were only arguing because they were tired, that everything would be perfect in the morning.
But it wasn't.
Everything was always supposed to be all roses and sunshine and smiles, but my enchanted garden rot away almost as soon as it bloomed. It seemed as though everything was going great, and then my world, my beautiful world, was sent crashing all around me, each little shard burying itself into my heart. Reminding myself of the pain I felt, I still feel.
It seems that I'm always at my worst when I'm depressed, I just can't get out of it all by myself. I've always needed someone else to help pull me out of that state. I remember falling into a state of deep, melancholy depression during the American Tournament.
It hurt to see my Mom coaching another team of Bladers, and the fact that she lied about what she did for a living. I could hardly believe it. At first, I was happy to see her and happy to see her doing something that I knew she loved. But then, she didn't seem happy to see me at all. It was all wrong...
Everything was all awkward between us, nothing seemed like it was supposed to be. We should have been catching up on all the times we missed. But instead, we were avoiding each other... it hurt... a lot...
I remember how hard I practiced when Kai stepped back and let me face Michael in the finals. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get anything right. I remember getting really frustrated and throwing my launcher down in disgust, glaring as it landed next to an unmoving Draciel.
Then I heard a voice say, "Giving up so quickly, Max? I thought better of you." It was Kai of course. He jumped down from the tree he had been sitting it. I realized he had been watching my pathetic excuse for beyblading and looked away, ashamed.
Kai shook his head slightly then said, in that calm, cool, collected voice, "Getting all worked up isn't going to fix this situation with your Mom. It's also obviously not helping your beyblading one bit."
I was shocked, but Kai wasn't done yet. He then said, "Talk to her Max. And that's an order." He was quiet for a while, then continued, "As to your problem with your beyblading, I may have an idea as to how to fix it. If you are done moping, that is."
Kai helped me bring out Draceil's true ability. I think that's what really beat Michael. That and the fact Kai believed I could win. I didn't want to disappoint him, for some reason, his belief meant a lot to me.
And now, it's up to us to redeem ourselves and bring Kai back.
No more sulking around, it's time to find Kai.
(End Of Journal Entry)
"That's right Max, we've got to pull ourselves together!" Rei said suddenly, surprising Max. Max didn't realize he said that last part out loud.
Rei and Max, after some time, managed to pry Tyson away from his sandwich, and went in search of Kenny, whom they found typing on his lap top. Dizzy being surprisingly quiet.
"Hey Kenny, have you found out where Kai could be?" Rei asked as the trio flopped down next to Kenny. Max and Tyson, munching on his sandwich now that there was hope, nodded eagerly.
Kenny looked up and shocked the others with his huge grin.
"Umm, Kenny, dude, friend, buddy, you're ugh... you're scaring us. What's up?" Tyson said, edging away.
Kenny laughed a bit, and filled them in. "I finally got my GBPS set up!"
Blank stares met him.
He sighed and said, "GBPS means Global Bitbeast Positioning System. Using that, I can track Kai's whereabouts through Dranzer!"
"All right! Kenny!" Max said, but frowned, "Hey what's up with Dizzy?"
Kenny stopped and muttered, "I honestly have no idea... She's just clamed up!"
The others all glanced at the silent laptop. Rei sighed and said, "Well, out with it! Where is that captain of ours?"
One word met him.
"England."
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(Tala And Kai {The Guys You Really Want To Read About!})
Tala and Kai both sat in the brightly lit restaurant. Both had thought it would be best to go out of the hotel for lunch, neither boy had much faith in hotel cooks, after some bad experiences.
"So Kai, what do you want?" Tala asked, skimming the menu. He had already deciding to get two slices of pepperoni pizza, fries, and coke.
Kai glanced once more at his menu and replied, while hailing a waiter, "Same as you."
Tala frowned, then said, "I didn't even tell you what I'm getting yet..."
Kai rolled his eyes, and told the waiter, "We'll have four slices of pepperoni pizza, two orders of fries, and two medium cokes." The waiter took all this down, then went to get their food.
Tala looked at Kai shocked. "How the freaking hell.."
Kai smirked, "You ALWAYS order the EXACT same thing EVERY time!"
Tala growled, and started to eat as soon as their food was set down in front of them. After they finished eating, they got up, paid for their lunch, then walked out under the gray, dreary skies of London, England.
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Tala flopped down in front of the TV in their hotel room. Kai had decided to wander around a bit, while Tala had opted out wandering in the rain. Instead, he now sat bored as hell in front of a TV with cable, that had nothing on.
"Not even an old, corny movie on..." He mused out loud, pacing the room, looking for something to do. He made himself a sandwich, peanut butter and jelly, and then decided he wasn't hungry. Sticking the sandwich in the fridge, he walked to his room, and rummaged around in his duffel bag, finally finding his journal. He then spent ten minutes looking for a pen. Finally getting settles down, he lay sprawled across his bed and began to write.
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GOB: I'm going to try to NOT make Tala's journal entry depressing. So don't be all shocked when it's not.
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(Tala's Journal)
I Am Bored...
Kai's out there somewhere, walking around in the rain. I have no idea why on earth he's out there, getting himself soaked to the bone. He's going to catch pneumonia, or worse! Serves him right for not listening to me though...
My god! I sound like a freaking nitpicky, overprotective, mother!
But Kai was always someone who refused to listen to anything anyone else said if he had even a shadow of a doubt. He's also the type of person who would seriously drive you mentally and criminally insane if you tried to figure out why he does the things he does, why he says the things he says, and why he acts the way he acts.
Like the things he said when we first met. Especially the part of calling me a cheater and requesting a rematch.
I still have a hard time understanding what he meant when he said that, even though he's explained it to me time and time again. I'll write down his explanation, as word for word as I can possibly get it.
~ "You're confused, right? Can't say that I'm surprised, you may be smart Tala, but you can be pretty dense time to time. Look, no interruptions.
You want to know why I said, 'I'd like a rematch. You cheated.' Don't you.
There was a reason I asked you for a match with plain beyblades nothing special added on to it. I wanted to test your skill. Not your skill at handling your advanced beyblade, not your skill handling your bitbeast, but your pure raw skill and talent at beyblading. And you really let me down.
I expected more from you. You had much more skill than that. That was just pathetic. It looks like after all the time you spent on practicing with Wolborg, and your specialty blade, you forgot how to beyblade using just your talent, how to rely on yourself, and your own skill. You forgot what beyblading is really about.
Though sometimes, I wonder if it isn't 'what beyblading was about', instead of 'is about'. No one seems to care about relying on themselves anymore. Now, it's all about power...
Let me know when you remember how to really beyblade. Then... then I would like my rematch." ~
He then walked out of the room, leaving me stunned. The worst part was, he was right. About me forgetting how to really beyblade, how I stooped relying on myself... but he was also right about the other thing he said.
Not many beybladers seemed to care about relying on themselves, on their own skills and talents. Instead, it was all about power. No one cares if they hurt their bitbeasts, or if their bitbeasts are tired nowadays. No one cares about relying on their skills, not their sheer power. Beybattles these days are determined by who has the most power, not who is the most skilled. These days, you could have the most skilled beyblader in the world, who does not have a bitbeast, up against the most idiotic person in the world, who by some strange twist of fate has a bitbeast, and everyone expects the kid with the bitbeast to win. And what's worst, the kid with the bitbeast usually does. The person with the skill gives up before the match even starts because they believe only the powerful will ever win.
I know how much Kai hates that. I guess that's why he took a liking to the Bladebreakers. They were some of the few beybladers that relied on skill and themselves, instead of just power. But now, even they are being sucked in. Into a world where only the powerful will prevail.
I think a part of Kai dies whenever that happens, a part of his determination, his hope, his light. He believes so damn strongly about not relying purely on power. That was one of the reasons he was punished so often at the abbey. He refused to buy into what we were being forced to believe.
He always believed in what he deemed true. And that's one of the reasons so many people respect him. So many people, that know the truth about Kai. Not the truth about The Great Kai Hiwatari, but the truth about Kai, just Kai, and that's all that really matters.
(End Of Journal Entry)
{Narrator's P.O.V.}
Tala set down his pen and reread what he had just written. As he read it, a small smile crept onto his face. The Truth About Kai. Tala couldn't help but wonder if he indeed, knew the truth about Kai, or if he only knew a small sliver of what really went on behind the blunette's stone mask...
In all honesty, he didn't mind if he knew even less of the truth than that. He was glad just to know Kai. For him, that was enough.
Perfectly... enough.
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(Kai ~ Wandering Through The Streets In The Rain)
Kai took a deep breath. The air tasted slightly salty, and was extremely cold and wet, but it still cleansed his soul. He often used a series of breathing techniques to help clear his soul, mind and heart.
He shook his head slightly and water droplets flew all around him, but it didn't really matter, as it was still pouring outside, and he didn't bother bringing an umbrella with him, or even a jacket for that matter.
He was one of those people who liked the feeling of rain against his skin, and would always be seen walking around in it. He didn't mind getting wet, after all, it was just water. Kai sighed ever so slightly, then turned around.
He headed back to the hotel. He knew it was getting extremely late, and he didn't want to deal with any street gangs, not tonight anyway. He just wasn't in the mood for a fight. Normally, he went around looking for street gangs, or anyone in the alleys doing something they knew they shouldn't be.
He extremely disliked those gangs who attacked people without giving them a chance to defend themselves, or those who couldn't defend themselves even if they wanted to. Those type of people really pissed Kai off. So every now and then, more often now than then, he took to roaming the alleys at night and keeping them clean of trash, so to speak.
But tonight, he just wanted to head back to the hotel, take a shower, then head to bed.
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Kai towel dried his hair as he sat down on his bed. By the time he had gotten back, Tala had already fallen asleep. Kai had just rolled his eyes at his red headed friend sleeping half on and half off his bed. Kai had pushed him back onto the bed, fully this time, before going to his room, and taking a long, hot shower.
He had gotten dried and dressed, and was ready to go to sleep, but he just wasn't tired. He had tried to fall asleep, but after about an hour of laying in bed, doing nothing but staring at the ceiling, he had given up.
Kai walked around the room for a bit, but that got old fast. He was about to rip his hair out in boredom, but decided to write in his journal instead.
He grabbed a pen, which had coincidentally been the same pen that Tala had just been using before. Talk about weird occurrences.
Kai settled down in the couch, and began to write.
(Kai's Journal Entry)
{GOB: About time, huh?}
For some reason, today I feel so... so.... so refreshed, I guess.
I guess leaving the Bladebreakers did do some good after all. I know I should have told them I was leaving, but I just had to get away. I couldn't take it anymore. It was like... like I had forgotten who I was, why I am the way I am, and why I believe in what I do.
I had to find out more about myself, and I just couldn't do that around the Bladebreakers. But in no way is it their fault. I just needed to know more about myself. I needed to escape, to find who I truly am.
Knowing not who you are is the deepest sorrows you can ever hope not to have.
I am someone different to everyone. They all see me differently than others. To no one am I the same. I guess it may be the same for everyone.
Everyone may look at the exact same person at the exact same time, but none of them will think the exact same thing. Sure, they may be close, but not identical. Everyone views people differently. I know I do. I have different views on everybody. That includes the Bladebreakers, and my views on them would shock many.
Kenny, he's the smart, intelligent, somewhat nerdy one. But there's still more to him. He's not what you would call a great adventurer, or fearless, but he's got great determination and will. He always follows Tyson and the others into whatever stupid situation they put themselves in. He is also extremely willing to help, and keeps his word. If he says he'll fix your blade, he'll stay up all night fixing it. He'll always be ready to help you with advice, on almost anything. He is a bit of a coward, and a dork, but he's still ready and willing to help.
Rei, the calm, perceptive, somewhat nosy one. He's usually the calmest of the four. Though time and time again, he'll let himself loose, and join in the others crazy plans. It is probably a good thing he joins them, or else they would not get out of their messes quite so easily. Rei notices a great deal more than the others, most likely due to his neko-jin heritage. He is slightly nosy though, having the bad habit of questioning me time and time again, when all I want to do is be left alone, to think, and recollect myself, but all in all, he's a good person to be around.
Tyson... Tyson is like... a loose canon. Powerful, strong, but extremely wild. At times he can be smart, thoughtful, intelligent even, but sometimes, and this is what usually happens, he lets himself go crazy. Time and time again, he's led the others into one of his crazy schemes, only to need their help to get out of the mess he created. He's a good friend and a good person, with a genuinely good heart, but sometimes, it's all I can do, not to take his beyblade and shove it down his throat.
Max... Max is the one Bladebreaker who thoroughly puzzles me. He always seems so happy, so cheerful, but he's hiding something. He's hiding all his pain, all his doubts, from everyone but himself. I can tell that he's got a lot on his mind. Most people would see him as a deliriously happy go lucky kid, but there's a lot of hurt in him, hurt he hides with a smile. I know what it's like to hide the pain, all it does is make it worse. We may hide our pain differently, but neither way could make things any better.
I know what it's like to need someone. Lucky for me, I had, and will always have, Tala. He and I are more like brothers, than friends. He's always been there when I needed him, and I will always be there when he needs me.
I can trust him with anything, though I usually prefer to keep things to myself. No one needs my pain added on top of theirs. But Tala's always known if something was bothering me, without me saying a single word..
* If I told you that my world came crashing down when the towers did.... would you believe me...
* And if I told you that I feel all alone when I'm surrounded by people... would you tell me it will be all right...
* And if I told you that the fire wasn't over for me... would you tell me to just get over it...
* And if I said I don't think I have a best friend anymore... would you tell me that you'd be my best friend...
* And if I held my head up high... would you laugh... because I'm about to cry...
* And if I told you my own family won't talk to me... would you tell me they will get over the fact that I'm not perfect...
* And if I told you that I'm tired of always being messed with... would you tell me to stand up for my rights...
* And if I said that my teachers are too hard on me... would you tell me to keep going...
* And if I told you I can't sleep at night... would you hold me and tell me to take more time for myself...
* And if I told you I'm not sure if I'm coming or going anymore... would you tell me you don't think anyone does...
* And if I told you my life is falling apart... would you tell me it's not that bad...
* And if I closed my eyes tonight and didn't open them again... would you cry for me...
(End Of Journal Entry)
Kai set down his pen and journal and yawned. He walked into his room, put his stuff away, and turned off the light.
He fell into a deep, comforting, sleep soon after...
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GOB: The end! Finally! Now review!
AND DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW DANGEROUS MEMORIES!!! THAT HAS BEEN UPDATED TOO! WITH INFORMATION ON THE EXPLOSION!!!
Kai: Hn... yeah.. sure... whatever...
GOB: Man of many words, aren't you?
Kai: Hn.
GOB: Well, adios for now! See you all later, and make sure to review!!! Or else...
Tala: By the way, does anyone have any suggestions for this fic? If you do, let us know! We'd love to hear them!
Kai: No we wouldn't.
GOB: Shut up bishie boy!
Kai: *walks away*
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GOB: New chapter out, sorry about the very long wait!!!
Kai: You should be.
GOB: *Gasps* YOU WANT ME TO KEEP WRITING???
Kai: No. Just wanted to get your hopes up. *cruel smirk*
GOB: Evil demon... I don't own anything....
Kai: Damn right you don't.
GOB: BUT the plot. *Scowls*
Tala: O... k... Here is the thank you section...
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++ DragonBlade = Glad you liked it! It was all serious because I was really depressed.
++ wateva = I'm glad you like my fic that much! It makes it all worth writing ^_^!!!
++ DarkVixenOfLight = Hehe, I will tell you how he 'cheats' maybe in this chapter or maybe not. I don't know yet!
++ demon's-gurl = I hope you won't hate me for updating so late!!!
++ ruth 4 kai = I am deep... HERE THAT WORLD??? I AM DEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
++ Syaoran-Lover = As always, my trustful critic. Always telling me what I did wrong... LOL, I'm glad someone knows what grammar is... to me, it's all Japanese! The Bladebreakers will find them... somehow.... *means I have no idea*
++ Hiwatari-gurl = Yayness! I loved that chapter to ^_^ !
++ Maeris = LOL, that was a very random filled review! But good all the same!!!
++ Rya Starling = Nah, if anyone is finding Kai's JOURNAL it's Max or Tala. I'm not a big Tyson fan... *Holds gun with bullet that has Tyson's name engraved on it*
++ phoenix the 1st = Ahh, another loyal reader/reviewer. HUGS FOR EVERYONE!!!!!
++ Lefty = Awww, I'm not that good. Amazing maybe, but not good... ^_~
++ MasterFranny = I know! I did update Dangerous Memories, as I know you know! Oohhhh, Kai plushie 78....
++ ComputerDevil = My story rocks? YAY!!! Now you will know what happens!
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GOB: About the journal entries, I will be starting with Max's journal. Midway will be Tala's journal entry. Lastly, ending the chapter, will be Kai's journal entry. Now, go on, read the chapter that I have painstakingly typed out.
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( The Bladebreakers )
The Bladebreakers were all sulking around, depressed, in there hotel room.
Rei kept flipping the channels to the TV, trying to forget the current frustration that had consumed him since they had found out about Kai's sudden departure. He couldn't believe that they had missed him, just that barely. He was beginning to have serious doubts on whether they would find Kai at all. He felt as if they would always just miss him...
Tyson was sitting in the little kitchen, poking at his peanut butter and jelly sandwich. He had made the sandwich thinking it would help the slight depression he had gotten after hearing the horrible news. Kai had been so close, yet they had lost him... once again, they had lost him. Tyson just sat there, poking, poking, just poking at his sandwich. He had taken just one bite and put down the sandwich with a sigh. Food just wasn't the answer...
Kenny was the only one who was putting his depression into good use. He was using all the pain inside of him to fuel his search for Kai. He had decided to add Tala to his search as well, but it hurt him immensely to do that. He knew, deep down inside, though he refused to acknowledge it, he knew the Kai trusted Tala more than he trusted any of them.
Max sat on his bed, the lights turned off, writing in the light of a simple, but elegant, lamp, glancing out the window every now and then.
(Max's Journal)
Everyone is so depressed. I have always hated it when people got depressed, so I always tried my hardest to cheer up anyone and everyone who was depressed, but now... I can't...
I can't, because I just can't bring myself to cheer people up when I, myself, am depressed. It would feel all wrong... Like I was lying to them, giving them false hope, false cheer, false... everything. I know how much it hurts to be given false hope. I was given enough of it as a child, back when my parents were still together.
They would always tell me everything was okay, and that nothing was wrong, whenever I heard them fighting, or arguing as they put it, and went to them to ask what was wrong.
I must have asked them over a billion times if they were thinking of getting a divorce, or splitting up, or going bankrupt, or any of the other problems that adults always seem to have when they argue. Of course, like any other parents on the planet, they ensured me that nothing was wrong, that they would never think of getting a divorce, that they were only arguing because they were tired, that everything would be perfect in the morning.
But it wasn't.
Everything was always supposed to be all roses and sunshine and smiles, but my enchanted garden rot away almost as soon as it bloomed. It seemed as though everything was going great, and then my world, my beautiful world, was sent crashing all around me, each little shard burying itself into my heart. Reminding myself of the pain I felt, I still feel.
It seems that I'm always at my worst when I'm depressed, I just can't get out of it all by myself. I've always needed someone else to help pull me out of that state. I remember falling into a state of deep, melancholy depression during the American Tournament.
It hurt to see my Mom coaching another team of Bladers, and the fact that she lied about what she did for a living. I could hardly believe it. At first, I was happy to see her and happy to see her doing something that I knew she loved. But then, she didn't seem happy to see me at all. It was all wrong...
Everything was all awkward between us, nothing seemed like it was supposed to be. We should have been catching up on all the times we missed. But instead, we were avoiding each other... it hurt... a lot...
I remember how hard I practiced when Kai stepped back and let me face Michael in the finals. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get anything right. I remember getting really frustrated and throwing my launcher down in disgust, glaring as it landed next to an unmoving Draciel.
Then I heard a voice say, "Giving up so quickly, Max? I thought better of you." It was Kai of course. He jumped down from the tree he had been sitting it. I realized he had been watching my pathetic excuse for beyblading and looked away, ashamed.
Kai shook his head slightly then said, in that calm, cool, collected voice, "Getting all worked up isn't going to fix this situation with your Mom. It's also obviously not helping your beyblading one bit."
I was shocked, but Kai wasn't done yet. He then said, "Talk to her Max. And that's an order." He was quiet for a while, then continued, "As to your problem with your beyblading, I may have an idea as to how to fix it. If you are done moping, that is."
Kai helped me bring out Draceil's true ability. I think that's what really beat Michael. That and the fact Kai believed I could win. I didn't want to disappoint him, for some reason, his belief meant a lot to me.
And now, it's up to us to redeem ourselves and bring Kai back.
No more sulking around, it's time to find Kai.
(End Of Journal Entry)
"That's right Max, we've got to pull ourselves together!" Rei said suddenly, surprising Max. Max didn't realize he said that last part out loud.
Rei and Max, after some time, managed to pry Tyson away from his sandwich, and went in search of Kenny, whom they found typing on his lap top. Dizzy being surprisingly quiet.
"Hey Kenny, have you found out where Kai could be?" Rei asked as the trio flopped down next to Kenny. Max and Tyson, munching on his sandwich now that there was hope, nodded eagerly.
Kenny looked up and shocked the others with his huge grin.
"Umm, Kenny, dude, friend, buddy, you're ugh... you're scaring us. What's up?" Tyson said, edging away.
Kenny laughed a bit, and filled them in. "I finally got my GBPS set up!"
Blank stares met him.
He sighed and said, "GBPS means Global Bitbeast Positioning System. Using that, I can track Kai's whereabouts through Dranzer!"
"All right! Kenny!" Max said, but frowned, "Hey what's up with Dizzy?"
Kenny stopped and muttered, "I honestly have no idea... She's just clamed up!"
The others all glanced at the silent laptop. Rei sighed and said, "Well, out with it! Where is that captain of ours?"
One word met him.
"England."
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(Tala And Kai {The Guys You Really Want To Read About!})
Tala and Kai both sat in the brightly lit restaurant. Both had thought it would be best to go out of the hotel for lunch, neither boy had much faith in hotel cooks, after some bad experiences.
"So Kai, what do you want?" Tala asked, skimming the menu. He had already deciding to get two slices of pepperoni pizza, fries, and coke.
Kai glanced once more at his menu and replied, while hailing a waiter, "Same as you."
Tala frowned, then said, "I didn't even tell you what I'm getting yet..."
Kai rolled his eyes, and told the waiter, "We'll have four slices of pepperoni pizza, two orders of fries, and two medium cokes." The waiter took all this down, then went to get their food.
Tala looked at Kai shocked. "How the freaking hell.."
Kai smirked, "You ALWAYS order the EXACT same thing EVERY time!"
Tala growled, and started to eat as soon as their food was set down in front of them. After they finished eating, they got up, paid for their lunch, then walked out under the gray, dreary skies of London, England.
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Tala flopped down in front of the TV in their hotel room. Kai had decided to wander around a bit, while Tala had opted out wandering in the rain. Instead, he now sat bored as hell in front of a TV with cable, that had nothing on.
"Not even an old, corny movie on..." He mused out loud, pacing the room, looking for something to do. He made himself a sandwich, peanut butter and jelly, and then decided he wasn't hungry. Sticking the sandwich in the fridge, he walked to his room, and rummaged around in his duffel bag, finally finding his journal. He then spent ten minutes looking for a pen. Finally getting settles down, he lay sprawled across his bed and began to write.
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GOB: I'm going to try to NOT make Tala's journal entry depressing. So don't be all shocked when it's not.
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(Tala's Journal)
I Am Bored...
Kai's out there somewhere, walking around in the rain. I have no idea why on earth he's out there, getting himself soaked to the bone. He's going to catch pneumonia, or worse! Serves him right for not listening to me though...
My god! I sound like a freaking nitpicky, overprotective, mother!
But Kai was always someone who refused to listen to anything anyone else said if he had even a shadow of a doubt. He's also the type of person who would seriously drive you mentally and criminally insane if you tried to figure out why he does the things he does, why he says the things he says, and why he acts the way he acts.
Like the things he said when we first met. Especially the part of calling me a cheater and requesting a rematch.
I still have a hard time understanding what he meant when he said that, even though he's explained it to me time and time again. I'll write down his explanation, as word for word as I can possibly get it.
~ "You're confused, right? Can't say that I'm surprised, you may be smart Tala, but you can be pretty dense time to time. Look, no interruptions.
You want to know why I said, 'I'd like a rematch. You cheated.' Don't you.
There was a reason I asked you for a match with plain beyblades nothing special added on to it. I wanted to test your skill. Not your skill at handling your advanced beyblade, not your skill handling your bitbeast, but your pure raw skill and talent at beyblading. And you really let me down.
I expected more from you. You had much more skill than that. That was just pathetic. It looks like after all the time you spent on practicing with Wolborg, and your specialty blade, you forgot how to beyblade using just your talent, how to rely on yourself, and your own skill. You forgot what beyblading is really about.
Though sometimes, I wonder if it isn't 'what beyblading was about', instead of 'is about'. No one seems to care about relying on themselves anymore. Now, it's all about power...
Let me know when you remember how to really beyblade. Then... then I would like my rematch." ~
He then walked out of the room, leaving me stunned. The worst part was, he was right. About me forgetting how to really beyblade, how I stooped relying on myself... but he was also right about the other thing he said.
Not many beybladers seemed to care about relying on themselves, on their own skills and talents. Instead, it was all about power. No one cares if they hurt their bitbeasts, or if their bitbeasts are tired nowadays. No one cares about relying on their skills, not their sheer power. Beybattles these days are determined by who has the most power, not who is the most skilled. These days, you could have the most skilled beyblader in the world, who does not have a bitbeast, up against the most idiotic person in the world, who by some strange twist of fate has a bitbeast, and everyone expects the kid with the bitbeast to win. And what's worst, the kid with the bitbeast usually does. The person with the skill gives up before the match even starts because they believe only the powerful will ever win.
I know how much Kai hates that. I guess that's why he took a liking to the Bladebreakers. They were some of the few beybladers that relied on skill and themselves, instead of just power. But now, even they are being sucked in. Into a world where only the powerful will prevail.
I think a part of Kai dies whenever that happens, a part of his determination, his hope, his light. He believes so damn strongly about not relying purely on power. That was one of the reasons he was punished so often at the abbey. He refused to buy into what we were being forced to believe.
He always believed in what he deemed true. And that's one of the reasons so many people respect him. So many people, that know the truth about Kai. Not the truth about The Great Kai Hiwatari, but the truth about Kai, just Kai, and that's all that really matters.
(End Of Journal Entry)
{Narrator's P.O.V.}
Tala set down his pen and reread what he had just written. As he read it, a small smile crept onto his face. The Truth About Kai. Tala couldn't help but wonder if he indeed, knew the truth about Kai, or if he only knew a small sliver of what really went on behind the blunette's stone mask...
In all honesty, he didn't mind if he knew even less of the truth than that. He was glad just to know Kai. For him, that was enough.
Perfectly... enough.
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(Kai ~ Wandering Through The Streets In The Rain)
Kai took a deep breath. The air tasted slightly salty, and was extremely cold and wet, but it still cleansed his soul. He often used a series of breathing techniques to help clear his soul, mind and heart.
He shook his head slightly and water droplets flew all around him, but it didn't really matter, as it was still pouring outside, and he didn't bother bringing an umbrella with him, or even a jacket for that matter.
He was one of those people who liked the feeling of rain against his skin, and would always be seen walking around in it. He didn't mind getting wet, after all, it was just water. Kai sighed ever so slightly, then turned around.
He headed back to the hotel. He knew it was getting extremely late, and he didn't want to deal with any street gangs, not tonight anyway. He just wasn't in the mood for a fight. Normally, he went around looking for street gangs, or anyone in the alleys doing something they knew they shouldn't be.
He extremely disliked those gangs who attacked people without giving them a chance to defend themselves, or those who couldn't defend themselves even if they wanted to. Those type of people really pissed Kai off. So every now and then, more often now than then, he took to roaming the alleys at night and keeping them clean of trash, so to speak.
But tonight, he just wanted to head back to the hotel, take a shower, then head to bed.
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Kai towel dried his hair as he sat down on his bed. By the time he had gotten back, Tala had already fallen asleep. Kai had just rolled his eyes at his red headed friend sleeping half on and half off his bed. Kai had pushed him back onto the bed, fully this time, before going to his room, and taking a long, hot shower.
He had gotten dried and dressed, and was ready to go to sleep, but he just wasn't tired. He had tried to fall asleep, but after about an hour of laying in bed, doing nothing but staring at the ceiling, he had given up.
Kai walked around the room for a bit, but that got old fast. He was about to rip his hair out in boredom, but decided to write in his journal instead.
He grabbed a pen, which had coincidentally been the same pen that Tala had just been using before. Talk about weird occurrences.
Kai settled down in the couch, and began to write.
(Kai's Journal Entry)
{GOB: About time, huh?}
For some reason, today I feel so... so.... so refreshed, I guess.
I guess leaving the Bladebreakers did do some good after all. I know I should have told them I was leaving, but I just had to get away. I couldn't take it anymore. It was like... like I had forgotten who I was, why I am the way I am, and why I believe in what I do.
I had to find out more about myself, and I just couldn't do that around the Bladebreakers. But in no way is it their fault. I just needed to know more about myself. I needed to escape, to find who I truly am.
Knowing not who you are is the deepest sorrows you can ever hope not to have.
I am someone different to everyone. They all see me differently than others. To no one am I the same. I guess it may be the same for everyone.
Everyone may look at the exact same person at the exact same time, but none of them will think the exact same thing. Sure, they may be close, but not identical. Everyone views people differently. I know I do. I have different views on everybody. That includes the Bladebreakers, and my views on them would shock many.
Kenny, he's the smart, intelligent, somewhat nerdy one. But there's still more to him. He's not what you would call a great adventurer, or fearless, but he's got great determination and will. He always follows Tyson and the others into whatever stupid situation they put themselves in. He is also extremely willing to help, and keeps his word. If he says he'll fix your blade, he'll stay up all night fixing it. He'll always be ready to help you with advice, on almost anything. He is a bit of a coward, and a dork, but he's still ready and willing to help.
Rei, the calm, perceptive, somewhat nosy one. He's usually the calmest of the four. Though time and time again, he'll let himself loose, and join in the others crazy plans. It is probably a good thing he joins them, or else they would not get out of their messes quite so easily. Rei notices a great deal more than the others, most likely due to his neko-jin heritage. He is slightly nosy though, having the bad habit of questioning me time and time again, when all I want to do is be left alone, to think, and recollect myself, but all in all, he's a good person to be around.
Tyson... Tyson is like... a loose canon. Powerful, strong, but extremely wild. At times he can be smart, thoughtful, intelligent even, but sometimes, and this is what usually happens, he lets himself go crazy. Time and time again, he's led the others into one of his crazy schemes, only to need their help to get out of the mess he created. He's a good friend and a good person, with a genuinely good heart, but sometimes, it's all I can do, not to take his beyblade and shove it down his throat.
Max... Max is the one Bladebreaker who thoroughly puzzles me. He always seems so happy, so cheerful, but he's hiding something. He's hiding all his pain, all his doubts, from everyone but himself. I can tell that he's got a lot on his mind. Most people would see him as a deliriously happy go lucky kid, but there's a lot of hurt in him, hurt he hides with a smile. I know what it's like to hide the pain, all it does is make it worse. We may hide our pain differently, but neither way could make things any better.
I know what it's like to need someone. Lucky for me, I had, and will always have, Tala. He and I are more like brothers, than friends. He's always been there when I needed him, and I will always be there when he needs me.
I can trust him with anything, though I usually prefer to keep things to myself. No one needs my pain added on top of theirs. But Tala's always known if something was bothering me, without me saying a single word..
* If I told you that my world came crashing down when the towers did.... would you believe me...
* And if I told you that I feel all alone when I'm surrounded by people... would you tell me it will be all right...
* And if I told you that the fire wasn't over for me... would you tell me to just get over it...
* And if I said I don't think I have a best friend anymore... would you tell me that you'd be my best friend...
* And if I held my head up high... would you laugh... because I'm about to cry...
* And if I told you my own family won't talk to me... would you tell me they will get over the fact that I'm not perfect...
* And if I told you that I'm tired of always being messed with... would you tell me to stand up for my rights...
* And if I said that my teachers are too hard on me... would you tell me to keep going...
* And if I told you I can't sleep at night... would you hold me and tell me to take more time for myself...
* And if I told you I'm not sure if I'm coming or going anymore... would you tell me you don't think anyone does...
* And if I told you my life is falling apart... would you tell me it's not that bad...
* And if I closed my eyes tonight and didn't open them again... would you cry for me...
(End Of Journal Entry)
Kai set down his pen and journal and yawned. He walked into his room, put his stuff away, and turned off the light.
He fell into a deep, comforting, sleep soon after...
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GOB: The end! Finally! Now review!
AND DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW DANGEROUS MEMORIES!!! THAT HAS BEEN UPDATED TOO! WITH INFORMATION ON THE EXPLOSION!!!
Kai: Hn... yeah.. sure... whatever...
GOB: Man of many words, aren't you?
Kai: Hn.
GOB: Well, adios for now! See you all later, and make sure to review!!! Or else...
Tala: By the way, does anyone have any suggestions for this fic? If you do, let us know! We'd love to hear them!
Kai: No we wouldn't.
GOB: Shut up bishie boy!
Kai: *walks away*
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