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Forlorn
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GOB: I'm back! And I am so sorry about the delayed updates... I really have no excuse except for the fact exams are soon and that I'm a lazy sheep... I really owe kazeilla, Mary, and Jade for bugging the hell out of me to update!
Since summers coming soon, I'll try to update as much as I possible can, but I'm beginning to hit problems with this fic... I've decided to hold a poll. The question is: DO YOU THINK Kai SHOULD RETURN TO THE BLADEBREAKERS, STAY WITH TALA, RETIRE FROM BLADING ALL TOGETHER, OR OTHER??? The 'other' is as of yet undecided....
Please, please, please answer this question in your reviews!!! It's very important!!!
Tala: Will you shut up now?
GOB: looks at Tala WAHHHHHHHHHHH! TALA HATES ME!!!!!!!
Kai: Smooth... Now She's going to make my life a living hell...
GOB: Yep! Oh, and I'm wondering if I should change my pen name, what do you people think???
Tala: -- Why me...
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Thanks To:
Hiwatari-gurl – Yay! I'm glad you liked that poem... I want to go to England too... Bet many people do since Kai's there... but not for long!
Kazeilla – Whoa... You liked all of those parts? Hehe, so did I..
phoenix the 1st – I feel like a real jerk saying this, but who are you on msn? I am horrible at remembering stuff like this! I'm so glad that you liked the ending! I wasn't sure if it was any good!
Sacred Phoenix – Your review... if was so awesome! I think I'll probably add the Majestics in this fic, but only small roles... no one takes the spotlight of MY Kai!!! I'm glad I gave you a new perspective!
Syaoran-Lover – Spelling is the work of the devil... or a teacher with way to much time on their hands... same thing really... If spell-check doesn't pick up my mistakes, I don't care... I bet Kai never had to worry about spelling...
Lefty – Lol, penguins who fly... Hehe... I tried not to be too depressing in my fics... it just brings me down!
Dark Wolf88 – NO! There is more! I'm only skimming the surface, and there's a hell of a lot more to go!
demon's-gurl – Awwww, thanks! That's so great that you like my poetry!
MasterFranny – I feel so bad for not updating in forever! But I hope this chapter lives up to your expectations!
false-image – I don't know when they'll find one another... but hopefully not too soon!
tiger-of-ice – Thanks for the review! Have a cookie! Actually, all of you can have cookies!!!
Lychee Fairy – 2 things: Your reviews are all freaking long!!! Not that I mind, but man! I never put even half of what you do down! Thanks! And stop belittling yourself! You're the best friend anyone could ever hope to have! You are always there when I need you! Your review for chapter 10 nearly made me cry... You mean more to me than you could possibly ever understand. I will always be there for you. So stop being sad, and smile. Because your smiles make me happy, and I will always care for you! SO SMILE!!! Or Dranzer will eat you... Bwahaha...
DragonPhoenix77 – Short and to the point! Just like moi! See, I know French. I'm smart!
Sharon – GOMEN!!! I thought this was pg-13... GOMEN!!!!!
kaytast – I have a cool story? YAY!!! Thanks for the review!
Glaive Of Fury – Poor, poor Kai. Oh well, he's a bishie... that's gotta count for something...
PainOfAnguish – Candy??? I WANT CANDY!!! Here! I give you review and you give me candy, otay? PLEASE????????
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GOB: Wow, 17 reviews... False-image, I know my updates are rare, but I'm sorry I just don't have much free time!!! Oh and do you people even read my replies? Make sure to let me know! ON WITH THE CHAPTER!!!!!
Kai, Tala: About time...
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The Bladebreakers
The others all glanced at the silent laptop. Rei sighed and said, "Well, out with it! Where is that captain of ours?"
One word met him.
"England."
"England..." Max repeated softly, and then suddenly said, "Well, what are we waiting for? Let's go!"
The others suddenly started madly dashing around, getting all their stuff together so they could leave at once, when Dizzi spoke up, saying in a bitter voice,
"What if he doesn't want to be found? You have to account for that! Kai may have left because it was what is best for him!" The others looked shocked, then Tyson once again let his temper take over him.
"WHAT WOULD YOU KNOW??? YOU'RE JUST A SARCASTIC BITBEAST TRAPPED IN A FREAKING LAPTOP!!!"
With that Tyson stomped out, to finish packing. The others, glancing at one another, followed suit. Max paused by Dizzi, and said softly,
"We know what your saying, but we have to talk to him. He's our friend, and a good one at that, we have to at least try. Even if we don't get him back, we have to try. Kai always told us to never sit down, but to always try our best, and when defeat comes, accept it. That's what we all have to do now. And we could sure use all the help we can get."
With that, Max turned around and quickly started packing his own belongings.
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Still The Bladebreakers
Dizzi waited quietly in her laptop abode, pondering Max's words... She sighed softly, and thought to herself,
"I hope I'm doing the right thing letting them find him Dranzer. I know you asked me to just give Kai some time, but no one could have seen how Kai leaving would affect them... They were all hit extremely hard, but Max more so. He seems to have matured overnight... no longer innocent... The look in his eyes... I'm positive that things aren't what they seem, but it still worries me. Please forgive me for breaking my word. Although, this may end of being the best for everyone, even Kai and Tala.
We can't interfere... this is something that they have to get through... together..."
The Bladebreakers packed up all their belongings and Kenny grabbed Dizzi on their way out the door, and towards the airport. They choose to take the plane as it was faster and they couldn't risk the chance of missing Kai once more.
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Kai & Tala
(I know, about time!)
"Hey Kai, you busy?" Tala called out, running his hands through his now neatly brushed hair. He didn't even wait for an answer before entering his friend's room.
"Will you ever learn to wait?" Kai asked, rolling his eyes. He stood in the middle of his room, wearing nothing but his pants, using a towel to dry his unruly hair.
"Perhaps... When you learn to use a freaking hairdryer!" Tala shot back good- naturedly. He flopped on the bed and gazed out the window. "So what do you want to do?"
Kai sighed and tossed his towel on the floor and finished dressing. "I don't know. Why don't we just wander around?"
"Walk around with no purpose except to create shadows and waste precious oxygen? Works for me." Tala said with a faint smirk on his face, which was immediately wiped off when a hairbrush nearly missed his head.
"Damn." Kai murmured, to which Tala swiftly asked,
"What?"
Kai gazed at him, then said calmly,
"I missed."
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The Bladebreakers
Max, Rei, Kenny, and Tyson sat in their seats, mentally urging the plane to hurry to London. Unfortunately, all the ordering, pleading, begging, and cursing in the world couldn't get the plane to go any faster than it was already.
Tyson sat next to the window, and nervously sipped at his drink every thirty seconds. He must have gone through over ten drinks already, but no one seemed to notice. They had much better things to think about, than Tyson's drinking habit. ... (GOB: No, he's not going to get drunk.)
Kenny sat next to Tyson. He hadn't let his eyes wander anywhere other than the screen of his laptop. He kept trying to pinpoint Kai's exact location. It was increasingly difficult as Dizzi was, unusually, being extremely uncooperative. Nevertheless, Kenny kept working. He was determined not to give up until he found Kai...
Rei sat on the aisle seat right behind Kenny. He had tried to pass the time by playing solitaire. Using the little tray thing he set up the cards, and began methodically setting the cards, hardly paying any attention to the game. Solitaire... Solitary... It seemed to fit Kai. Kai always seemed to prefer being alone, being one. The game solitaire is played by one and one alone. Almost the way Kai insists on playing the game of life...
Max gazed out the window; a new, empty page of his journal lay in front of him, along with a dark blue pen. The others had noticed how hard Kai's disappearance had hit Max. They had avoided the topic mostly because they couldn't think of anything to make themselves feel any better, much less someone else. As Max gazed out the window, he could see the clouds drifting by, changing their shape so effortlessly. He sighed; thinking just hurt so much. He let his gaze drift along until it reached his wrist, covered in its usual gloves. He closed his eyes tightly as he remembered the color of his blood, the blood that had seeped through the two thin slits he had made in his wrist just before the plane took off. He had disappeared for a moment, and then had returned. The others were too preoccupied to notice, so no one questioned him.
No one ever questioned his short, but purposeful, disappearances. Well, almost no one...
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Max's Journal Entry
I know the scars are still there. The older ones may be fading, but new ones are always taking their place.
Right now, we're on a plane to London, to find Kai. It turns out that he is NOT alone, but with Tala. It hurts. It hurts to know that he couldn't trust us with his pain, but that he trusted Tala instead. Especially after what happened in the Russian tournament.
It still seems like a dark, dark dream, no nightmare. It hurt us to know that Kai hadn't considered us as friends, but come on, who could blame him? We were all so immature and never gave him the space he desperately needed. After all, Kai is Kai, and nothing will ever be able to change that.
I still remember overhearing part of a conversation they had, right before we left the stadium after Tyson's victory. I heard Tala saying that nothings changed between them, that nothing ever would. I guess I took it for granted that he meant that they would always hate one another and would never become friends.
But now that I think about it. I think he meant that even after all that happened, they would always remain friends. I guess it's a good thing that Kai does indeed have at least one very good friend that he trusts with everything. Still, I wish that friend could've been me, or any of the Bladebreakers.
We are always saying that Kai's our friend, but we don't know anything about him. Nothing at all...
I'm really beginning to think that we all don't know much about one another. I mean, I don't know the names of Rei's parents, or whether or not he has any siblings. I don't know what happened to Tyson's mom, or if he is an only child or not. And Kenny, I have no clue as to how Dizzi got trapped in that laptop, or how good/bad of a beyblader he was before that.
It's strange to think you are such great and close friends with someone, but not really know them at all. With Kai, it's really obvious that we don't know much about him, but you'd think we knew a lot about one another.
Maybe... just maybe, if they did know a lot about me, they'd know about my scars, about the color of blood I shed, about the times I couldn't take it anymore, and cut my wrists out of pain, anger, helplessness.
And if they did know all that, maybe they'd be able to help me. Just like Kai did. Just like Kai always does.
As much as we all love to call Kai a cold loner, and yes, we DO enjoy calling him that, he's still been there for us more than we have been for him, or each other. He gave up his fight against Michael at the American Tournament so I could blade. Sure, he said he didn't feel like blading that day anyway, but I am completely positive that he did want to blade. When he beyblade's he seems to completely light up, and becomes something you just can't help but admire
We respect him, but true admiration can only be attained from someone completely well rounded, like Kai. But even he needs help sometimes, and I wish I could help, but I don't know what to do. I wish... I just wish I could help...
I just wish there was more I could do...
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The Bladebreakers
As Max put away his journal and put away his pen, he resumed staring out the window, but not before letting a few precious tears spill. He quickly wiped them away leaving no trace.
Rei stopped his game, and heard a voice whisper softly, "I just wish there was more I could do..." He glanced immediately at Max, but nothing in the blonde's demeanor seemed to suggest any of the agony of what Rei had just heard. He wrote it off as his imagination and went back to playing solitaire.
Tyson took another sip of his soda. Kenny tapped the keys on his laptop. All was wrong with the Bladebreakers.
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Kai & Tala
- Wandering The Streets -
Kai and Tala walked side y side through the crowded streets of London, neither one really caring where they were going. They just went wherever their feet took them.
And their feet took them into the dark alleyways. Even in the morning light, the alleys were filled with shadows.
They heard loud angry voices coming from somewhere up ahead, then the unmistakable sound of a bone breaking and a child's scream...
Without a word, Kai shot forward towards the sound, with Tala following closely behind.
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Mr. Dickinson
(GOB: Hehe, I forgot about him! Here's an update from the world of the balding buffoon!)
Mr. Dickinson sat quietly at his desk, gazing out the window, but seeing nothing.
He was deeply worried and troubled that the Bladebreakers had lost Kai in Russia, and even more so that he was traveling with Tala Ivanov. In Mr. Dickinson's opinion, Kai and Tala were better off completely apart from one another. They were both incredibly powerful and if anyone got hold of both of their powers, the results would be incredibly devastating.
He sighed and got up. He walked over to his filing cabinet and unlocked the bottom drawer. He pulled it open and began ruffling through files until he found the one he was searching for.
He closed the drawer, but left it unlocked. He carried the file and set it down on his desk. He then sat down heavily and stared at the file for a few moments. He let out another deep sigh and opened the file.
The file was filled with information on Kai and Tala's past together. It was one of the only files recovered from Boris, Voltaire and the abbey.
It seemed that the immense friendship once help by these two was of little concern of Biovolt's.
It shocked him to see what Kai and Tala had been subjected to, and how they'd pulled through together. It was seldom that only one of them got punished. It was always the two of them, together.
They seemed to be incredibly close, all the Demolition Boys actually, but those two in particular. Stanley Dickinson closed his eyes thoughtfully.
He wondered if that was why Kai had confided in Tala. Even if they were on opposite sides, could their friendship prevail? Could their bond be strong enough to pull them through the pain they had been subjected throughout their whole lives?
He could only hope so. He couldn't even begin to fantasize or imagine the horrors they had seen, and at such young, impressionable ages. He knew many people would not have been able to break through the darkness, but those two had.
He suddenly remembered what his predecessor, the old head of the BBA, had once told him about Kai,
"If there will be anyone who'll shock the world into change, it will be that boy, Kai Hiwatari. He has the spirit, intelligence, heart and soul of a true warrior. Tala Ivanov is also a strong candidate, but my money's on Kai... It always will be. Even if he does something that would seem incredibly stupid and heartless to a normal person, he always manages to get something worthwhile out of it. The world needs more people who are able to stretch their wings. Keep an eye on him Stanley he may just surprise you. In fact, I'm counting on it."
Every day Kai was proving him right, and Dickinson was favorably impressed.
(GOB: Well? What do you people think?)
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Once Again, Kai And Tala!
As they made their ways towards the noise, they saw something that utterly disgusted them.
There were to cruel looking teenagers, probably only a year or two older than Kai or Tala beating up on a kid who couldn't have been more than ten.
"Just give us the blade and everything else you got kid, and we won't hafta hurt ya!"
The little boy shuddered and took another step backwards. His nose was bleeding and he had a black eye. He also looked incredibly terrified.
Tala noticed that Kai's eyes had turned into very dark, very angry, slits of molten lava. Dangerous... He knew Kai was going to blow up at this...
30 Minutes Later
Kai and Tala leaned against the wall, both bleeding slightly. Kai pushed himself off the wall and went over to the young boy who was now sitting in shock.
"Hey kid, you okay?" Kai asked gruffly, to which the boy nodded and then, Kai just turned around and walked away, with Tala trailing behind, leaving the boy staring in pure wonder.
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Still Tala And Kai
(GOB: Felt badly about always saying Kai and Tala... Tala deserves top billing sometimes!)
Tala lounged on his bed. Kai was taking a shower, to clean off all the blood. Tala's wet hair dripped on the bedspread.
He studied the pattern. It was a deep, dark, icy blue on the background, with little pale blue/violet snowflakes. He searched for two that were alike, but even on this fabric; they were completely different, unique, yet all the same in some way.
He sighed and pulled out his journal. He knew Kai well enough to know that Kai took extremely long showers after getting into a fight.
Tala pulled out a purple pen (Dun ask why...) and began to write.
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Tala's Journal Entry
(GOB: Sorry if the rest of the chapter is rushed, I really want to finish it quickly! GOMEN!!! GOMENESS TO ALL!!!)
Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Bored... Still Bored... Still Bored... Still Bored... Still Bored... Still Bored... Still Bored... Still Bored... Still Bored... Even More Bored... Even More Bored... Even More Bored... Even More Bored... Even More Bored... Even More Bored... Even More Bored...
God... There's NOTHING to do. Why the hell does Kai need to take those stupid extra-long showers? Waste of time...
Though, I have to admit, I've never seen him move so fast. I knew he was a great fighter, but that, that was just incredible! He really seemed in tune with himself. I've seen him make many stupid, careless mistakes in street fights before, but he didn't seem to be allowing any mistakes...
Kai: Defender Of The Weak...
Heh, he would kill me if he ever got the chance to read that... But it's true what Bryan said all those years ago; Kai really does defend the weak.
He can't stand just watching someone fight someone else that they couldn't possibly defeat, so he always takes it upon himself to even the odds, but only when he's sure that no one's around. I guess he just doesn't like to be thought of as a decent guy...
Still... He is a pretty good guy, not like the Bladebreakers good, but his own way. He always seems to have his own way of doing things.
He's still in the shower... for God's sake, what takes him so long... It's lunch and I'm starving... I bet I could out-eat Tyson... now that, would be an accomplishment!!!
Speaking... or is it writing? Of accomplishments, Kai told me the strangest thin a few days ago.
He was saying how disappointed he was, how he hadn't accomplished anything. It shocked me, I mean here he is, a famous world-class beyblader, friend s/allies with over half the world, greatly respected and admired, how could he not have achieved something?
And I told him that. His answer really worried me. He said,
"Because no one can know who I am until I find out myself."
It really worried me. Kai was always the strongest person I knew. But hearing him say stuff like that hit me hard. I guess I just didn't want to believe that someone whom I admired so much didn't think he was that great. It was strange, because, for some reason I'm still not sure of, that comment made just me admire him all the more.
I don't always understand what Kai means, but I don't care. Kai is the type of person who prefers to let you figure things out yourself, only offering hints and questions. I've learned more from him in a day than I have from any other person for however long I know them. And nothing will ever change that.
I will never let anyone change that. Kai's too damn important to me to do that. He's not only my best friend, but he's also like a brother to me. There aren't many people who I can believe in without a reason, so I cherish those I can.
Something Kai taught me a while ago, was to never let anyone choose the course of your future...
'You can't let anyone choose how your future, how your very destiny, plays out. Only you can decide which paths to take, which dreams to fulfill, and which horrors to survive. You can't give anyone else the chance to make these decisions for you. Or they will control you. Even your dearest and most cherished friends must stand aside and give you the time and solitude in which to find your way. Only you can be your savior.'
And he was right. I just hope the Bladebreakers will let Kai make his choice.
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Kai And Tala
Kai walked out of the steaming shower and got dressed. As he walked past Tala's bedroom, he noticed the door was wide open He glanced a Tala and frowned.
Tala was gazing at nothing, with a very deep, serious, somewhat remorseful, expression on his pale face.
Kai stopped for a moment, then resumed his way. He decided to give Tala time to go through his thoughts, instead of just barging in.
And hour.
Then, he would barge in and demand to know what was going on.
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Bryan's P.O.V.
(GOB: Yes, Bryan. I decided I wanted to add another Demolition Boy. I'm going to start capitalizing on the relationships of the Demolition Boys and Kai, maybe at least... Once again, NO ROMANCE!)
It's been three days since I last heard from Tala and Kai. I have no idea what the hell is going on.
Last time I talked to them, they were both in a melancholy mood, which surprised me. Usually they try to fake that they're fine, but this time they didn't even bother to try and hide what they were feeling.
Then again, that may be a good thing.
Both of those guys keep too much hidden on the inside. It's not good for them, or those around them. We all hate to see them trying so hard to keep us from worrying, always trying to protect us, Kai especially.
Many people probably think we hate Kai, but that's completely retarded. It takes more than a switch of teams to break our friendships. We are too close to let that happen.
Kai was always trying to protect us. If one of us were going to be punished, he would try his hardest to take the blame and be the only one punished. If that didn't work, he'd then make sure to pretend he had some major part in whatever got us in trouble, and get usually three times the punishment.
Just because he was Voltaire's grandson and the supposed 'perfect warrior' they treated him much worse than anyone else, even those who sought to bring down Biovolt.
I swear, if they don't contact me soon, I'm going after them myself. Screw that, I'm going to get an ARMY to search for them!
But I hope it won't come to that. They both need some time to clear their heads...
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Kai
Kai walked back into his room after getting a quick bite to eat. He had also grabbed Tala some lunch and left that on the counter. He'd give it to Tala when he confronted him.
He sighed and lay on his bed, staring up at the ceiling for a moment. He was bored.
He reached over and pulled out his journal, frowning when he realized he had already used a little over half of the book. He sighed and pulled out his pen and began to write.
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Max's P.O.V.
Why can't I get over the scars from the past? It hurts to remember, but, looking at Kai, I guess it hurts to forget too.
I can't imagine forgetting everything at such a young age, especially my parents. Even though they never got along, even though most of my memories are of them arguing, even if I don't see my mother for long periods of time, I don't know how I could ever live without them.
Then again, I don't know how I can live with them. I first started to cut myself when they began their arguing, or 'discussing' as they put it. But I am no fool, nor am I naive as people make me out to be.
All that yelling, day in, day out. It got so bad that sometimes I tried to get in trouble with my teachers, tried to get held after school, all so I wouldn't have had to go home.
It wasn't a home anymore, but a battleground.
I never told anyone about that except for Kai. And I sometimes don't understand why.
I guess that there's just some part of Kai, some part that makes you know that he'll listen, that he'll care, that he would understand. Understand anything and everything. He always seems to be ready with some solution, but only when we've managed to pull ourselves out of whatever mood we've gotten ourselves into.
It takes a person more than being smart, organized and strong to make a good leader. Kai wasn't a good leader...
He was a gret one...
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Rei's P.O.V.
Red five of diamonds, put on black four or clubs. Black four of clubs, put on red three of diamonds...
Rei, you're playing a retarded card game to try to forget about your problems...
Great now you're talking to yourself, or, well, thinking to yourself...
Man, I must be losing it. Trying to be the calm, mature, older one is beginning to make me insane. I have no idea how Kai can take all this pressure.
Then again, he's always been able to stay calm under pressure. It was most likely a part of his training, in the abbey.
How any human being could force someone to become his or her war machines is unbelievable to me. Voltaire is a man more evil than I thought before. Kai is his grandson, his own flesh and blood, yet he treated him mercilessly.
No one could ever do anything bad enough to deserve what Kai's been through. But Kai always acts like it doesn't bother him, like it doesn't mean anything.
Sometimes I wonder if that's just an act, or the truth...
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Tyson's P.O.V.
I've been through over twenty drinks... The airplane chick keeps staring at me, like I'm going to explode.
I bet she wouldn't stare at Kai if did something like this... Then again, with Kai's looks, she'd be insane to. He always seemed to look dangerous.
Maybe it was his clothes, or the glare that was permanently etched onto his face.
No, I know better than that. It was the way he held himself, and the way his eyes bored right through you as if you were absolutely nothing.
And compared to him, you aren't.
Kai's been through so much, and still manages to fight on, to make sure nobody tries to walk over him. It takes a lot of courage and passion to keep yourself from just giving in.
There were plenty of times where I was ready to just throw in the towel and give up. But Kai always stopped me. He always gave me some sort of reason, in his unobtrusive and indirect way.
Too bad I couldn't return the favor...
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Kenny's P.O.V.
I can't seem to find Kai anywhere...
It's always the same answer; London, like that helps us! London is a huge place with many people. Trying to find Kai without a bit more guidance would be impossible.
Normally when I come across a problem that seems impossible, I went to Kai. He would point me off in the right direction, then leave me too figure the rest on my own.
That's what really impressed me most about him.
He always made sure to guide us, not tell us what to do when it came to the important things. He was the real beyblade genius of the team, not me.
But he still let me stay with the team. I know for a fact that he didn't have to. But I'm grateful he did. Thanks to him, I've learned so much about beyblading, and life in general, than I would have staying at home...
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Kai's Journal Entry
I've never really understood why I always kept to myself, all the hurt and pain I go through. It's almost as if I can't let anyone get near me.
Pretending that nothing bothers me, like I am the cold-hearted warrior of Biovolt.
I've always pretended to be fine, to not let anything get me down. Yet no one can be strong all the time. It is just impossible to be not driven over the edge at some point in your lifetime.
Having to make your own choices in life can drive you over the edge. But you have to make your own choices.
You can't let anyone choose how your future, how your very destiny, plays out. Only you can decide which paths to take, which dreams to fulfill, and which horrors to survive. You can't give anyone else the chance to make these decisions for you. Or they will control you. Even your dearest and most cherished friends must stand aside and give you the time and solitude in which to find your way. Only you can be your savior.
That's something I told Tala, Bryan, Spencer and Ian, back when we were all in the abbey, tired, hurt, and angry. Ready to give in to my grandfather's wrath.
But I couldn't allow myself to become his willing puppet. It was not something I was willing to do. I refused to give in, and I refused to let my friends give in on themselves.
Even to them I pretended.
That I was fine, that nothing could bring me down.
But it was worth it.
Worth it to know that my friends were believed me; that they to wouldn't give in and become mindless slaves to Biovolt.
If I had a chance to re-write the past, the only change I'd make would be too have done it sooner. I don't mind having such a horrible past, as long as I can ensure that I, nor my friends, will make the same mistakes in the future.
The past isn't something to dwell on, but something to learn from...
I'm pretending
Living in a land of make believe
That I don't care
Fooling myself
Into believing lies
That your actions don't hurt me
Oh, I hide my wounds so well
False world
Where I'm not in love
Heart of stone
I've no feelings
But you couldn't care less
Whether or not I'm in pain
Not of your concern
Until I bleed on the white carpet
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GOB: PHEW! Finally done! Hope this super-long chapter makes up for being so late, and I have amazingly great news:
A SHORT STORY I WROTE IS NOW GOING TO BE PUBLISHED FOR ALL OF CANADA TO READ!!! THE STORY I WROTE IN DANGEROUS MEMORIES THAT Akira TOLD RIA IS GOING TO BE PUBLISHED!!! YAY FOR ME!!! THE THIRD TIME I'VE BEEN PUBLISHED!!! WOOT! I LURVE THE WORLD!!! (THE WORLD... NOT THE PEOPLE! )
Kai: Review now or be destroyed by Dranzer. Plus, maybe I'll update sooner!
GOB: Oh! And false-image, if you have msn, add me! Then you can nag me into updating all the time! Besides, it would be fun to chat with you! My e- mails in my profile thing! C-YA!
