A/N I wasn't planning on posting more then one poem here but I guess I'll have to scratch that and post another one anyways. :p Enjoy!

Not That Easy

You say it's all so easy

"Why can't you make up your mind?"

You ask me

It's not as easy, I'm deeper then you'd think

There's more to the decision then you or him

Then black or white, yin or yang

Maybe you don't understand

Put in my position you might

I need time to figure out things

Who I am, what you both mean to me

Maybe you'll call me shallow because of it

"She likes all the attention" you might say

But you can't blame me, I'm human

Everyone loves to be loved

You two were the ones who put me up on this high pedestal

Treated me like a queen

When in reality I don't think I'm all that special

Why did you chose to put me in this position

Why not some other girl who deserves it

How come I'm the one who has to decide who's heart to break?

Now it's my decision

Am I ready to make it?

So now I sit here thinking

Wishing it was as easy as you make it sound

To make this choice, that should be simple

One or the other

You or him

But it's not that easy because I'm not heartless

Despite what you might think, despite what I do

I care about both of you so much more then you'll ever know

I don't understand why in movies and books this looks so easy

You have one true love

One soul mate, one knight in shining armor

Because, honestly it just makes me feel like it should be that easy

That I should know in my heart what to do

Who to chose in real life I don't