As the tears fall we flashback to:
JULY 29th, 2000 - Late Night
Donna walked into Josh's office as he was finishing up his AP reports. She sat at the computer, emailing her mother when Josh came over to her, leaned in to her, looking at the screen to see what she was doing. More like spying on what she was doing. She turned toward him warning him to back away. He didn't back away in fact he came in closer to her. Inches away. Donna started to get up but realized how close she was to him so she sat back down. Catching the hint he backed away a little to let her get up. She got up and started to walk toward the door, she had almost reached the door when Josh asked her back.
"Donna?"
"Yeah?"
"Why are we doing this?"
"Doing what?" she asked.
"Playing these games."
"What are you talking about?" she played along.
"We always tippy toe around each other."
"Yes, we do. Remember that was part of the deal...here," she pointed indicating the office.
"Yes, I know. But I don't know how much more of this I can take."
"Well, we can't do anything here." she said disappointed.
"They all think we are together already. What difference does it make?"
"Yes, but we can't let in on what is really going on."
"Which is what?"
"You tell me."
"I want to be with you, you already know that."
"And I do too, but..."
"But what, we can keep things out of the office. Just make it our own time. No one has to know. We've been pretty good at it."
"We could, but what if we are caught? What then? We could lose our jobs, Josh."
"I'd rather lose my job and be happy with you then to keep my job and never know what could've been."
"Okay, Josh, that might've been the sweetest thing you have ever said to me."
"It's true, and don't you start your crying here." he warned.
"I don't know, should we just spring it on them or get caught on purpose? What do you think we should do?"
"I don't know, all I know is I want to kiss you so bad, my head hurts."
"Stop saying all these nice things. I will have to change my mind about you."
He slowly walked closer to her, and closer, till their noses were inches from each other.
He whispered, "Gentlemen, start your engines."
He graced her chin with his finger tips. Brushed a strand of her beautiful blonde hair out of her face. He then moved his hand over her lips. Leaving them there for just a moment longer. He gazed around the room to be sure the coast was clear. His breath was warm and so hot. She closed her eyes and not long after, her lips were to his. They kissed sweetly then passionately and then it became more intense. So intense in fact that they never even saw C.J. walk in.
"Ahem," C.J. coughed.
Josh and Donna parted quickly. Josh looked over at C.J., who wore a mixed grin on her face. One of anger and over joy. Josh wasn't sure which one was on the surface.
Josh quickly responded, "C.J., it's not what it looks like." He looked over at Donna who glared at him. He continued, "Ok, yes, maybe it is.." he was nervous, "what do you think is happening, C.J.?" he asked in a high voice.
"Well it looks like you just made out with your assistant. Which I believe is a no-no."
"Any chance you didn't see anything?" He gave her a hard look.
C.J. laughed at how Josh was so freaked out and jumpy.
"I could keep my mouth shut but if you continue doing this in the office. I imagine you will get caught by someone much higher ranked than me. And I don't think they will be as happy about this as myself. Oh by the way; it's about damn time," she smiled. She turned on her heals.
"Good luck", she threw out over her shoulder.
"Wow, that was close," he came inches to her again.
"Yeah, this is what we need to avoid. How about we just see each other in between work."
Josh took that as a sign to back away.
"Yeah, want me to come by tonight?"
"Um, is that a good idea?"
"Donna."
"Yes?"
"We have already slept together, you know."
"Yes. I do recall that, very much," she grinned.
"So."
"So?"
"So, I think it's ok to continue, well, you know."
"Yeah. Ok, oh by the way, you are late for staff, yet again."
"Dammit, why didn't anyone say anything?"
"Joshua, you are late for staff," CJ said in passing.
"Damn, you women," He smiled.
He walked out with a little more spring to his step. Donna giggled.
End of flashback
AUGST 11th, 2000
Donna was still sitting at his desk. This time looking over it trying to find something. When C.J. stepped in and saw Donna was still in her same spot and saw that she had been crying so she sat at the visitors chair and watched her for a moment.
"Donna?"
"Yeah?" answered not looking up.
"Are you ok?"
Donna gave C.J. a look of "what do you think?"
"Scratch that. I know the answer. Look, Donna, you should go home and rest. Being here is not going to do any good."
"I'd rather work. Keep my mind off of it," still deep in her scavenger hunt.
She sighed and didn't say a word for a moment.
"Donna, I know this is hard for you but, he's gone. I know you don't want to talk about it but there's nothing we can do."
"I should've been there for him. Why wasn't I there?"
"I don't know. But to be honest I'm glad you weren't there. We could've lost you too and Josh would not want you to see that. He'd never be able to forgive himself if something happened to you."
"I don't care. I wanted to be there for him, for his last breath," she started to cry at that last word.
CJ got up and went to her. She rubs her back and let Donna continue to cry.
"Get it out, Donna. Let it all go. I'm here for you."
CJ even had tears in her eyes at that time.
"I loved him too. I miss him too."
They continued to talk about past moments and continued to cry.
Donna sighed many times to get her emotions under control or the best she could for that matter.
"C.J.?"
"Yeah?"
"I know you know about Josh and I, but there is something you don't know."
"What is that?"
She was silent for a long time.
"Donna?"
"I uh.."
"What is it?" CJ pressed.
"C.J., Josh and I have been together for some time now. We've been hiding it from you guys for the administration."
"Really?"
"Yes. We..." she couldn't continue.
"You slept together," CJ finished.
"Yes, but not only that but..."
"But what?"
"We were together.." .Donna was having a difficult time finishing..."we were together...the night before..."
She bust into tears.
"...before he died."
TBC
