Disclaimer: I do not own gravitation but I sure as heck own this fic and the song in this fic.....not that it's a fic....it's more of a song-fic but its still a fic right? And the songs still mine!
Other: This fic is made by me but in this story yuki wrote the song and he it wrote for shuichi on their relationship and such so enjoy and review onegai! O AN I am sooo sry for not continuing mai other fics...well I am...but I just have a writers block on mai sorry with dance shuichi danc for me whatever it was....sweatdrop....I forgot the own title to mai own fic....how sad....sigh.....
Claimer: THIS IS MAI SONG IN THIS POEM...er....story....NO ONE TAKE IT WITHOUT MAI PERMISSION ONEGAI!!
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Loving Shuichi-------
There are soo many things that I love about you Shuichi...the way your hair sways gently in the wind. The way it feels beneath my skin, and laying here in bed with you gives me all the more time to think.
I love stroking your hair. I love everything there is about you, but I still cannot say what you have always yearned to hear come from my lips. I can't say I love you.
You deserve much more then a cold bastard like me. Sometimes I wonder why you even stay with me. You've never deserted me...but countless times I've done it to you...how do you ever find it in your heart to forgive me? However you did it....you made me happy.
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There are so many things I want to say,
But none of them will begin to pay,
The kind of attention you deserve,
Especially seeing how much you serve,
My heart, my soul, and me,
Only you can make the difference,
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I've once been the cold bastard named Yuki Eiri. Yuki the Novelist...Yuki the womanizer...Yuki the brother in law of Tohma Seguchi...Yuki this....Yuki that...no one's bothered to look beneath the surface and once you did...it made me realize how much I've changed from what I once was....I used to be a gentle person....I know...hard to believe.....but now.....I'm....different.
But you paid attention to me. You never lost your interest. You were genuine in what you did....and that made me happy.
You taught me how to love again. After all those years of me perfecting myself with no emotions. I would try time and time again to deny that I need you...I don't need love to live....and you taught me...that love and life were bonded....without one....you can't have the other.
You kept trying and trying even after the countless times I've rejected you....and that made me happy too.
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Teaching me the ways of love and life alike,
With your ambitions you will strike,
To change the way people see,
What is happening to you and me,
So we make the choices we need to make,
Only you can make the difference,
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Everyone who had known me became quite astounded to see how much you've changed me. I was different. A miracle in everyone's eye. They all thought our relationship would amount to nothing. Heck I myself thought the same, but you proved me wrong.
They all thought a cold bastard like me would never get along with you...and energetic, easy-going, and fun person to be around...basically they thought we were trying to accomplish the impossible...but truth was...YOU were the only one trying.
Several times I would say something hurtful to scare you away. Heck I've even tried running away. Nothing seemed to work. No matter how much I tried to push you away or how tempting for you it was to give up...you never did...and that made me happy.
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Once in a while temptation comes along,
But I know that you'll be strong,
You'll challenge them in a proficient way,
I'll know what to do, and you'll know what to say,
Only you can make the difference,
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Once you got through to me...I felt like I could fly...I felt so happy so free and I could just about jump off a cliff and have absolute faith that you'd rescue me....but I knew I was being foolish.
I was always the brain between the two of us and you were always the action...the drama. I knew what to do but you'll be the one to know what to say. Saying aishiteru so easily....I just wish...I could too.
I wished and wished time and time again....I would be able to treat him right....be his actual lover...to truly love him....to show I cared....but it wasn't meant to be. Even so...I knew that I will only remain by you...and still you till death do us part.
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All our lives we hope and pray,
And I know it will be you this day,
To give our relationship the boost it needs,
To carry the torch, to plant the seed,
Only you can make the difference,
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You were always the one to expand our relationship...you were always the one working on it. You would plant a seed here and plant a seed there not caring how they grew or how they ended up....as long as our relationship expanded.
Sometime your recklessness leads you into trouble...but you always come back out headstrong. And that made me happy. You were always the strong one between us two though you believed otherwise.
I'm the farmer's wife and you're the farmer himself. The one who works all day long, the one who sees to it that our relationship works, the one who tends to it all day....and the one who knows when something is wrong. Whether it be a dry season in our bond or a wet one drowning out our senses. Either way....you can't go wrong...and that makes me happy.
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I know you're dedicated, I know you're strong,
I know that you cannot go wrong,
Cuz For each day you'll show,
Me how to grow,
Cuz only you can make the difference,
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Now that everything's going well for us...you've made sure to keep it that way. Now that the dry seasons are over...you've nurtured me until I grew. And I did. I grew out of my plain as day façade and my barriers began to break. I could see the light again as if locked in a room with no windows. I could finally stretch my limbs around this way or that...I could breathe again....and I was grateful.
After being with you....I've made better choices...I've been much more happy....yes you must've noticed. I was smiling even...now something not so uncommon. I love you and that's all that mattered.
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I make better choices,
After hearing your voices,
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Of course I could've never been able to progress this far without you....and it was only when you spoke....that gave me peace...only when you spoke to me...that I would finally be able to sleep.
So please stay with me....don't let me go. Please stay with me and spend more time with me. It's thoughts like these that make my head go dizzy...but it's thoughts like these that make me fly...cuz I know you'd stay....you'd stay with me. You'd never leave....never ever leave me....and that made me happy.
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So stay and take care of me,
Spend just a little bit of time with me,
...and watch me grow...
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You made your decision to stay and I lay here watching you sleep. I once again stroke your cheek and finger you hair. You looked so serene asleep and I just wanted to kiss you. But I guess that wasn't meant to be. You woke up.
You groan and ask me why I'm still awake. And I smile at the concern on your face. I just kiss your eyes shut and whisper to you before you fall asleep.
"Aishiteru Shuichi." I smile again as I began to dose off...almost missing the sleepy response.
"Aishiteru Yuki....forever." I grin this time and put my arm around you. Of course you do Shuichi. After all...it was you who made the difference in me...with that....I fell into a dreamless slumber.
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Because you made the difference in me.
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A/N: well? How'd you guys like it? Should I continue? If you want me to I will but you'll have to review and tell me so!
NOTE....MUST READ:I'm just going to make more fluffy moments like this into this story its mostly just randomized....hmm... what should next chapter be about? About how Shuichi sees Yuki or how Hiro sees their relationship or Tohma's unrequainted love or something? Of course I'll be making all the songs unless you guys dunt like my songs of course...but you guys have to help me decide!
Question for all you readers: Is mai song alright? I didn't really know how to write songs so please dunt give me flames! This is mai first songfic and it's also the first time I've wrote a song for an anime! So be nice onegai?
