She's The Blade

Where Do You Go When You're Lonely?

(A/N: The spoilers for next chapters are supposed to be like the previews on the show. They're in no order.)


Taylor had left and Nathan sat down on the couch and held Haley's wedding ring in his hands. He didn't know whether to break down and cry, or break everything in his god forsaken apartment. The marriage was falling apart, and all Nathan could do was watch and horror and bow his head.

Haley walked in slowly and quietly, but it didn't make a different; Nathan was still up. She looked at him and closed the apartment door softy.

"I'm not fucking stupid Hales," Nathan said; even calling her by her nickname made his stomach churn.

Haley bit her bottom lip and looked down at the ground, "This is so hard, Nathan…"

"Really?" Nathan asked as he got up from the couch, "Because it seems like you're the one who is going out at all hours of the night and not having a care in the world; while I'm staying up every night wondering whether or not you're fucking dead on the side of the road," he screamed.

Haley looked up at him and saw the anger in his eyes, "I don't know what to tell you," she said.

"Why aren't you wearing your wedding ring?" Nathan asked and held up the ring between his two fingers, "You say you love me, but obviously you don't," Nathan said and gave Haley her ring, "And I can't love someone who doesn't love me," he said as he took off his own ring and put it on the counter, and then left the apartment.

Haley heard the door slam and felt a hot tear fall down her cheek. She didn't even turn to see Nathan leave. Nathan walked next door and walked into Taylor's apartment and closed the door behind him.

Taylor walked out of her bedroom and saw the tears in his eyes, "Nathan," Taylor exclaimed as she wiped one his tears away.

"She's sleeping with Chris," Nathan stated sadly, "I know she is Taylor…I just know it," he said and sat on the couch with Taylor.

Taylor laid Nathan's head on her lap and rubbed his head softly, "I'm so sorry, Nate," she said sincerely and kissed him on the cheek.

Taylor phone rang and she went to get up, but Nathan put his hand on her wrist to stop her, "Can I sleep here for the night?" He asked.

"Yeah," Taylor said softly and let her machine get the phone call:

'Hey this is Taylor. I'm not here right now so leave a message after the beep, and I'll get back to you!'

BEEP

Nathan heard a light cough on the line and then the voice began, "Hey Tay, it's Chris. I was just wondering if you were coming with me to TRIC tomorrow night. I know you're mad at me for this whole Haley thing, but you've got to understand that what we have is real…Eh, anyways I don't want to spill my heart out on your answering machine. Call me back. Bye."

Taylor turned off the machine quickly and looked at Nathan who got up from the couch and headed towards the door, "You don't have to leave!" Taylor said and grabbed Nathan's arm.

Nathan pulled his arm away from Taylor's grip and glared at her, "You knew about Chris and Haley?"

"Yeah," Taylor said guiltily.

Nathan put his hands on his head and scoffed in disbelief, "And you didn't tell me?" He yelled.

"I didn't say anything because I didn't want to get involved!" Taylor said with tears forming in her eyes, "You have to believe me Nathan…"

Nathan opened the door, "I don't want to see you anymore," he said without turning around and then left the apartment.

Taylor put her hands on her hips and sighed sadly. She frowned at the blinking machine and went over to her fridge and got herself a beer.

Haley sat at the river court and looked out into the river. She looked at the abandoned basketball court and smiled to herself. This court reminded her of so many memories of Nathan, but even though she loved him; there was something about Chris that she couldn't put a finger on. Haley looked over and saw Taylor coming towards her; she stood in front of her and looked at her with tearful eyes.

"I warned you Haley," Taylor simply said, "I warned you about Chris…"

Haley sighed, "There's something between me and him…I lo—," Haley began.

"You don't love him!" Taylor screamed, "You can't love him, because he will never, ever love you back!"

Haley bit her bottom lip as her foot began to shake, "He said I was different than you!" She tearfully screamed.

"Is reality finally setting in?" Taylor asked with a cynical laugh, "He doesn't love Haley…He uses."

"I've made mistakes…" Haley said sadly and then dug her hands in her pockets.

Taylor rolled her eyes, "Save it…" She said and then walked off.

Nathan walked into TRIC and saw Taylor playing up on stage. She looked at him, but he brushed it off and made his way to the bar. Nathan looked around the club and saw Haley looking on from backstage, and then saw Chris take her by the hand. Nathan looked down and took a long sip from his drink.

Do you wanna run away together?'
I would say it was your best line ever.
Too bad I fell for it...
And I walked along,
waiting for you to come along.
Take my tortured heart by the hand.
And write me off.

"What's wrong with you tonight?" Chris asked softly.

Haley put her head in her hands and began to cry, "I don't know what to do anymore…"

Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...

Taylor watched as Nathan sulked at the bar; occasionally looking up at her. She tried her best to smile and give him looks, but most of them were ignored or returned with a glare.

You forced me to become strong.
And I just cried, being weak.
And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart.

Chris put his arm around Haley and let her cry on his shoulder, "Then come to New York with me," he whispered.

Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind.
No, it's not the good kind...

Nathan walked outside and sat down on the stairs leading to the club. He looked up at the stars and sighed; he saw a shooting star and smiled to himself. Nathan remembered the meteor shower that Tree Hill had experienced. 'If you blink you'll miss it,' Haley had said to him. Obviously Nathan had been blinking a lot lately, because he had been missing a lot.

I'm tired of hiding behind these lying eyes,
I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...

Haley looked at Chris and shrugged, "I can't just pick up and leave everyone here, Chris."

"Of course you can," Chris said, "That's the fun of it all…" Haley nodded her head and looked down at her trembling hands.

Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...

Taylor finished her set and walked off stage. She looked around the club a little bit for Nathan, but couldn't find him anywhere. She walked outside and saw him sitting on the stairs.

Taylor sat beside him and looked up at the stars, "I've never really looked at the stars before," she said; trying to make conversation.

"Why not?" Nathan asked.

Taylor looked at Nathan and then back up at the stars, "I guess I never realized how beautiful they are…"

"Stars are beautiful and I love looking at them," he said and then sighed, "But at the end of the night they always seem to disappoint you by not being there. During the day you have nothing beautiful anymore…It's just sky. The same boring, blue sky," he said and then left Taylor by herself on the steps.

Nathan walked into his apartment and looked around for Haley. He gritted his teeth and barged back out of the apartment. He drove to Chris's apartment and stormed in on Chris.

"Hey man," Chris said with a nod as he stood with his hands in his pockets.

Nathan pushed Chris up against the wall and grabbed a hold of his throat, "You have some fucking nerve, rock star!" He said through gritted teeth, "You think I wouldn't find out about you and Hales?"

"Nathan! Stop," Haley screamed as she walked out of Chris's bedroom, "You're hurting him!"

Nathan let go of Chris throat and looked between the both of them, "So this is it?"

"Nathan," Haley said in a hushed voice, "Things were never supposed to be like this…"

Nathan put up his hand to stop her and reached for the doorknob. Chris rubbed his throat, "Haley's coming to New York with me."

Nathan continued walking out the door and slammed the door on his way out. Haley crossed her arms and closed her eyes. She looked over to Chris and gave him a weepy smile, "I'm ready," she said and then grabbed her suitcase.

And it's not the good kind…

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On The Next One Tree Hill:

Taylor's Apartment:

Taylor: (looks at Haley disapprovingly) You're just leaving Nathan?

Haley: (grabs the door knob) I never stopped loving him, Taylor…Never.

Nathan's Apartment:

Taylor: (stands in Nathan's doorway) The last thing I wanted to do was jeopardize our friendship.

Nathan: (grabs Taylor's face) I want you…

(Nathan kissing Nathan up against a wall)

On the bus to New York:

Chris: (looking at Haley) You're taking a big step forward Haley. (Puts on his head phone)

Haley: (Looking not so sure)