RupertGrintKevinClarkObssesed: Here's chapter 4! Enjoy and review!

I don't own SoR or any of the characters....sadly enough....sniffles

The hole in which holds my life together,

I am such an asshole. I really am. I don't know why I do these things sometimes. Is it because i'm a sad little poser who wants everyone to think i'm hardcore? Pfft. Well I lost the girl that I wanted, even loved...

All because I had to be a fucking poser asshole.

Why don't I think? Huh? Why don't I think about what i'm doing before I do it? I have no clue. I seriously don't. I hate it. I do, I hate it. I sound so emo right now, but I can't help it. I do idiotic stuff and pay for it.

But this time, I lost the most important thing that was in my life right now.

I lost her. She's gone. She never wants to see me again. I've lost all her trust and friendship. Its gone. GONE. All because I HAD to have that beer...

That turned into 2...

That evolved into 3 and 4.

I just happened to pop over Katie's house that night.

I just happened to be drunk.

I just happened to make a move.

I got kicked out.

Damned party, damned alcohol, damned hormones. I hate it all. It cost me everything.

I don't know what to do.

I have to build up her trust again. Try to get her to see that i'm not bad, that it was just one time. I need her.

But what can I do? What will make her trust me again? What if she doesn't feel the same way.....

I'm just going to have to take that chance. I don't know why excactly I am writing this in my school journal, I guess i've gotten kinda dependent on this thing. Damn shit.

Okay here are my goals for the next couple of months:

1) Get Katie to trust me again.

2) Stop acting like an asshole

3) Get Katie to trust me again.

4) Get better at my already awesome drumming skills.

5) Shrink my ego.

Not really yours,

Freddy Jones

RupertGrintKevinClarkObsessed: My internet is being all homosexual and its not working so all I can do is write. I guess thats a good thing. Tee hee. Anyway like? Hate? Review! Sorry I made him all angsty, but I just had to make some sort of plot. Even though I have nothing against PWP