dont own YYH
it may take me a little longer to update now. why? because my stupid sister accidentally deleted most of my story. luckily, most of it was saved. but the good stuff...well, i have to rewrite it from memory (which is a terrible one). just thought i'd give you guys a heads up.
Chapt. 40
What Blood Does to Love
The panthers didn't even see me coming. I came with such swiftness and quiet footing that twenty of them were dead and gone before anyone noticed. A pure flash of blood was all anyone saw. In a matter of seconds, the panthers were dead. The smell of their slain bodies and the sight of the splattered blood gave me such pleasure. I smiled.
A human hand touched my shoulder. Whipping around, I slash at the boy. Fear coming off him, he dodged my frenzy of attacks. His mouth moved, but I heard no sound. His eyes were wide with intense fear; brown dots of fear. Brown eyes…Yusuke! I try desperately to stop my assault. My thirst for blood drove me to continue to attack until my prey was dead.
I tried to call out to him, but my mouth stayed in its insane snarl. I was no telepath, so I could not tell him that way. What was I to do? Yusuke was still trying to calm my unwonted rage, but he didn't know I could not be calmed. Hiei was always in my head…hey! I'll try to talk to him!
Hiei!!!!
What the Hell's wrong with you? …Don't yell like that again…
Sorry, but I can't control myself any more. This insane need for blood has taken over my primordial mind and now controls my actions. I'll kill Yusuke if I don't die first!
Hn…weak baka.
The scent of fresh blood races through my senses. My attack stops in mid-swipe, just before cutting Yusuke to ribbons. Turning my head to the right, looking over my outstretched arm, I see Hiei standing there among the fire and dead panthers. Blood ran freely down his left arm and his sword was stained with fresh blood, his own blood. My mouth twisted into a sinister grin. My attention was none turned to Hiei.
"Catch me if you can," he smirks, sticking his katana into a fallen demon and racing off.
Taking his challenge, I follow swiftly after him. This was a deadly game, and only the victor would survive. How could I save us both if I couldn't control my actions? What was Hiei planning? Quickly, I gained upon him, closing the distance between us. I knew he wasn't running his fastest, or running in fear, but I didn't care. I wanted to see his blood on my claws. I had become the killer I feared.
Suddenly he stopped. I kept going and dug my claws into his lower back. He coughed up blood, and again when I ripped my hand from him. He turned on me and I jumped lightly away. He stood there, grinning. Hiei was smiling at me, like he was mocking me. Mocking my lack of control. But why shouldn't he mock me? I have lost control over my primordial selves again. But, this time, I couldn't stop myself. The sight of his wound excited me more, and Hiei mocked me.
"Damn, Darkfire, I really thought you'd learned," he ridiculed. "After all this training, I thought you'd be able to control this being within you. This is how weak you are."
"I'm not weak," I snarl in an alien voice.
"Prove it."
I snarl again and race at him. He doesn't move. Ramming my hand through his right shoulder, Hiei grabs my arm so I can't pull myself from him. Ramming my other hand through his right shoulder, he grabs me again. I pulled and pulled, but his iron grip would not loosen. Piercing my tainted soul with his bloody eyes, he leans towards my face. The fear on my face that was reflected in his eyes was unnerving. So daunted was I, that I couldn't turn from him as his lips brushed mine.
"Come out, Darkfire. I wish to kiss the one who makes me smile," he whispers, millimeters from my lips.
An unfamiliar urge surges through me. It was like being struck with lightning, only…sweeter, for lack of a better word. This intense sensation rushed through me, cleansing my tainted soul. Breaking from his weakened grip, I pull my hands from him. Wrapping my arms tightly around his neck, I kiss him with a latent passion.
When I broke the kiss to breathe, I saw a smile on Hiei's face. I smile back. Without notice, he pulls me back in for another kiss. Taken off guard by his sudden gesture, my eyes widen and flash. The smell of Hiei's blood made me want to kill and taste his blood. I was turning back into the deadly wolf demon.
A growl sounded deep in my throat. Hiei breaks the kiss, but keeps his arms tightly around me.
"Please, don't turn into that wolf. It's not you. That part of you is not true yet. When you master it, I will accept it openly. Please, don't turn into the ruthless killer I once was," Hiei pleas.
Again my eyes flash, but this time back to normal.
"Never again, Hiei. I swear to you that the wolf will not appear until it is mastered," I swear, hugging his neck tighter. Tears dripped onto his shoulder and mixed with blood.
"Over here guys! I found 'em!" a voice calls from the distance.
I ignore them, keeping my tight hold on Hiei. I feel his arms drop to his sides, but I didn't care. That was who he was, a secretive youkai.
"Hey, Darkfire?" Yusuke says, cautiously placing a hand on my shoulder.
I whip around and grasp him tightly. His arms wrap brotherly around me and hold me securely.
"I'm so sorry, Yusuke," I sob. "I couldn't stop myself. Please forgive me!" I cry uncontrollably onto his chest.
"Hey, calm down. Shhh, it's ok. It wasn't your fault. I don't blame you," he soothes, rubbing my back.
"I didn't mean to hurt Hiei or you. I just wasn't strong enough."
A hand rests on my shaking shoulder.
"You saved Kurama, the debts are repaid," Hiei says, almost in a soft voice. I do not look back at him, but hug Yusuke tighter to me.
"If you wish to see the man you wished to be alive the next you saw him, then go see him," I snap through burning tears, "before he truly leaves you. I took his wounds and Mamoru healed the poison, but I do not know how it affected him. He could already be dead for all you know, you heartless yaro!" (Yaro means bastard, just to let you know. I read it somewhere.)
There was a sense of hurt, and then it was gone.
No matter how hard I tried to make sense of why I said that, I could not. The thoughts of how much hurt I inflicted upon his already beaten heart just ripped me up inside. I had just scarred him physically and emotionally. No, Hiei was void of all emotions. I had scarred a black hole, a thing that took no mind to the pain. But that was not a just reason to say that to him. Kurama and he had been friends for so long, and I tried to dissolve that bond by threatening Kurama's life. That would pain even a heartless yaro such as Hiei. No matter what he says, his friends surround him everyday. I betrayed the friendship, love, and trust he had given to me, a rare thing indeed, and now I was alone once again.
Hiei, I'm sorry…
