Silence of the Night
Authors Notes: Hey you guys! It's been two years! Oh my goodness! I am soooo sorry, see I lost the password for this account. But here it is the last chapter! And remember all suggestions welcome and tell me if you want a sequel.
Chapter Four: I Love You Is Enough
My heart stopped at the words love, amazing, and you. Had Harry Potter just said that he loved me? Maybe this was some sad sadistic dream that I would wake up from later, I pray that it isn't and just stared in awe at the man I love more than anything. Harry Potter loves me? That thought leaves me breathless and if I know that if I had been standing during that confession minutes ago I know I would have sagged to the ground in shock. I stand as Harry does; trying to wrap my mind around the fact that he LOVES me.
"Harry…" I whisper, in wonder, still trying to comprehend what is happening. He turns and looks at me for a moment before asking a question that sends chills up and down my spine and turns my blood cold. "How many feet do you think it is to the ground?" My eyes widen and then narrow as I say "About sixty, why?" My eyes narrow even more as he takes a deep breath and asks "And if someone fell from here do you think they would survive?"
My eyes widened again as I get his hidden message. "No they would most likely not survive the fall. And don't you even think about it Potter." He begins to tremble and I slowly walk up to him and wrap my arms around him. Clutching him tightly I press my face into his hair, he smells like magnolia. I shake my head as my hand comes to cup his cheek. So fragile, so delicate, and mine, finally all mine.
"You will not leave me alone." I whisper fiercely into his ear, "You just said that you loved me, do you mean it?" Harry nods and turns his face into my chest as he begins to tremble. He mumbles quietly, "I meant it, I love you Severus." I smile gently and bring his face to mine saying "And I love you, you have a reason to live Harry so do. If you ever kill yourself I'll follow you only to bring you back to me, you are mine now Potter and I will not let you go, do you understand?" Harry merely nods as he begins to cry on my chest.
I know why he's crying, he feels so alone. He's never truly had some one to love or cherish him. I feel tears begin to pool in my eyes as well but I push them back. I know how he feels, and it hurts more than any curse ever could. Every human has a need to be loved by another unconditionally. Harry and I have never had that until now. I pick him up and place him on his bed. Taking a notebook I transfigure it into a pillow, there's no way that I'm leaving him alone tonight. Sitting on it I place my head next to his and just breath in his unique scent of magnolia and spice. I kiss him gently on his forehead before drifting off to sleep knowing that it's not going to be easy to help Harry with his depression but knowing also that I will never give up on him, or us.
I wake up feeling content, looking across I see Severus's face and my heart leaps with joy as I realize that last night wasn't a dream. I really did tell him I loved and he really said he loved me too. Looking at him again I frown as I realize that position he's in can't be too comfortable. He's sitting on a pillow, body twisted toward the bed, and his head resting on one of his hands while the other is near my head.
Merlin he's beautiful and I can't help myself, I slowly brush some hair out of his face. I sigh as I begin to think about what our confession means. It means I have someone who loves me for me, but I know Sev and he's going to try to bring me back to the world and I don't know if I'm ready for that. I feel so safe here, going out there again will make me vulnerable, and I don't ever want to feel that way again, ever.
How can he expect me to go out there? They used me, I'm broken piece of glass, and normally I wouldn't think I could be fixed, but I live in a magical world where anything is possible. He's already got all the pieces can he really put me back together? Part of me, the part that wants to live knowing that Sev loves me screams yes, and the part that been dead since I was first hit by my aunt and uncle screams no, there's no way. It screams that there is nothing that can save me that it's been to long.
Scared at that thought I take his hand and entwine them and Sev wakes with a start. I give him a small smile and he smiles back as he glances at our fingers and I blush. "What's wrong?" Sev says observing me with eyes that take everything in, "You look sad." I sigh leave it to Sev to know just what I'm feeling even when I don't want him to. I shake my head saying "My brain is arguing with my heart about whether I can truly be whole. Right now my brain is winning." Sev frowns at this and says "Then tell your brain I said fuck off." That makes me laugh and surprisingly enough it feels good. It's also funny that my potions teacher just told an inanimate object to 'Fuck off.' It's a silly feeling I haven't felt in a long time and I revel in the feeling, sighing softly.
I feel lips press against my forehead and Sev says in a no-nonsense voice "Sleep Harry you are going to breakfast tomorrow and you need your strength." I frown and sigh knowing this was going to happen "Sev, I can't you know I can't, please..." I never finish me sentence because Sev is distracting me with kisses around my face. First my ear, then my eyes, then my neck and then finally he reaches my mouth. It's a slow kiss and he takes his time possessing me with his tongue, knowing I can deny him nothing, I let his tongue claim what is his as I sigh again happily. Then Sev stops his wonderful ministration and I look up surprised. I want more, more of him, and the love that seems to be pouring from him tonight. I stare at him in awe and he graces me with another kiss, dazed this time, I can only wait for him to say something. Which he does quietly and much to my dismay it is about facing the world.
Sev gives me the 'I'm your elder and you will listen to me' look before he says, "Harry you can't continue this way, I won't allow it any longer. As your teacher, friend, and lover I've let this go on for far too long. I love you and I refuse to lose you. I barely made it this time. I will not take chances with your life again."
I glare and he glares right back, slowly I can feel myself listening to him and my mind screams again that he is wrong, that he's too late and my mind in a last desperate attempt to stay where I know it's safe, says "Ten minutes." Sev snorts and says, "An hour." "Twenty minutes," and I give him a small smile in hopes of swaying his decision, but he's relentless. "Forty-five minutes," I frown and growl "Twenty-five." He raises an eyebrow and says "Forty." "Twenty-seven minutes." He shakes his head and smirks as if he's already won the battle. "Thirty minutes?" I ask as I grit my teeth. I open my mouth to talk but then in a split second decision I decide to try another way, I say trying to sound weak hoping to play on his love for me. "Thirty three." He doesn't fall for the bait "Thirty nine minutes." I sigh and nod suddenly feeling very exhausted.
Satisfied he says, "Thank you, I know that you don't want to be with them but you have to try. We'll stay for a half an hour and then leave. I won't lose you Harry, sleep; you need your rest love." Nodding I say weakly, "Hold me, please." Smiling gently, he climbs onto the bed and wraps his arms, which are quiet strong around me and I drift off to sleep peaceful for the first time in my entire life, wishing it could just be Sev, me, and the silent night. Half asleep I wonder vaguely if the sound of the day will ever bring me the peace, the joy, the comfort that the silence of the night holds.
End.
Authors Notes: I am so sorry it took me so long to write, I know my writing style has changed a little but did you like it? Hate it? Do you want a sequel? Please review and I am so sorry for the long wait you guys had. Loves and be safe,
Izzy
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