Chapter 12
"Changes"
Days came and went as they normally did. Lily and Deanna didn't speak much about the questions Deanna asked. Every day started and ended the way it had before Deanna found out she was pregnant. Lily was in her room coloring in her book while Deanna rested on her bed curled up to one of her favorite authors. Deanna placed the book down next to her and let out a deep sigh. Placing her hand on her stomach Deanna prayed for Wil to return home to her soon. But the days had come and gone. Lily came into her mother's room and sat next to her.
"Mommy I have thought a lot about what you asked me."
"Have you decided if you wanted to have a baby brother or sister?"
"When I was growing up all I had was my daddy. I didn't know where my mommy was or where she went. Daddy said that she left because she couldn't adjust to being a mother. When I was 13 months old they got a divorce and I stayed with my daddy. I never saw my mommy again I don't know where she is or if she is still alive. After my daddy died Emily took care of me. I used to miss my mommy and daddy very much but then she would tell me that when she was my age she lost both her parents too."
"Emily was very good to you I hope that your daddy and I are filling the emptiness in your heart."
"Oh I was never alone I had this one thought of my daddy singing to me every night right before I went to sleep. He even chased the monster that hid under my bed…even though I knew there weren't any. I let my daddy do that to me every night and now it's getting harder to remember him do you think that someday I won't remember him?"
"Lily have I ever told you that when I was just a little older then you when my father went away. I came home one day after school and my mother had packed all of his things. I was angry with her and kept telling her that when my father came home that night he would be angry with what she'd done to his things. Only he never did come home and I cried myself to sleep for years after that. I never got to tell my father good-bye. Those memories I share with my father are still in my mind the way he walked and talked even the way he laughed. It's those memories that keep me going today. Years later when your grandmother became sick I saw him again. It wasn't really him it was just my mother's mind trying to keep from finding out the truth about my sister Kestra."
"You have a sister? Do you have a picture of her?"
"Yes I do have a picture of her. It's over on the table would you get it for me please?"
Lily nods and gets the picture from the table and hands it to her mother.
"She was very pretty mommy she even looks a little like you."
"That's what my mother used to say. She gave me this picture to keep so I won't forget her. Emily gave you a picture of your daddy so every time you miss him just take that picture and look at him then he won't seem so far away."
"Mommy did you want a baby brother or sister while you were growing up?"
"More then anything but my mother was more concerned with my life then moving on with her own life. When I was almost 30 I got my wish, it was a baby brother his name is Barin. My mother after my brother was born didn't love me any less. She told me that there is enough room in her heart for both of us. That's why I wanted to know what you thought about having a baby brother or sister."
Lily sighs and placed the picture down on the bed.
"I guess someday it would be nice to have a baby sister. I don't want a brother they are boring. I guess that if you did have a baby it would be loved by me just as much as I love you. I better get to bed good-night mommy sweet dreams."
Lily exited her parent's room and went into her own room. She picked up her coloring book and put them away. A new baby Lily thought as she climbed into bed wouldn't that be great.
"A new baby just what the doctor ordered."
In the next room Deanna sighed and looked at her father's picture.
"I wish you could be here to daddy so you could meet your granddaughter and your new grandchild.
TBC…Chapter 13
