Chapter 20

"Broken Hearts and Broken Dreams"

Early the next morning Deanna splashes water on her face she was still in a lot of pain. She had another bad night. The morning wasn't getting any better. Moving over to the bed she pulls back the covers to finds a bright red blood stain soaking into the bed. Sheer panic raced through her face as she stared at the stain. She was loosing the baby. Lily comes in with some water for her mother Deanna hurries to cover the stain with clean covers.

"Mom are you going to eat today?"

"Yes, I'll be right out I think I am going to take a bath today is that okay with you?"

"Well sure mommy I already got myself breakfast and Rachel's mom will be her soon. I asked her to take me to school I could hear you last night crying and I could hear you this morning the baby making you sick again isn't she mommy?"

Deanna holds back the tears forming at the corner of her eyes. Straining to prevent Lily from hearing the pain in her words.

"Yes honey. Can I have a kiss before I go take a bath?"

"Well sure mommy."

Lily gives her mother a kiss and exits the room. Deanna pulls back the covers again and looks at the stain that can't be her baby. She removes the soiled covers and places them in the laundry bin hiding all sighs of the miscarriage. Putting on new sheets and her robe she meets Rachel's' mother at the door.

"Thank you for taking her to school again. I've had a rough week."

"We will take Lily whenever you want she's a joy to have and Rachel loves to play with her."

Deanna nods and they leave the quarters. She heads into the bathroom and turns on the water. As the room fills with steam painful memories haunt her. She takes a seat on the stool next to the tub and places her face in her hands choking back the tear that were falling. As the tub fills to the level Deanna like she takes off her clothing and sits in the water.

"What have I done to the baby?"

Deanna wipes away her tears as thoughts of Wil fill her mind. She will have to tell Lily about the baby soon. How will she take the news wondered? How would she explain?

"It's my fault."

Deanna blamed herself and wondered would the baby have looked like? How selfish she thought she was her job coming before the baby. Why did it happen? Where would she go from here?

TBC…Chapter 21