Chapter 24

"Tears for an Angel"

Deanna woke up with the bright lights of sickbay over her head. She tries to sit up but the pains wracking her body cause her to change her plans.

"Hello is anyone here?"

Nurse Campbell comes up and scans Deanna.

"What happen how did I get here?"

"Lieutenant Walker found you passed out in your quarters."

"What?"

"When you didn't show up for Brandon's session he started to worry. He went to your quarters and found you passed out in a pool of your own blood."

"Oh no was Brandon with him?"

"I'm afraid so."

"The last thing Brandon needed was to see me bleeding to death. He has enough to worry about himself. Where is he now?"

"His father took him back to their quarters. You gave us a scare today do you know what was happening?"

"A few days ago I started to spot at first I wasn't scared because some woman do spot during their pregnancy. The next day I had cramps so bad I had to cancel my appointments and Lily went to stay with her friend. Then yesterday I stopped bleeding and I thought I was okay and went on with my normal life. Then today after Lily left for school a crippling pain caused me to drop to my knees. I saw the blood on my night gown and on the floor and I knew I was loosing the baby. When I tried to call for help I must have blacked out the next thing I remember was waking up here in Sickbay."

"I wish you would have come here sooner we would have stopped the contractions. By the time you got here it was too late. I'm sorry Deanna but you lost the baby."

Though pained tears Deanna answered…

"I know it's all my fault I shouldn't have waited so long. I did this to me and now I can't take it back."

"It's not your fault it isn't anyone's fault things like this happen for a reason even if you don't know what it was."

"When you first told me I was pregnant 12 weeks ago I didn't want the baby I didn't think that I would have the time Lily needed with another baby. I wished I wasn't having a baby and now that wish is coming true."

"Counselor thoughts like that are normal with an unexpected pregnancy you didn't do anything to cause this."

"Then why do I feel so guilty?"

"It's common after a loss like this. We've given you an anti-depressant it should take the edge off of your feelings."

Deanna nods and closes her eyes and opens them again...

"When can I go home?"

"I want to keep you here over night we didn't have to do a D&C your body is naturally expelling the tissue. Over the next few weeks you might have some discomfort I'll give you an analgesic to help with the pain."

"I have to go home today Lily will be wondering where I am."

"I'll let Miss Gladstone know where you are. She can tell her I'm sure that Rachel's mother wouldn't mind keeping Lily with her tonight."

"Lily she doesn't know please don't tell her let me tell her."

"When?"

"Soon I'll tell her soon."

"What about Wil he'll be home tomorrow he should know."

"I know and I will tell him when the time is right. Promise me you won't say anything yet?"

"I won't now rest your body needs to recover."

Deanna nods it will be hard to tell her family about the baby.

"Maybe in a couple of weeks, yeah a few weeks won't matter I'll tell them then."

TBC…Chapter 25