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to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy etc, I just borrowed them. Please don't
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Warnings: So far as I can tell none. Angst in parts though- at least that's what I went
For anyways.
Notes: Italics- lyrics to song
Too Much to Ask?
It's the first time I ever felt this lonely,
Wish someone would cure this pain.
I'm leaving tonight for my road trip. Buffy said she'd come but she's already 5 minutes late. Wills wanted to but she's touring with the Dingoes doing the whole groupie thing. But Buffy promised, so she's gotta come. Right?
It's funny when you think it's gonna work out,
You chose weed over me your so lame.
She's probably drowning in her pain now, about how Angel left. But she can't have forgotten the people she still has. Can she? 10 minutes late.
I thought you were cool until the point,
Up until the point you didn't call me when you said you would.
She said if there was any way she couldn't make it she'd call me. She hasn't called yet but she will- or come. Wont she? 10 minutes. Soon.
I finally figured out your all the same,
Always coming up with some kind of story.
Still, I guess I should've figured by now. She's always lying about things. But that's to the cops and stuff. I'm her best friend, she wouldn't lie to me. Would she? 20 minutes. Any time now.
Every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself.
Oh Buffy. She's probably just forgot. She does that a lot since he left. No matter how hard I try to make her smile she just wont. She's fading. When Willow gets back she'll know what to do. She's like that. 25 minutes. She's coming.
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You can't you're your tough, you think your loveless.
She doesn't even laugh any more. She's an empty shell and nothing more. She is loved though- by me. I wish I could tell her, but I can't risk what we have. 30 minutes.
Is that too much that I'm asking for?
I think so. Far too much. All I'll ever be to her is her goofy Xander shaped friend. I've got to leave now or I never will.
Sorry I left without saying bye Buffy. You were late and if hadn't gone when I did I don't think I would ever have. Left that is. See ya when I get back. Tell Wills I said bye from me.
Love Xan
Buffy Summers stared sadly at the note in her hand, tears in her eyes. If only those fledglings hadn't held me up she thought, guilt eating away at her soul. She realized something as her tears fell in a salty pool on the note. She had thought the depression that she had been feeling recently wasn't due to Angel leaving. She was falling in love. "I'm in love with Xander," she whispered in awe. She felt a dull feeling of pain, joy and loss course through her body. Even though Buffy knew she had lost her chance with Xander she felt a wholeness she had never felt before as she, Buffy Anne Summers admitted he feelings for Alexander LaVelle Harris.
