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Chapter one-

Have you ever wondered how birds sound so happy, the day is so beautiful and everybody

around you are so happy when you are miserable? Some people say what I have is depression, but

I think its loneliness. Ever since my mother died last year, I don't get any more letters that say 'I

love you', or any more happy moments. My best friend is dead, and I think im the one to blame. I

didn't mean to kill her, it just happened. He claimed it was my fault, and I believe him. He has

never lied to me, so of course I believe him. I am a murderer! Thats all I will ever be, to myself

and to him. Some tell me not to blame myself so, but I do.

"Wake up! You're going to be late!" Sapphire Rodgers said, shaking me. Sapphire

was pretty nice, but I don't consider her a friend. I don't consider anybody my friend.

"Okay, okay," I said sleepily.

"Are you okay?" Sapphire asked, her sapphire-blue eyes looking at me with concern.

"Im fine," I insisted.

"Did you have a nightmare?" she asked. "Because you kept saying 'no, don't kill her, I'll

do anything!'"

I didn't remember my dream, but it must have been about my mother.

Authors note- okay, I know this chapter is short, but I promise they will get longer. Please review!