Author's Note: mi haven't touched this story for many years, but mi will now try and attempt to complete it. sorry to all who've read it previously. just know that mi am in college now and it might be hard to update frequently. just keep sending reviews and mi will try and get back to u guys ASAP. btw, the whole story is a revised version w/ some minor changes.

(Ch.1)

Mist, accompanied by the pleasing sound of water, fell from the heavens above, down upon a park just out side of a bustling city. The massive parks' beautiful lush green trees rustled slightly as a breeze passed by over the grassy hills. The lake in the middle of the premises cascaded in ripples just on the surface.

Sitting there on a park side bench off to the side of the pool of water, in the cold, hard, freezing rain, was a small figure, just staring out into nothingness. As if lost in thought, of what had happened and what could be done.

Finally, reality comes to mind, and the figure looks down out of habit. Vision is a bit blurred by the droplets of rain, but a small puddle of gray could be seen beneath a pair of small feet, in which the puddle was portraying a picture of a young girl no more than the age of 18. The eyes of the girl looked as if it could quell the universe of all its sorrows and fears; thus eliminating the despair of earth and the colonies' people.

Suddenly the figure shifted slightly, but kept its feeble position. Footsteps . . . soft, quiet footsteps could be heard out in the distance.

" . . . " The figure kept its piece of mind to its self. 'I can sense you, whenever you're near, but I always . . . '

The footsteps drew ever closer, and did not cease until it was loud enough to tell that whoever it was, had stopped right next to the park bench.

" . . . It rains so much now, don't you think?" A rather rich voice said. As its owner draped something around the figures shoulders, something a bit weighty and warm, then sat down. "Relena, what are you doing out here in the rain?"

Relena didn't respond quickly. She didn't think of an excuse before she took off to her place of haven. She just needed to get away from it all and have her own thoughts, her own opinions on things . . . not anyone else's to perplex her decisions. She had needed time alone.

There wasn't any response for quite sometime, so the voice asked again. "Relena, why are you out here, and in the rain?"

Finally raising her head from looking down into the puddle, Relena focused her gaze upon the person beside her.

The young man who was sitting beside her was quite alluring. His hair was black, but streaked nicely with a light color of brown on his crown, which was now a dark rich shade. The strands were clustered together from the rain, causing it to fall over slightly into his protruding, dark brown eyes. He usually carried a smile that would indefinitely light up his eyes and the rest of his features, causing many girls to 'die' at the sight of it. His skin tone was a wondrous shade of tan that went nicely with his body, lean and muscular. When he stood to his full height, he'd tower up to 6' 2". There are so many characteristics that could describe this young Japanese man, but the one thing that caught Relena's eyes was how similar and yet how different he looked comparing to him.

"I just wanted to take a break, that's all. I'm sorry Hiragi, I shouldn't have left without a word. I'll do so in the near future."

Hiragi looked like he didn't quite believe her, but took it without any arguments. She didn't look nor sound like she was in the mood for talking.

"Come on, I'll drive you back so you can change out of those wet clothes of yours. We don't need you getting sick."

Relena only nodded her head as he rose up and pulled her to her feet. He gently guided her through the parkway's paths to his car, once in a while catching side-glances of the young minister. His only way of justifying his actions was 'I'm just checking to see that she's alright.'

Relena didn't care even though she could feel his eyes upon her. She was quite used to the fact of millions of eyes focused upon her and her alone. However, this pair of eyes were different though; they held more than just the interest like the rest of the general public and diplomats. Yes, Relena Peacecraft knew of the feelings that Hiragi Kinomoto had for her. Frankly, she didn't really care about his feelings, just that she didn't want him to be hurt because of her own. Relena loved Heero Yuy, the Gundam pilot of Wing Zero . . . and she still did. She kept that teddy bear that he gave to her for her sixteenth birthday on her bed. Along with the little note that came along with it, which was kept upon her nightstand. Just the thought of that brought a new wave of unwanted emotions.

Hiragi and Relena finally reached his car, and he opened the front passenger door for Relena and let her get in. He then dashed over to the driver's side, got in and started the car. The air condition and stereo instantly started and Hiragi quickly shut it off and turned on the heat.

Relena kept silent as Hiragi began pulling out of park and drove onto the road back into the city. She just watched the world of gray pass by in her window, her mind wondering back to her thoughts from before.

Hiragi couldn't take it anymore; her silence was killing him. "You know," he spoke mildly, "you still haven't asked how I found you. I mean, you tend to disappear so often now, without a trace. No one has ever been able to find you . . . that is, until today." He looked at Relena to see no change in her reflection. Her back towards him still, he began to wonder what was it that kept her so oblivious to the things around her. The cold piercing rain, his footsteps, in which could have been an assassin's, his voice and questions. What was it that was bothering her so much?

"Relena . . . " He reached over and touched her shoulder. "Relena, are you okay?"

"Huh?" Relena turned to look at him bewildered. "Uh, I'm sorry Hiragi. I'm just not in a good mood to talk right now."

Hiragi nodded his head showing her that he understood. For the rest of the drive, both Hiragi and Relena kept silent. All the while Relena became lost in thought once again, and Hiragi couldn't help but wonder what it was that plagued her mind.

" . . . and you'll have 3 seconds to clear out of the area."

A dark figure was seen piloting a shuttle to some remote area in space. It's only answer was a curt nod, and it sped of into space. Silent words passing through its mind, 'mission accepted.'

Hiragi reached Relena's apartment but the weather still remained the same. Seeing this, Hiragi mentally told himself that he would escort Relena to her room and make sure that she'd be alright.

Turning to the person beside him, Hiragi came to find that Relena was gone.

'Where in the world . . . no, better yet, how did she get out of the car with out me knowing.' Hiragi just shook his head and got out of the car.

Closing the door behind him, he looked around for any sign of Relena. 'There,' He caught a glimpse of honey blonde hair going up a few stairs. He dashed through the rain, not caring that he was getting soaked all over again. When he finally caught up with her, they were already on Relena's level. Hiragi opened his mouth and was about to say something, but reclined from doing so when he saw Relena's expression.

'Oh my g- . . . ' Seeing what was there stopped Hiragi dead in his tracks. Relena's face was just blank. Her face was deathly pale and her eyes carried an empty void. The depth of it filled with something like pain, anger, grief, anguish, remorse and sorrow. Her movements only added to it. Her body was somewhere between being relaxed and tense. Hiragi couldn't place it. She just kept on walking in a slow and steady pace, totally unaware of his presence.

'Something must be bothering her a lot if she's like this. But what? I want to help her, take away her pain. Seeing her like this just . . . ' Hiragi's thoughts were cut short as he saw Relena stop at her door. He immediately sprinted to her side and tried to bring her out of her trance.

"Relena . . . Relena!" Hiragi shook her by the shoulders gently.

"Hmn . . . ?" Relena softly said, then blinked a couple of times. "Huh? What's going on?" She said barely above a whisper, finally focusing on the world around her.

Hiragi only shook his head. "Relena, don't you remember walking up the stairs?" He asked; his voice dripping in concern for her.

Relena, still not really focusing on her surroundings, just shook her head. Hiragi sighed and asked Relena for her keys. She reached into to her pocket unknowingly and handed them over. Hiragi took them and opened the door. He guided Relena into her living room and tuned on the lights. The sun was setting and the rain was only adding to the oncoming darkness.

Relena made her way into the middle of the room and just stood there. Hiragi closed the door and looked at Relena's profile. 'This is not good.'

"Relena, why don't you go take a shower?" Hiragi suggested, but he got no response out of her. Hiragi sighed. "Well, I'm not going to leave you like this. I'll stay the ni-"

"No." Relena said quietly.

"Relena, I don't think it such a wise-" But she cut him off again.

"Go home Hiragi." She said monotonously. "You need not concern yourself over me."

'Like hell I don't.' He said inwardly. "Relena . . . " he objected again.

"I'll be fine Hiragi."

Realizing that he wouldn't be able to change her mind, he only nodded in defeat. "Well, do you want anything before I go? Perhaps some tea?"

Relena only shook her head. "No, I'm fine."

Hiragi gave her a questioning look at that last statement, but said goodbye and turned to leave. When he reached the door he turned to look at her small form once more, then opened it and left.

Hearing his retreating footsteps, Relena went over to the door to ensure that it was closed. As soon as the reassuring sound of the door locking sounded in her ears, Relena turned around and leaned against it. Feeling a tremor consume her body, Relena shut her eyes.

'What's going on!' came Relena's cry.

Her voice echoed throughout the hazy hallway that she saw herself in, but no one seemed to take notice of her. She saw herself standing in front of a line of soldiers, shooting at something in which appeared to be her. She saw bullets head straight towards her and she braced herself for the expected pain . . . but none came. She looked down at her body, expecting to see bullet wounds in her, but there was none. Soon, even more bullets came her way, but this time she watched them. They headed straight for her body like the last time, but she saw them go right through her.

Relena looked up and saw the soldiers holding guns and firing them like mad men. She shifted her position, but it seemed like they couldn't see her at all. It was as if she wasn't really there. Curious as to her surroundings and why these men had guns after the war, Relena took her 'non-existence' to its full advantage. She walked up to the soldiers and looked at their uniform and faces. They were wearing old uniforms of Oz and had fear written all over their faces as plain as day. Wondering exactly why they were shooting at something, and was obviously afraid of what ever it was, Relena turned around to see the source of it.

There was a loud explosion when she faced the direction in which she came from, and it knocked down a few of the soldiers, which were now behind her. Smoke was filling the hallway from the explosion, and a figure was seen shooting a gun at the soldiers as it walked through the dark cloud of gray. A few more soldiers dropped to the ground, and Relena's heart was crying out for the lives that were being lost.

'They're going against my policies, yes, but that doesn't mean they have to die!' She screamed. Relena close her eyes as she felt a few tears spring up.

She heard more sounds of gunfire, and the shouts of the soldiers. One of them giving orders to 'kill him,' and 'continue with the operation.' Relena then opened her eyes to look at the scene once more. Just as her vision came into view, Relena saw a familiar set of prussian blue eyes. Relena's heart wrenched at the sight of him. She couldn't believe it, that it was Heero standing right there. But then again, she didn't really 'exist' in this at all. While looking at him, Relena saw Heero holding a grenade in his hand and was about to through it, but hesitated for a moment. Just for a moment, but right after that, he raised his arm and threw it. The last thing that Relena ever saw was the blast as it consumed her and everything else behind her.

Heero had just boarded on the asteroid near Mars and was charging down the halls. Instantly, as he had anticipated, soldiers were lined up and down of the facility, trying to shoot him before he could do any damage. He had gun downed a few men already and was half way to his destination.

He threw another grenade and this time he used the smoke as cover. He just walked through all the aftermath of the explosion, shooting at targets in which he calculated to be soldiers. Going for positions were they were firing at him. He heard their commander shout orders. Their plan was to take back power over the world and colonies. Well, Heero was not going to let that happen. As soon as Heero stepped out of the smoke, he had a hand grenade ready. He was about to through it at the remaining soldiers that stood in his way, but stopped just for a second. He thought he saw Relena in front of him, tears staining her face. Just a quickly as he saw her, the image disappeared, and Heero threw the grenade.

Relena opened her eyes, only to find herself back in her apartment. She was sitting on the ground, leaning against the door. It was pitch black now, both in and out of her apartment. She deciphered that it was because of the storm that came in, and a black out occurred. She shrugged and eased her unknowingly tense body. She took comfort in the darkness and tried to relax her thoughts.

As soon as she calmed down her fast beating heart, Relena stood up and walked over to her room by memory. Once inside, she took a right and headed straight until she felt her dresser right in front of her.

She felt around for a square box and a cylinder glass. Once she found the two on the far side, Relena picked up the box and opened the top. She carefully placed the top of the box down and removed a piece of cotton out of the small box. Placing the cotton upon the box top, Relena reached back into the box once more and pulled out a long oval-ish object. Feeling for the top of it, she managed to find it and quickly ran her thumb over it, instantly giving off light in the room. The recently born flame flickered from Relena's breath, dancing to the accord of it. Relena then picked up the cylinder glass and lit the candle that was inside of it, and extinguished the lighter.

Relena placed the candle back down on her dresser and looked at herself in the mirror. She studied her face for a while, silently asking questions. Some of them she could answer, and there were some that she could not. Finally Relena asked herself the question that she was wondering from the very beginning.

"Was I just imagining it all, or was it real?"

Relena shook violently all of a sudden and hugged herself to try and stop it. She closed her eyes and waited for the tremors to subside. 'What's wrong with me?'

About a minute later, Relena was still a bit shaky, but other then that she was 'okay.' She opened up her dresser and looked for her night attire, picked up the candle and headed into the bathroom for a good hot shower.

After placing her clothes and the candle down, she stripped off all her clothing that she was wearing and got into the shower. She turned on the hot water only since it was lukewarm. After taking a quick rinse, she began to wash her body and dwelled over her dream.

'What does it all mean? What was Heero doing there? Is this all true? If it is, is this something that will happen in the future, or has it happened already? Or maybe . . . ' She shuddered at the thought. 'Maybe it's happening right now.'

All of a sudden, Relena flashed back to the sounds of shooting guns and the shouting of soldiers. After that she could see what was actually occurring. She saw a hanger and soldiers shooting to something ahead of her. She ran towards the crossfire to see if it was Heero that they were firing at. It was, and Relena went to go and protect him, but then realized that all she was in that dream was a shadowy form.

Relena was back in her shower and came back to reality. She blinked a few times, then plunged her head into the running water. Soon after, she shut it off and dried herself. She picked up her fresh clothes and put them on. She then picked up the candle from the counter and walked out to her room.

She placed the candle on her nightstand and lay down on her bed. She absentmindedly stared at the candle. It's soul purpose to emit light. She just watched the flame burn to its brightest.

Once again, Relena turned back to the battle site with Heero. This time she saw a small room with dead soldiers scattered on the floor at Heero's feet. The shouts of even more soldiers could be heard on the other side of the walls. Heero didn't seem to be paying much attention to them and continued what he was doing. He was at a computer console and was typing in a few codes.

Before he entered in the last one, Heero look at the window in front of him. He had done things perfectly, as always. His shuttle was aligned perfectly for his quick escape. He only had three seconds to get out of this place before it blew up. But there was a problem. A few bullets grazed his space suit and it was no longer capable of protecting him from the vacuum of space, Heero looked at it once more, of how his escape would have been like, but no more.

Suddenly Relena heard Heero say something. It sounded like he was at a great distance saying them even though she was 'standing right next to him.' She tried to listen closer to his words. Then she finally caught the tail end.

" . . . Goodbye, Relena."

Relena's eyes widened in shock. She looked into Heero's eyes and saw sadness in them. Heero entered in the last code, but just as he did, she saw something flicker in his eyes. Like it was a small look of hope. She thought she was seeing things and so she dismissed it and tried to reach him, to just touch him one last time. But then she saw him look at the window as the computer counted.

"3 . . . " He touched the glass.

"2 . . . " He raised his gun.

"1 . . . " And then Relena saw a bright light . . .

All of a sudden the window to her room burst opened and extinguished the flame. The sound of the thunder could be heard even louder now because of the opened window.

Relena got up and closed the window and secured it. Then she went back to her bed and got under the covers. She grabbed her bear in which Heero had given her and hugged it close to her chest. One tear fell, and soon another, and another. Not to long after, Relena was crying like a child only five years of age. What she just saw, was it true, and if it was, it was hopelessly unbelievable.

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