(Ch. 4)

Previously

Lady Une got up to leave Relena and left her apartment. But Lady Une was concerned over the things that Relena might do. So she called up one person to keep an eye on her. She found his name under "K."

" . . . I want you to keep an eye on her. Understand Lieutenant?"

"Yes Ma'am."

Relena's Lamentation

"Sir," came the voice of a soldier as he burst through the door.

"Haven't I told you to knock first!" yelled his superior as he shut off his computer immediately.

"Yes, sir. Sorry sir." Came back the reply, fear evident in his voice. "I just wanted to inform you on the latest that we've got on the Preventers. It seems that Colonel Une is sending for the former Gundam pilots to rendezvous with her at 1800 hours."

'Hehe, so she's made her move already.' He thought. "Well, I guess we'll start then. Start operation Nusumu, stage one."

"Yes sir." said the soldier as he saluted and left the room, his superior chuckling at the thought of things finally going underway.

He turned around and switched back on his computer. He went through file after file, scanning it over countless times. Then finally he brought up a picture, and an evil grin spread across his face.

'One down, eight to go.'

As soon as Lady Une left me, everything went numb. Neither one of my senses registered in my mind as I tried to reject the news that I'd just received . . .

'How in God's name did this come to be! It's not possible; it just can't be true. No, no I can't believe it. I won't believe it!

'It's not true. I can feel it, some how. He's alive. He can't just die. No, that'll never happen. He's still breathing . . . but . . . '

All of a sudden, a wave of coldness swept over Relena's body. Her eyes turned icy blue as she stared out onto the floor. She wrapped her arms around her legs as she brought them up, and rocked back and forth unconsciously. Her brow furrowed as if she were in deep concentration.

'Relena . . . Relena . . . ' Called an out distance voice inside her head.

'Face it Relena, Heero's gone, and you know it.'

"No, it's not true . . . it's not, it's not, IT'S NOT!" Relena screamed back. If anyone were there, they would have the impression of her being insane. When one talked to themselves in such a way, no one accepts it. More so the shadowy figure standing by her floor length curtains.

Relena rubbed her eyes, and felt something moist. Had she been crying again? Relena suddenly got frustrated and angry with herself for being the way she was.

'I hate it when I do this. If people were to see me, they'd see the real Vice-Foreign Minister; a pathetic little girl who has no life and nothing to do but make other people's lives happier.' Then Relena smirked at herself at the next thought. 'If they knew this from the start, maybe I wouldn't be in this predicament right now. I'd just be another one of the ESUNs growing population. I'd be an insignificant person who has really no purpose in life. Nothing that I would do would make a difference in the world. Even if I were to . . . '

Looking over to the balcony, Relena stood up. She just stared out at it, her legs itching to move closer, as if the sight of it was beckoning her to do the unthinkable.

Step . . .

'It wouldn't matter now. Not now . . . not ever. If he's lost-'

'You know it to be true, Relena. Heero is gone and never coming back.'

She quivered at that, hating and cursing that tiny voice inside of her at the same time.

"Heero can't be dead, he just CAN'T!"

Step . . .

'You know he is; you know it! You've seen it, felt pain from it, and even had confirmation from Lady Une. What more proof do you need!'

Step . . .

"Yes, what more do I need."

Steps . . . Step . . . Step . . .

"Heero is gone . . . he's—"

By now, Relena was standing near the rail of her balcony. She looked down several stories to the solid cemented ground. She climbed up and closed her eyes. She smiled at the thought of seeing Heero again, took in a long deep breath, and feeling faint, she jumped.

Author's Note: kind of short, mi know…but u still got another chapter to read. it's not that bad… review!