(Ch. 5)
"Heero . . . "
Relena had heard herself calling out as her vision was coming into focus. All there was around her was darkness and a strong beam of light coming from a distance. She felt lightheaded and barely could feel any part of her body.
'I must be dead.' Relena thought.
She tried to feel her limbs as she tried to make her way over to the beam of light.
"Heero? Heero where are you?"
Flash
'The light being too bright, I tried to turn my head and raise my hand to shield my eyes, but just as soon as the light had burst before me, it disappeared.
'I felt a warm breeze circle around me as I took in my surroundings. The golden sun's rays illuminated the sky to an orange hue right over the green and yellow grassy hill which was seen only with the background of the ocean, a tree growing upon it, and a lone figure with it's back facing towards me.
'As I made my way over, I couldn't see for my vision was a bit obscured by the sun's position. With every step that I took, my vision became better. Then, it became more and more clear to me that this wasn't just some ordinary person. With that mop of brown chocolate hair and the simple features of its body, I knew it to be none other than Heero.'
"Heero!" Relena called out in joy. She closed the remaining distance between her and Heero with a sprint. She could see and talk to him once again! Or can she?
"Heero! Heero, I'm so glad to see you." She said. "Heero . . . Heero, what happened? And where are we . . . what is this place?" Relena looked around her, then turned back to Heero, only to find that he wasn't right there in front of her anymore, but now was at a great deal of a distance.
"Heero," Relena said dauntingly. "What's wrong?"
She tried getting closer to him again, but with every step that she took, Heero would be that much farther away. Realizing that, Relena stopped and tried to call to Heero again.
"Heero . . . Heero, why won't you answer me? Would you at least look at me!" Distressed at the thought of seeing him again but not being able to talk to him, Relena was invigorated by such a cruel coalition.
" . . . Heero . . . " Relena whispered. 'Why won't he look at me, or just answer me. Can't he see that I'm being torn to shreds from all of this?'
One followed by another, and another . . . it was tear after tear that came coursing down Relena's now sad stricken face. Having dealt with too much already, her strong will to not cry was no longer there. The tears and previous pent-up emotions came out in a furry of convulsions throughout Relena's body.
"Why," Relena cried out in agony. "Oh dear god . . . why!"
Relena fell onto her knees and buried her face in her hands, trying to hide her weakness from Heero. She wished that she were stronger, like him. It made her feel like some worthless little girl who would always cry and needed comforting. She didn't want to be seen like that in anyone's eyes . . . his eyes.
" . . . Relena . . . "
Heero turn his head slightly and gave her a side-glance. Relena smiled, finally being able to truly see him, but just then, the same bright light came back, and swallowed her within it.
'As soon as the light was gone, I opened my eyes to see if Heero was still there, but my vision was still a bit blurred. Trying as much as I could to take in my surroundings, all I could tell was that I was in a place that was pretty dark. There was a figure that was near something a bit brighter than the rest of the place, so I tried focusing my eyes there. Soon I came to realize who and where I was.'
"Hiragi?" Relena called softly from the side of her room where her bed lay.
He smiled and said, "Hey, you finally woke up." Getting up, he walked to her bedside and sat down. "How are you feeling? You look okay considering what happened."
Puzzled, Relena asked what he meant.
"Well," he began grimly. "I came by to see if you were hungry, seeing that it was about 4:30 in the afternoon." Hiragi flinched slightly at saying this, but Relena didn't notice. "When I came by to your place though, the door was wide open. Knowing that you'd never leave it like that, I rushed inside to find your place . . . well, it's not what it used to be."
"What do you mean!" Relena shot out of bed, but was immediately pushed gently back into it.
"It's alright Relena. Relax. There's more to it then just that." Hiragi waited until Relena relaxed back into bed. When she was ready to listen, Hiragi began again on how he came to be presently at her side. "It's not what your placed looked like that scared me," he paused. He looked away from Relena's questioning gaze and took in a slow, even breathe. To give him somewhat of the strength he needed to continue, he took up her hand in his, looked back into her azure eyes, and began again. "But whether or not that you were okay." Those last three words came out in a tremble as Hiragi cast his gaze down.
Relena stared at Hiragi to find his body tense up as he closed his eyes. Looking him over, Relena finally realized Hiragi's true feelings for her. She knew he had something for her, a fling even if it may be, but never in her life would she have thought to find someone so sincere and honest as this. What Hiragi had for her were of true and virtuous emotions that one would so rarely come across of in their entire life, or never at all.
Relena felt captivated, entranced even, but yet she felt saddened from all of this at the same time. It was a wonderful feeling to have; knowing that someone felt so deeply for you. That they care so much, that you feel wanted in the world, in life. Who could ask for more? Despite the frivolous flow of fire, the extravagant feeling of being wanted by someone, Relena had only wished that it were Heero instead of Hiragi.
'Unfortunately, that's never going to happen now, is it, Relena.' She thought bitterly.
Looking back to Hiragi, Relena decided that what she needed to do was here and now, and put aside her thoughts for a moment.
"Hiragi-"
"I found you out on your balcony floor, unconscious." He stammered, shooting her his overwhelming gaze. Relena saw that tears were evident in his eyes, but they never fell. His focused eyes never wavered from hers, as Relena found herself to be speechless.
'How could I have been so selfish? Here I was, ready to give up on life, when there are people here that care for me . . . people who need me. Not just the United Earth Sphere Nation and colonies, my family and friends, but also Hiragi.'
Relena gently sighed at this, knowing that even though she wished to take her own life, she couldn't do it because the entire human race depended on her and her alone. But how can she continue to guide them, support them, and give them strength when her own source of guidance, support and strength was gone?
"Hiragi," Relena said gently. "It's alright. Thank you for your kindness and concern. You don't have to worry so much about me anymore."
Hiragi looked skeptically at her, and she expected it. So she planned ahead of time to smooth out this little problem. Smiling at him, Relena suggested that if it would make him feel better, he could stay the night at her place. Nodding his head in agreement, Hiragi thanked Relena as she got out of bed and led him to his room for the night.
"Here you go Hiragi. The bathroom is right down the hall if you need it. Goodnight." Relena began to make her way back to her room when Hiragi gently pulled her back.
"Relena, I have to go out for a while to finish up some business. So I won't be back until late."
"Alright, I'll see you later then." She turned her head, about to leave when he pulled her back again.
"I don't want to leave you here alone, so I'm going to call a Preventer to stand guard here until I come back."
Relena was about to counter that decision, but found the determination in his eyes. He wouldn't take no for an answer.
'That's weird.' She thought. 'It reminds me- NO! I will not think back to that, subject, now.'
Nodding her head, Relena relentlessly agreed and finally was able to leave to her room.
Once Hiragi heard the door click, he took out his cell phone and dialed into Preventers HQ.
Author's Note: good, okay, junk? suggestions? there's something called reviewing, LoL. PLEASE DO! mi enjoy reading all of them.
