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THE OTHER SNAKE :: A Meryl/Solidus Fanfic Chapter 6 :: "Pain, Fear, Desire, Death"

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Solidus gently pulled Meryl close to him as he kissed her. [What am I doing?] He thought to himself. But at that moment, the only thing that mattered was the warmth and softness of her still lips against his. This was something he had never felt before. [Is this why a man needs a woman so much?] he thought to himself again.

Could this be what he truly longed for? Could this moment be the one thing that will change his life forever? Change his life with just one kiss from a woman he hated, and who hated him in return? More thoughts trailed in his mind [THIS.This is not real!!! This is not 'love'.this is nothing but an illusion!!! THIS IS WRONG!!! I.i will never fall for this physiological TRAP!!! This is not real!!!].

He suddenly felt the urge to pull away..to let her go, and forget about everything that's happened. But as he was about to do such, he suddenly felt her lips move against his. [What?..what's going on?]. He could feel her faint breath as she kissed him back in soft rhythm.

She seemed asleep..her eyes still closed, with rain drops gently rolling over them. She probably still lost in whatever dream her mind is set, but her lips felt alive. Her lips felt alive as he kissed her back.

[I don't understand..why..] For a man of his age, a soldier and man of his stature, this all felt so new to him. And even more awkward because he was doing this with an enemy.. Someone he would have killed days ago, if it wasn't for the need to survive.

He felt his heart beat faster as he suddenly felt Meryl's hand against his arm. Her touch felt so different for him. All the time he'd been with her, she always felt so hostile, so angry, so rough. But now she felt different.she felt so soft and vulnerable.

[ I can't do this!! This is all a trick!!! This is not real!!! This witch! ].And then he slowly pushed her down on the grassy floor. [ What am I doing?! I am a man who doesn't give in to these things!!! She is an enemy and I hate her! She's getting into my way! She's spoiling my plans!!! I do not need her!!! ]. But then he kissed her more... [ Maybe one more won't hurt..I don't want anything else..maybe just one more kiss...Then it's all over...I'll KILL HER IF I HAVE TO!!! Then everything will be forgotten!!! And my life will go back the way it was!!!! ]

Meryl still had her eyes closed, with her mind in a dazed sleep as she gently brushed her lips against his...........And then she felt her body hit the cold, wet grassy floor......She suddenly felt something on her body, something on her lips.Someone holding her close, pinning her down on the earth she laid on. And then she opened her eyes.....wide with shock...

Meryl's mind went blank as she quickly pushed him away with all her energy. "YOU BASTARD!!!!!!!!!" She shouted. Rage just filled her entire body as she stared at him. She didn't see a person. She saw a monster.

"WHAT WERE YOU DOING TO ME?!!!! YOU ANIMAL!!!!"

Solidus tried to regain his balance. Even his mind felt so blank, as if he didn't even know what truly happened..As if he just wanted to forget everything that he did to her while she was lost in her consciousness.

The next thing he felt was her fist hitting his face. Then another one, and another one. The only thing his senses could feel were her hard punches, her cries of anger and the pain.

"YOU BASTARD!!! YOU BASTARD!!! HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO ME?!!!!!" meryl felt all her energy concentrated in her fist as she landed them on his face. One after another.one after another. She didn't wanna stop until he was dead before her. She could see his body wavering, and moving with every punch, backing away with every force exerted. Odd enough, he didn't fight back. He just stood there.. But she didn't care.

With every punch, she saw blood splattering on his lips. Blood coming out of his face.his mouth.the mouth that just kissed her.violated her. She didn't know whether the blood came from her fist or from his face. She couldn't stop herself. She wanted him dead.

Solidus' mind was blank..thoughts of him being one of the best tacticians and soldiers ever, entered his mind, but here he was, being beaten to death by a girl, and he couldn't do anything about it. He just wavered along, backed off with every force her punch gave him.

He suddenly felt his back against a tree. He leaned unto it, since he couldn't support his weight any longer.his vision was already too blurry. He didn't know if the blur was caused by her punches or his sickness.then he remembered [ The day is TODAY! ] He told himself [ Today is when I..].

Meryl punched him again, so hard this time, that the side of Solidus face hit the tree hard. Right after that moment, he suddenly felt Meryl's hand on his shoulders, pinning him so hard on the tree and then she kissed him...But this wasn't the gentle kiss he shared with her a while ago. She was kissing him hard it almost hurt.

[ What? ] Meryl told herself. She kissed him.kissed him so hard, as she pinned him against the tree. [ Why am I doing this? Stop, Meryl!!!]. But her thoughts were left unheard, as she motioned her lips against his. She could see the faint surprised look in his eyes [ Why do I want him?!!! ]. She felt his blood against her lips. She could taste it. The rain brought more of his blood against her lips. She could taste his blood as she kissed him.it all felt so strange for her. She hated this man!

But at that moment, when she looked at him, as she kissed him, she saw the eyes of Snake [ Is this why I want him? Because he reminds me so much of Snake?!!! Because I miss Snake so much?!!! IS THIS WHY?!!!!! ]

She slowly motioned her fingers over his stomach wound. She felt him flinch as she did this, but it felt more intense as he slowly started to kiss her back. Meryl saw so much emotion in his face.fear, tiredness, pain, bust mostly fear..Maybe it was because of the rain.

[ Today is the day.] He told himself [ The more I can't keep this charade up......But..but why is she doing this? Is this what it feels like to be loved in return? I guess love really does hurt.....But what now? What will happen now that she's kissed me BACK? What?!!! I....I just don't know anymore....Everything's so lost...BUT I AM WHO I AM!!!! I can't be led astray!!!! ]

Then he reached out, grabbed her shoulders and pulled her away from him. Then he stared into her eyes..He could see his blood on her lips, dripping down to her chin as the rain carried it "This is wrong..We're blinded!"

Meryl breathed hard.as if she was getting all the air she lost from the kiss. She pulled her shoulders away from his firm grip "Let go of me!!! I.DIDN'T MEAN THAT!!! I DON'T WANT YOU!!! That kiss.was for Snake! I DON'T WANT YOU!!!" She quickly wiped his blood from her lips. "Don't touch me!!! Never ever touch me again!"

[ Why does it hurt so much? ] He thought to himself.[ Is it my face that hurts? Or do I hurt because she didn't mean any of it? This wench has corrupted me..and I have to get rid of her. ]. He had to act now!!! He knew he had to act now before.before.he completely loses himself to her. Or he thought maybe he could just leave her to them..leave her to them...according to PLAN.......But no.he had to end it here now. Nothing of what happened should be left to be said.

Solidus quickly grabbed his pocket knife and before Meryl knew it, he held her tight from behind, with the knife pointed at her throat.

"GO ON!!!! KILL ME!!!! Get this over with, Solidus!!!!".Meryl didn't know what she wanted. She wanted to live for Snake.to save Snake, but never will she beg for mercy from an enemy. Especially from an enemy who violated her.used her vulnerabilty for his own purposes. If she will die that day, she will die with her head held high as a true soldier dying for honor.

"Goodbye, Meryl." Solidus whispered in her ear.

"At least it's glad to have you back, Solidus. For a while there I thought you were becoming soft. Hahahah.you impress me. You're the only Snake who never sheds his skin." She said to him with a mocking, sarcastic tone.

"You know why? Because I like my skin. And not even you, or your female ways will change any of it!!!! I'm sorry, Meryl.But I can't leave you alive."

Solidus pressed the tip of the knife against her throat and Meryl felt her entire body clench as she swallowed her final breath of air.....