¿What Is Love
A/N: I just revised this yet again and I'm going to revise it for the rest of the chapters. Read, review and enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own Cardcaptor Sakura. It's a production of Clamp.
Chapter One- Dark Past
Through many dark, lonely nights, Syaoran would constantly stare out of the grand window of his large castle, and gaze thoroughly at the open fields.
He was sad and lonely.
It had always been like this, ever since that dreaded day, that changed him completely.
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A serene day, where father and son went deer-hunting, deep into the woods. The woods were peaceful, filled with only the lively sounds of nature.
"Father! I see a deer," exclaimed a young Syaoran, expression filled with excitement at seeing a moving creature come forth.
"Very good... Now what you do next, is, aim your gun at the deer," Li Toichi said gently as he glided Syaoran's hands, that were clutching onto the gun nervously, over towards the oblivious deer,"and shoot."
Syaoran nodded in understanding; however, he couldn't bring himself to shoot the poor deer. He struggled on pulling the trigger, eyebrows drooping when seeing the deer looked up at him, unaware that he's about to kill it. It was so beautiful though...
He couldn't do it.
He will not do it.
All worries went away when a warm hand was placed on his shoulder. He looked up, seeing his father's kind smile.
"How about we go home and do something else?"
Syaoran smiled eagerly. "Hai."
They were about to head on home, when unexpectedly, a large black bear jumped out of nowhere and roared dangerously at the two.
The two males turned around, wondering what all the fuss was about and spotted the bear, huge in size and as you can imagine it, quite dangerous.
"Syaoran! Move out," Toichi yelled as the bear came running at them. He pushed Syaoran aside, so he wouldn't be the one soon to be attacked, "Arghhhh!"
"Father!" Syaoran cried, witnessing his father being clawed by the bear, blood splattering everywhere; it was a horrid sight.
"Syaoran, please get help!" Toichi screamed with the most pain-filled voice ever, while at the same time, trying to fight off the bear. "Run now boy!"
Syaoran nodded furiously and hit his foot to the dirt ground and sped away, trying to find someone to help his father.
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"Help!" Syaoran yelled at the top of his lungs, looking in all sorts of directions, "Somebody, please, help us!"
He wiped away his tear-stained face, upset at seeing no one in the clearing. "HELP!"
His eyes held hope, at seeing a man trudging towards him. "Young lad? Is there something wrong?"
Quickly, Syaoran grabbed the man's hand, pulling him into the direction of his dying father. "My father... He was attacked by a bear... I'll show you where he is!" Syaoran cried as he panted and continued running, dragging the man into the area where his father last was seen.
Syaoran paused, glad to see the bear no longer there, but his father... He was on the ground.
Many things raced in his mind. One was... If his father was all right?
"Fa–ther..." Syaoran whispered brokenly. Blood was everywhere. He couldn't believe it. Was his father going to make it?
Syaoran walked a bit closer, forgetting the man from behind him; he edged closer to his unmoving father; all covered in blood. The sight was too gruesome that it brought more tears to his amber orbs. "Are... Are you still alive?"
Suddenly, eyelids opened, causing Syaoran to jump back in fear.
"Son... I..." His voice faded out. He was breathing heavily and it began to turn into soft pants. He was losing blood... Losing his life.
"Please father, don't die on me..." Syaoran choked back his sobs, trying not cry. His father had always wanted him to be brave, even under the worse circumstances, such as now.
"Syaoran... You will be a good king soon."
The small boy fell onto his knees, looking down at his near-dead father. Worries were fluttering all around him and confusion too. "Don't say that father... I can't be king yet. You are still the king..."
Another voice filled the air between them, "Should I get a doctor? Some sort of aid?"
Syaoran shot a glare to the man, seeing him standing there, looking pitiful. "Why haven't you before?" Syaoran nearly screamed, causing the man to be taken aback.
Recognizing the voice of the other man, Toichi wrinkled his nose. "Kira?"
The man raised his eyebrows and walked up to the dying man. "How do you know... Why, is that you, Li Toichi?" The man spat down at Toichi, also recognizing the king. "It's been a while since I last saw you Toichi. It's been a bad past, a bad, unresolved past."
Syaoran looked away from his father and into the eyes of evil red. The man, by the name of Kira, grinned darkly at him. "I've always sought revenge... and now is a perfect time to do so." Kira snickered, playing with a gun he just found.
Spotting the gun, Syaoran eyes widened up in pure fright. 'He took my gun!' Syaoran thought, quite infuriated.
Kira continued talking. "My wife and children left me because I lost my job and my house. I wanted you to help me out... but you didn't do anything..."
Toichi cut in rudely. "... What are you talking about? I offered you a job and you got fired. If you weren't so lazy on your bum, you would've had that job still today!" Toichi coughed furiously.
"All I wanted was a couple of rubies, yet, you never spared any..." Kira screwed up his face and spat despicably. "Who would want a greedy king to rule anyway?" He aimed the gun at Toichi's head.
Syaoran jumped to his feet. "STOP!" But it was too late, Kira shot and Toichi fell dead immediately.
"Why'd you have to do that?" Syaoran screamed, but the man turned to him, aiming the gun once again.
"Now it's your turn..."
"Stop... Don't, please, I'm begging you." Syaoran pleaded, but the man just ignored him, and pulled the trigger.
Nothing.
"Dammit... out of bullets," he cursed in between breaths. Then he pulled out a sharp, small knife from his belt buckle. He looked up at Syaoran and smiled tauntingly. "Come here boy; I'll make it quick."
Syaoran shook his head angrily and swiftly ran away, running as fast as his little legs could carry him.
"Help!" Syaoran cried, at the same time, looking over his shoulder to see if Kira was catching up. Indeed he was! "Somebody help me!"
"Come back here you rotten cur... Ei yah!"
Wondering what happened, Syaoran turned around, relieved that Kira was far behind him, getting attacked by the very same bear that attacked his father.
"Help me boy! If you do... I'll let you live!" Kira shouted out to him, trying to fight off the bear with his only defense... His knife.
Syaoran paid no attention to him. He wanted the man killed... for killing his father.
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Syaoran's eyes were downcast as he tried to tell his mother why his father hasn't returned home. And as you can tell, it was very difficult for him.
"You let your father get killed by a bear?" Yelen yelled, veins popping from her forehead.
"No... this guy... h-he..." Syaoran stammered, afraid of his mother's hot temper.
Slap!
"Shut up you stupid boy!"
Syaoran eyes glazed over with salty tears. "Please... I tried to..."
She slapped him again. "I said shut up... My god! All that training wasted on you..." She couldn't control her anger anymore and so, walked up to Syaoran, with a deathly look plastered to her face.
She punched him in the stomach and kicked him all over the place until the boy couldn't stand anymore.
"Mother... please... you're hurting me," Syaoran coughed out, laying sprawled on the floor, defenseless of his mother's violent blows.
"It is all your fault that we no longer have a king, a ruler!" She screamed, still slapping and kicking, "You wanted to go hunting really badly, didn't you, you little bastard, and have your father get killed!"
"I'm sorry..." Syaoran whispered through his swollen mouth, barely audible as he passed out; his last tears falling from his the corner of his closed lids.
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And from that day, he had no tears... no emotions. Again, he's all alone. He had his four sisters before for company but they fell in love and married off.
'What is love?' Syaoran thought dryly, with no expression on his face. He got up, suddenly, walking casually towards his green satin bed sheets.
'Love... I shall have none of it.' His head landed onto his forest-green pillowcase. Everywhere, it was green. Well, you can't tell from in the dark, but the green is still there.
"I am Li Syaoran, prince of the Li Kingdom and soon to be ruler..." He whispered, "I will not let love get in the way to bring me down."
His lids closed, covering away the cold amber eyes as he fell into a dreamless sleep.
tbc...
