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A/N: Sorry for the delay and I hope you like it, by the way, Sakura just came from school. )
Summary- Sakura is mourning her mother's death. She is very fragile now, and she wants to be alone. She moves to a new school, meets Syaoran. He is being very nice to her, but how will Sakura take it?
Ch. 5
"I'm home! Any mail or phone calls for me?" said the exhausted Sakura as she flopped down on the couch.
"Well there is a list of boys here, um how about you take a look, that's if you actually know any. Oh! Also, your friend Tomoyo called said it was urgent. Well, I need to go to the office; I'll be back at night." He said and kissed his daughter on her head.
"Bye." In a single minute, Sakura was left alone in her house, on the couch. She decided to take a look, at the "list". She skimmed through it and saw Syaoran. She ignored it; she didn't feel like talking to anyone. As for Tomoyo, she didn't want to talk to her either, 'she's always trying to rub everything in my face, and I personally am not up for it now.'
Sakura walked up to her room and opened her door. She changed into her white T-shirt, and short gray shorts. She put on her sporty Nike's that were gray and white. She set her hair in a sloppy ponytail, half of her hair through the hair band. She grabbed her keys and duffle bag and went out to the drive way. She sat in her Corolla that se finally got to drive back from her old garage. She drove off to the gym. She was so stressed and it was time for her work out.
As she parked she clenched her fist, she realized she was full of anger and confusion. 'Time to find out what's going on with you…' She got her things and entered the gym. As she walked in many men whistled and stared. She ignored them and set her things in a work-out section next to someone.
"Hey." She said, looking at the girl.
She turned around to see only Meiling.
"What are you doing here?"
"It's a free country" Sakura said.
"I know, you idiot."
"Look, I don't know what you have against me; I haven't done anything to you."
"Well at least not yet!"
"Whatever, how about we get through this without arguing, ok?"
"Fine!"
"Fine!" they said both turning around.
After a while of working out, Sakura was all sweaty and thirsty. She grabbed her bottle of Gatorade, but it was empty. She stood up to go to the water fountain. She stopped short when she saw a young man working out, without a shirt. She didn't know what to do so she just froze. After 2 seconds the young man turned around and saw Sakura there, standing motionless. Sakura was speechless. It was none other than
Syaoran…
"Sakura what are you doing there?"
"(Silence)"
"Sakura…"
Sakura blushed ad ran to the bathroom. She ignored him, then spied on him, and just froze like an idiot. 'He's so good-looking. I've been blind this whole time. No wonder Meiling hates me.' She thought and sighed. 'Snap out of it, Sakura. He's only a very good-looking friend that cares about you and is sweet, and smart, and I'm pathetic!' She looked in the mirror she cleaned herself up. 'No, I do not like him, it's just the surprise, how am I supposed to like him if I never did before? "I do not like him; I do not like him…" Sakura was chanting as she walked out of the bathroom cautiously.
Sakura saw no one and she sat on the floor. "Why do I feel like this? There's this mixture of butterflies, anger, sadness, happiness. No one understands me, life is so complicated."
"Of course no one is going to understand you if you don't let any one help you."
Sakura turned around and saw Syaoran, once again.
"Do you want to talk?"
Sakura just nodded and scooted over. Syaoran took a seat next to her.
"Okay, tell me, what's going on, why do you make it sound like life has been unfair to you?"
'How could I have been so selfish? I never told him, and yet, he still eased my pain away and tried to make me happy.'
"My mom died right before I moved to Tomoeda. She died of heart disease, but it was my fault."
"Sakura, don't blame yourself, I'm sure it wasn't"
"Yes it was… And that's the saddest part. That day, I had an argument with her because my boyfriend cursed her out, and I defended him. She left crying and had a heart attack. I was at my boyfriend's house, telling him my mom she was just crazy, and didn't understand what we had. Then I received the news. To make it worst, I caught my boyfriend making out with my friend, and he told me… 'Your mother was right.'" Sakura said shaking her head and smiling, tears down her cheeks. "I'm just stupid, and selfish. I should have listened"
Syaoran hugged the small girl, and told her, "Sakura it's not your fault, you were blinded by some jerk, who didn't deserve you."
'Seems I'm always blinded.' "Then who deserves me Syaoran? Who would want to have this selfish girl with a ruined life? Tell me!" she said looking away as she wiped her tears.
Syaoran set his hand on her cheek, facing her face to his. "I would." He said and he kissed her softly. To his surprise Sakura responded, deepening the kiss. Then she broke apart. She looked at him, blinking. She stood up and quickly ran to get her things and ran out of the gym and drove away.
Syaoran cursed and said, "so much for telling her how I feel Eriol…"
Sakura got to her house in a split second. She ran into the house and went to her room, closing the door behind her, and locking it. She got in her bed and realized what just happened. She tried convincing herself that it was a movie that played in her head. But she still could feel Syaoran's sweetness on her lips. She sighed and tried to forget, but she couldn't stop thinking about Syaoran. 'Why didn't I give him a chance sooner, maybe I would've been happy by now.' She thought closing her eyes. "I'm so sorry, everyone, please forgive me..." she whispered as she fell asleep.
:::In The Morning:::
Sakura drove to school and went to pick up Tomoyo. As she got in the car, Tomoyo hung her head down, eyes sad.
"Tomoyo, I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"I've been such a loser, and it's just because I'm jealous of what you and Eriol have." Sakura found out herself as she said it.
"Sakura don't rush yourself, I'm sure the right guy is waiting for you out there, I just happen to be lucky to find Eriol. Look, you'll see what I mean, before you know it you'll be swept off your feet and in love, I didn't know it at first, but once he confessed, I knew my heart said it was okay to show my true feelings."
'Guess my heart still isn't ready to show my true feelings, or is it?'
A/N- So sorry guys this chapter it is confusing and bad, it's just my first time and all so please forgive me. Find out in the next chapter why Sakura m-i-g-h-t have changed her feelings over Syaoran, and what does she mean by selfish? PLEAZE PLEAZE REVIEW! I need motivation, and ideas, people!
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