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generator Msftedit 5.41.15.1507;viewkind4uc1pardf0fs20 My eyes had to be lying to me. I tried to convince myself. I felt my lips shake. This is a dream...a horrible horrible dream and for the past two days everything has been a lie. I was trying to convince myself but I couldn't. I knew everything I was seeing was real. Too real for me even to handle. lineline Sean was on the bed drunk. Beer cans and bottles laid everywhere on the floor. 'Great you hypocrite cunt. Now even Sean had to drain you out of his brain' my mind was going with me agian. lineline "Sean...WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING..!" I yelled in surprise even to myself. lineline Just then Craig ran up the stairs. He grabbed my shoulders as hard as last time. HE looked me striaght in the eyes. lineline "Get away! God...God Elloise...I had to have some time ok..get the fuck out of here your...you bitch!" Sean said with slurred language. lineline My eyes filled with salty drops I didn't want as Craig tried to hug me. I pushed him away. lineline "How'd he get this? How'd he get all these beers Craig!" I asked while Craig stared at me. lineline Everything grew silent. My heart was pounding. I wanted my answer and I wanted it now. lineline "CRAIG!" I asked louder. lineline "Okay listen to me, he was pissed off okay. He was pissed off because of...because of you Ellie. He said he needed time away from you and that he needed to get you out of his mind...and this was the only way." He tried to lay it down gently to me. You could tell because his voice got softer and softer as he went on. lineline I walked off, walked out of the house, and drove. I didn't know where I was driving. I just had to go. Somewhere...anywhere. linepar I finaly reached an abandoned playground that was torn up. Noone was in sight, so I sat there in the car. Tears finaly started to poor again. Harder and harder with each breath I took. Then I looked at the rearview mirror. lineline "You fucking slut! All you do is cause problems...no wonder mom and dad are away you are a cunt! A fucking trouble maker. And no wonder Sean is an alcholic! Look at you...your a hypocrite! A god damn hypocrite that deserves everything your getting!" I said...this time outloud. lineline I rolled up my sleeves. I looked at the freash looking cut. Tears fell and hit my arm. lineline "You are a hypoctrite Ellie...that's all you are..." I said. lineline I opened my backpack and got my kit out. I chose my weapon of distruction. linepar I then hit the skin. I let out all anger and sadness, blood stained the seats, I didn't care anymore though. This was my car, my life...my perfect restart. lineline About two hours later I woke up to my cell phone ringing. I must have cried so much that I fell asleep. lineline The phone said..Sean's cell calling...linelinepar