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Note: This is a songfic to the hardest thing by 98 degrees. I saw careless whisper a while back and this song reminded me of Marco and Ellie. No flames please! I got a good review on "two in a million" so I hope you all like this 1 too. Enjoy!
We both know I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killin me, it's killin you
Both of us trying to be so strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else that loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been so good to me
And she deserves better than that
Marco's POV
I finally had to tell her, I'd prayed that wouldn't have to, that it would all just go away on its own. But then as I sat there with in Ashley's room, I knew I couldn't hide it any longer. I'll never forget the look on her face when I told her I was confused, like the world came crashing down.
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
I felt like the most awful person in the history of the world. I knew I shouldn't have used her like this. I knew now that soon my secret would come out, and then I would have hell to pay from the rest of the world. I was sure that now she would hate me for life, that she'd run downstairs and tell them all I was a damn freak, and then my life would be over.
I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
Cause there can be no happy ending
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been so good to me
And she deserves better than that.
The day after, when Jimmy and Spinner asked me how my "hour long glass of water" tasted, and she came up next to me and told them they should totally jealous, I knew…. I knew that we were gonna be okay after all. Even though we can't pretend forever I know now that when I'm done she'll still be there.
Okay R&R! this was so hard to write but I need to know what was right or needed work!
