Life's Little Secrets

Hello everyone, this is chapter two, I hope it's a little better, please review and tell me what you think, I would really appreciate it.

Disclaimer: I own nothing Buffy, although I wish I owned Spike. -sighs- Oh well, lol, I don't. But, I do own Ryan and any other characters I may add in later. So, no suing me, you really wouldn't get anything. -reaches into pocket- Oh wait, here. -holds piece of lint out- You can have that.

Okies, on with the story.

Chapter two

She had just finished throwing up, again. That was it, she was going to the doctor. Dawn stood up, and cleaned herself up, one last time. She was tired of all this. She didn't know what it was, but she didn't like it. If it was the flu, she was sure it was the world's longest lasting one. She grabbed her coat, and headed down stairs. She sat at the counter, and made herself a bowl of cereal. She looked at one of the magazines Willow had left on the counter, and when she saw it, something hit her like a ton of bricks. There was a picture of a baby on the cover. Dawn's heart felt like it stopped. And she sat there frozen, staring at the picture. Could that be it? No, it couldn't be. She couldn't be. God she hoped not. Dawn's mind was racing with a million different thoughts. She jumped up, threw her bowl in the sink, grabbed her coat and ran out the door like a bat out of hell. She had to get to the doctor's...now!

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Dawn sat in the waiting room of the free clinic, something she never thought she'd be doing. She looked around the waiting room. Everything seemed like it was going in slow motion. There were young couples sitting in chairs and holding hands, homeless people, and young girls with large tummies. Dawn's gaze fixed on one girl in particular. She had long blond hair, and looked to be around her age. Her stomach was large and round. Dawn briefly wondered if that would be her soon. She was taken out of her daze, when a nurse called her name.

"Evelyn Sanders?"

Dawn jumped up. "Yes, that's me."

The nurse smiled warmly at Dawn. "Follow me."

Dawn had given a fake name because she didn't want anybody to know that she had been here. As she followed the nurse down the white hall, an image of the girl in the waiting room flashed in her head.

The nurse guided her into a small room, and said, "The doctor will be in a minute."

Dawn nodded and smiled at the nurse.

Soon, the door opened, and the doctor walked in. "Hello, Ms. Sanders. How can I help you today?" He said politely.

"Uh, I'm here for a pregnancy test." She mumbled quietly.

The doctor didn't even flinch. "Okay, we'll get that done for you."

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As she waited for the results of the test, Dawn's heart was hammering in her chest. The waiting and not knowing was getting to her, and she couldn't take it anymore. She got up and started pacing around the room. Several minutes later, the doctor came in and looked at her.

"We have the results, Ms. Sanders. It's positive. You are indeed pregnant."

Dawn froze, and she felt like she couldn't breath. He had just confirmed her fears. She was pregnant. And she was just sixteen.

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Dawn walked down the sidewalk with her head bowed and her arms around her stomach. She held packets of information in her hand, but she wasn't thinking about them. She was thinking about what the doctor had said. She was pregnant. How could this be happening to her? Well, she knew in her head how it had happened, but her heart was wondering. What was she going to do? She couldn't tell anyone, they would kill her. How would she tell them? Was she going to keep the baby? What was going to happen? All these questions raced through her head, as she walked down the street, feeling alone. For some reason she felt dirty, and she didn't know why. She just couldn't shake the feeling. Then one thought in particular ran through her head. Was she going to tell Ryan? She sat down on a bench, and kept thinking. She could just get an abortion, and no one would ever know. She stood up suddenly, and began walking away fast, disgusted with herself for even thinking that. She had to get a second opinion, wasn't that what you were supposed to do?

She went into the corner store, and looked around, checking to make sure no one she knew was there. She quickly went to the section with the pregnancy tests, and looked at them. There were so many different types, so she just grabbed one randomly, and walked quickly up to the counter. She paid for it, and put the pamphlets she had been given in the paper bag with the test. She looked around one more time, and ran to the bathroom in the back of the store. She locked the door behind her, and opened up the test.

Several minutes later, Dawn stood by the sink, staring at the little stick. It was time, and she picked up the test nervously. She looked at it, and any hopes she had were diminished. It was positive. She'd known it would be, but part of her was hoping. She dropped the test on the floor, and collapsed, crying silently.

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Dawn walked out of the store, with the paper bag now only holding the pamphlets. Deciding to take a short cut home, she turned into a dark ally. She was staring at the ground as she walked, and all of a sudden bumped into something and fell to the ground. The bag fell out of her hand, and she looked up to see a very familiar face. Something she didn't want to see right now.

"Spike?" She asked in surprise. "What are you doing out here? It's sunny out."

He looked around the dark ally, and looked at her expectantly.

"Oh, right. No sun in the ally." She said, getting up.

Spike noticed her bag on the ground, and went to pick it up for her. Dawn noticed and reacted quickly.

"No!" She shouted as she picked the bag up before he could get it.

He looked at her strangely, and she said,

"No, it's OK. I got it."

They stared at each other for a moment, and Dawn spoke up.

"Well, I have to go."

Then she scurried out of the ally, leaving Spike to stare at her retreating form, confused.

So, how was it? Please review and tell me! Thanks, and sorry if this wasn't that good, the chapters will get better, I promise. Okies, I'm gonna go now, bye: )

-Samara