SO: u know, I just remembered something about this chapter. I hate it. I was freaking out and... (rants)
AO: okay! (pushes SO out of the way) I'll take over ur ANs, again! Well I don't really think she wants to say much...other than she'd feel better when there was no OOC-ness in her chapters...
SO: ah...(whines)
AO: she said that well it's about to get a little...um...weird-ish cuz...well I won't tell u...just read her chapter and the usual.
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
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Chapter 13
Confidential Confessions
When Rin's eyes fluttered open, the light barely shone through the curtains draped over the long windows. Only, it wasn't warm when she woke up. It was damn hot! She almost had beads of sweat rolling down her face. She turned her head to what it was. She had rolled over during the night so that she was glued right beside him; Sesshomaru that is.
He stirred slightly when Rin moved her head. She closed her eyes and relaxed her breathing just as he had taught her before, to fake that she was sleeping. And it worked too.
Sesshomaru turned to the girl sleeping next to him. If it was him nature to smile, he would have. Even when he got up for a shower, Rin stayed still, like she was really asleep. After a few minutes, he came out and kneeled next to her on the bed. He brushed her hair away from her still figure. His hands ran through her silky hair. It may have been unexpected, and not something you would except to happen. He bent down and placed a soft kiss on her forehead.
Rin tired her hardest to keep her breathing steady, though it was hard. Her heart raced and she prayed he wouldn't notice.
He retracted his head and brushed his hand across her pale cheek. With one last glance, he got up and shut the door with a soft thud.
She made sure to wait a minute until he couldn't pick up a sound from his demon sense of hearing. Rin shot up and clamped her hands over her mouth. The color on her face was a cherry red. 'What the hell was that about? I thought he was suppose to live without women. Stupid twists of fate.' (corny much?...)She got dressed and headed down to the garden, totally skipping breakfast. She needed a quiet place to think. It was hard, but Rin managed to climb up a willow tree. 'How does he climb the so easily?' she wondered. The tree hid her from view of anyone. So she shut her eyes and thought.
'What is up with this? First he's a bastard and hates everything about me, including my name. Next he's kissing me while I'm asleep. How weird can he get? I don't know what to think anymore.'
'I still remember the day I met him. It was back in my first year in High school. We all gathered in the cafeteria to pick up our schedules. I accidentally bumped into him in the line. He wasn't exactly friendly to me, but I wasn't really listening. Those golden eyes entranced me. He asked me if there was something wrong with his face, because I kept staring. Ya, my first moment with him was totally a disaster.
'My next important date was grad night. Sango and me came rather late, and ended up sitting on the other end of the room from every one of our friends. The music really sucked. The only part of the night that was good was picture taking. Ah, our teacher going around taking pictures from random peoples cameras. Anyway, he seriously sat in a corner all night. I was so close to asking him to dance with me. Yet, I chickened out as always. And then we parted never to see each other again. I was definitely wrong on that.
'And I guess everything went from when I met Sango at that meeting I don't know how many months ago. I didn't believe how much he didn't change when I met him again. Still the same guy I remembered, a loner, yet looking good all at the same process. And fate chose me to like him as the other hundred and fifty girls in the school.
'And now he comes and mixes my damn emotions. I...I don't know what to think anymore. Meiko was wrong; it's not alright for an employee to be infatuated with her boss. It's almost wrong. But... I can't help it. I've always liked him. I'll always like him. It's not right for me to like him. So there's only one solution. Like nine years ago I can never see him again. I'm running from my problems like a coward but I don't care. I've got to get away.'
It was now noon and Rin climbed slowly back down the tree and slipped into the house. Being as quiet as possible, she walked upstairs and shut the door of 'their' room. No one seemed to be home on this Saturday, which was a good thing if she was going to leave. She packed whatever she had in her briefcase and reached for the doorknob. Only it turned before she reached it.
Sesshomaru entered and stared at her like everything was normal. "So you're up. I didn't think you would sleep that long. There's food on the table if you please."
She tired to walk past him, not answering straight in the eye. "Save it. I'm outa here."
"Hold it," he said grabbing her wrist, "Where are you going?"
"Away. Away from here."
"Where exactly?"
"I don't know. Sango's place or something. Just away. And why the hell do you care anyway?" she spat angrily.
He picked her up with no problem at all and set her down in the middle of the room. "I'm not letting you go until I know where. I don't want that psychopath out to get you again." He spoke with a hint of impatience in his voice.
"Oh, so look who suddenly cares. Just a few months ago you couldn't give a shit about me. Now you're concerned that Naraku will come and rape me again?" she forgot that she was talking that her boss and totally started bitching now.
"Do you realize who you're talking to? Don't use that tone with me. And how did you come to the conclusion that I hate you? Maybe at one point but..."
"At that stupid reunion you couldn't care less about me!" she interrupted, "I'm sick and tired of being here; of being around you. That's the reason I'm leaving. Besides, you said—"
"What I said was bullshit!" he said furiously to her face.
There was silence in the room for what seemed like ages. Rin finally spoke up, losing the rage in her voice. "W-what?" she stuttered as she was taken aback. It may have been his choice of words or the fact that what he told her before was a lie.
"You heard me. Maybe at the time I meant it, but now that's bullshit," he repeated in a quieter tone.
"I know that but...I just...I..." she was lost for words which was very unlike her.
He cupped her face in his hands. "You're still got your mind on this morning. It's troubling you. But you weren't supposed to be awake."
Rin placed her hands around his wrists. "You knew?"
No, not until your heart rate went trough the roof." She blushed; remembering that she'd almost fooled him. "Not that I really care. It's better you found out that way."
"Found out what?"
He ignored her question; "You were just another one of them. Someone I ignored. But everyday you were there, and at first you proved valuable to the company. Then my family started liking you. And next...I realized I didn't hate you."
"That's nice to know..." she remarked.
"Soon you were here every minute of my life now. You practically live in my house. And... it was the same thing with Kagura."
"What? You knew her?"
"She was my girlfriend in middle school. But none of that matters now."
Her heart thumped hard and fast as his eyes softened at the sight of her pinkish face. "Then, what does matter?" she asked reluctantly, almost afraid to hear the reply.
"For once, I don't really know. But..." he trailed off.
"But?"
He waited a bit before answering. "But...it would be nice if you would stay."
Rin's eye's become glossy. "So...you...want me to stay? Does that mean that y-" her eyes widened.
He bent down and placed his lips on hers. She was in shock for a split second, but she didn't let that get the better of her. She removed her hands from his wrists and clamped them around his neck. But still had that weird feeling that this was wrong.
She shoved him away, but with a little force. Partially because she thought it was wrong, other because her newly healed leg was giving out. "Stop. This is wrong."
"I heard you and Meiko talking yesterday," he said as if not hearing her previous comment.
"Well what she said was wrong. It's not right for an employee to like her boss." Rin said avoiding his eyes. Her heart told her to take back that comment. She finally got who she wanted, and was now throwing it away.
He drew her into his chest. "Listen here. You are employee to no one and I am not the boss of you. Are we clear on that?"
For the first time today she smiled, "Whatever, 'your highness'."
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SO: ahem...anyways...um... (goes into corner)
AO: (sighs) ya umhmm...will I have to go through this everytime now? Okay, she told me over msn... yes she knows it's a stupid chapter. Well it was filled with ooc-ness and yes um...I think thatz it!
SO: ah...
AO: oh ya! And that she didn't read this chapter over cuz she wanted to post it cuz shes going on a trip 2mora and (glares) leaving me 2 die at school! Not the point...R&R! wow...I havent said that in awhile,... hehehe! I guess I should work on more writing then! :P
