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Chapter 3: The Scare
Relena knew something was really wrong when he said that. He wasn't the type to join a regular organization. He was a natural leader like his original namesake, which he proved when he led the non-lead able 5 gundam pilots. She knew something had him really worried, and she couldn't understand it. She knew he would die to complete a mission, in fact he had tried to commit suicide a few times so that he could keep vital information away from the enemy. She had watched him do it twice and saw video of the third attempt. Heero couldn't be scared of his own safety, that idea was impossible; every day of his life had less chance of survival than the chances of death. Relena tried to kiss him, but he resisted and pulled back.
"I can't…" Heero couldn't exactly say it. Relena was confused, there wasn't anything she believed he couldn't do. She tried to pull him into a comforting hug but he wouldn't let her and backed away. She looked at him saddened and confused. Heero looked scared, confused, and in a weird sort of way, protective. He looked as if he was trying to protect her from himself. Like he had some mud on him he didn't want to get on her. "I'm not right for you. I don't deserve you, you should have someone better, not me. I am only fit to be your body guard, only to die for you. You should have someone who is pure and can love you like you should be loved."
Now Relena was very confused. Heero seemed to be saying that he wasn't the one for her. Like he thought he couldn't give her the love she wanted or needed. Like he was only a soldier and assassin, like he was only a machine that couldn't love, but she knew he wasn't a machine. She had felt the kiss and knew he loved her. "You do love me like I need to be. You love me like I want to be loved."
"I don't deserve you, I've killed, I've fought, I've taken life. You are pure and innocent, you deserve someone better than me. I am only fit to be your body guard."
Relena couldn't understand why he was doing this. She saw the real fear in his eyes. Though, she also knew that he thought highly of her and he probably did think she deserved someone better than him. But wasn't that how love is supposed to be? Aren't you supposed to think you don't deserve the other person, especially when they are the right one? She also knew that Heero had gone through rough training since his birth, maybe he never knew what it was like to love and was scared of it. "Why are you so scared?"
Fear, it was an emotion he had never actually felt before, Heero had always said that the way to live an honorable life would be to act as your emotions told you to. This time he didn't know what to do. He felt like running, but that wasn't what he should do, he wasn't scared of Relena. He felt like grabbing her, holding her close, and never letting her go, always being their to protect her. But that couldn't be right either. He wouldn't be able to get the guy who was threatening her if he was doing that. He was so confused. Then again, he also knew about his past, he recalled it from memory in full detail; an ability most would love to have. He knew how he had killed without mercy before and during the war. In fact his "best friend", whom he'd have to contact, was nicknamed the God of Death. He couldn't taint her pure skin with his bloodstained hands. She was Relena. He was the perfect soldier, assassin, and guardian shadow. He couldn't pollute her with his impure love. But there was no way he could say this to Relena, he was never one for words or showing his emotions. He was kind hearted, and his eyes, like everybody else, was the real key to determining his emotions.
Relena watched his eyes. They seemed to go from confusion, to pain, to fear, to confusion, and then preoccupied with what she guessed was self hatred. "No, you can't believe that." She knew what he had been thinking now, and his words made more sense. "You showed that you do love me, by how you are always protecting me, you love me like no one else could, you need me just as much as I need you. No, I don't deserve someone better, you are better than anyone I could ask for. Now tell me what are you scared of?" She had shown a stronger side, a side she never thought she'd show to him, a side she thought he would never need, but one she had developed while being a diplomat.
"I can't…I couldn't…I don't want to loose…I need you too much." Heero couldn't make a coherent sentence. But it was enough. Relena knew what he was trying to say. She felt his yearning and need in his words, but over that she saw his total and utter fear, not for him like she was confused about earlier. She realized it was fear for her. But she didn't understand. She knew there were those out there that wanted her dead or kidnapped, but he had always protected her, why would he be this scared now.?
"I'm right here", she said as she pulled him into a comforting embrace. He pulled her to him, his arms wrapping around her and cradling her in an instinctual protective embrace that was soft. Relena felt safe there. She tried to sooth him from her submissive position. They moved back to her bed. When they sat down, she curled up into him and loved his warmth, strength, and how gentle he was.
They climbed into bed together, but Relena couldn't get comfortable lying down in the clothes she was wearing. With Heero's help, she got out of her shirt and knee length skirt. Now in her underwear, she shivered. That was when Heero hugged her to him, keeping her warm. She fell asleep like that, content and happy. Heero had almost forgotten why he was so scared for her. He felt like she was safe in his arms and he knew she felt safer in his arms than anywhere.
Heero awoke the next morning before the sun was up, even thoug he didn't go to sleep until well after midnight. Then he realized that two things were off. One that he felt completely right, comfortable, and happy. Something that had also never happened to him before. The other was that he felt someone had been in the room. Someone had done something. Then he noticed the envelope on the pillow next to Relena's hair. He got up without disturbing Relena and opened it. He knew fully that this person could have killed both of them without either of them being able to do anything about it. He had been next to both Relena, and to his anger, himself while they were asleep just to prove he could. Heero was normally a light sleeper, he seemed to wake before any of his senses could sense a presence, but his body knew danger. This time the person had waltzed right in, proved his point and left.
Heero was now thoroughly scared, angry, and frustrated all at the same time. He opened the letter. "I don't think you took my last letter seriously. I hope this proves I am not kidding. I hope you take more precautions from now on, especially if you are going to be head of her security. I'm hope you can play better or I'm going to be disappointed. Take care of Relena, you don't want the world to loose her now do you?"
… Heero couldn't think. His mind was full of rage and total fear. He couldn't move or even make a sound. But the sheer tension in the air he was putting off woke up Relena. He felt guilty about that, and that brought him back to conscious thought. He looked at her, she had slept next to him in her underwear, whom anyone would have said was indecent of her. He had stayed in his jeans and forest green tank top. But he still felt a little embarrassed about it. She was beautiful. He just watched her. She put on a bathrobe and came over to him. She read his eyes and knew something was very wrong now. Then she noticed the envelope and letter in his hand. She tried to take it from him, but he pulled it back.
"That paper has you scared. You are never scared. You could only be scared for me. I deserve to know what danger I am in." She had put her diplomatic face on. He hesitated for a second. When he handed her the letter, he went to the door, and walked out very fast, so fast that she had barely raised it to reading level when he was back in the room and closing the door. But he hadn't done anything above a walk. He came back in, picked up the phone and started talking to the front desk in a rough and fast voice.
Relena read the letter, and was in total shock. She barely noticed as Heero picked up her "essentials" bag with ease which took effort for most grown men to lift onto a cart, slung it over his shoulder, and lead her out into the lobby. Heero had arranged for a charter shuttle to take them back to her home. He checked Relena out, claiming to be her body guard, which he was, just not officially…yet. He drove her fast to the shuttle, got out, leaving the car on the runway and took her quickly into the shuttle and then took off barely waiting for clearance. He was scared.
Heero contacted Lady Une while in route to Brussels. The fact that Heero could contact her didn't surprise the head of the Preventers, nor that he could hack the secure line of her office. The surprise was that he did call, and the information he gave her when he did. Immediately Lady Une took action. She sent 4 Preventr escort cars to the destination Heero would land at and a secure car for Relena and her new body guard. Relena didn't fully recover from until after Heero had contacted Lady Une. "Where is Shaffer?" Relena was a little concerned for her body guard. He wasn't on the plane nor could she remember him with them on the drive to the airport.
"He's dead; his throat was slit in his sleep." Something Heero knew was very possible to have happened to both of them that same night. Relena was shocked; she began to cry. She hadn't caused the death of another before, or been the reason of a death of a person she knew. Heero was almost glad she was too grieved to do more than cry. He needed to think, and fast. Who ever this person was, they were good. He couldn't afford the risks he took with Relena any more. He had not been on guard all the time.
He got off the shuttle and practically carried Relena to the car. A body guard got out and closed the door of a black sedan that looked like it had armor plating and bullet proof windows. The driver opend his own door and got in, closed it and…
Relena couldn't remember much. She remembered a deafening bang, scorching heat, and Heero holding her, running for an ambulance. Then lights passing by, doctors putting her into sedation. Now however she was fully awake, in a hospital room. She saw Lady Une sitting in a seat next to her bed. "Where is Heero?"
Lady Une looked up, a sad look on her face. Relena's mind screamed, No, No No. This couldn't be happening, he wasn't dead. He couldn't be.
This is not the end of the story. Just trying to end the chapter in a place hat is best for the story. This won't be a long story, it will probably only end up being 6-7 chapters at max. So don't look for 30 chapters in the future.
