A/N: As always, this is slash and spoilerific. For those who live in the US and haven't seen these episodes, yet read this anyways, Spinner and Jay do NOT have a relationship on the show. Not yet at least. This is just the same imagined relationship as the ones I had between Spinner and Marco in Cake and Bad Habit, and between Ellie and Paige in Pretty Girl (which, by the way, I won't be writing any more to. I hate it with a burning fiery passion). I made up all the Spinner/Jay stuff. The only bits that are true are the things about them getting expelled and Spinner going back for summer school.

"You ever think how weird it should have been?" Spinner asks. He leans back on the hood of Jay's car and glances over.

"How weird what should have been?" Jay asks.

"Figuring it all out. The whole gay-straight-bi thing. The sex," Spinner says."Figuring it all out was never the problem. What's that thing you mentioned earlier? The scientific thing, about not seeing stuff happen, but knowing it happened?" Jay asks.

"Indirect evidence," Spinner says. Jays nods.

"That. We didn't need to sit down and say 'Okay, I looks as though I like guys. What a situation'," he says. He kicks the asphalt, then takes another drag off the cigarette in his hand.

"I don't, though," Spinner replies. He feels Jay look sideways at him.

"Don't what?" he asks.

"I don't like guys. I like you. There's a difference," Spinner says. Jay turns to him, squinting at him like he's just made up another language.

"What, you're Jaysexual?" he says. Spinner shrugs.

"You're the only guy I've ever wanted. Other than you, there's never been anyone else. No other dude, at least. I'm straight, but you're the exception," he says.

"I'm honored," Jay says without feeling, crushing the cigarette under the sole of his shoe. They both sit back on the hood of the car, silent.

"I went through a Sean phase for a while," Jay says suddenly. Spinner glances at him.

"What do you mean?" he asks.

"You know what I mean."

"Sean Cameron?"

A brief nod, barely visible in the dark, following by a short pause.

"Did you two ever do it?" Spinner asks finally. Jay snorts.

"No. I got him drunk once and tried to kiss him," he says.

"What happened" Spinner asks. Jay shrugs. It's all he offers, and Spinner knows not to push the subject. He knows not to, but he has to ask.

"So you miss him?"

Jay shrugs again and reaches over to pull the pack of cigarettes out of Spinner's back pocket. He lights up, then stares at the ground contemplatively.

"I miss a lot of things. Sure, I miss him, he was my best friend. I miss Alex. Fuck, I miss school sometimes," he says. He finally looks back at Spinner. "I miss you."

"I'm right h" Spinner starts, but Jay laughs and shakes his head.

"No, you're not, so don't say it. Don't say you're right here. You haven't been here, not since you told me you didn't want me anymore. You're just pity-fucking, and it's really starting to piss me off," he says.

"I'm not pity-fucking, Jay," Spinner says angrily. "You've been my only friend for two months, and you were the only one who didn't hate me after what happened with Jimmy!"

"Because I was involved! I couldn't hate you for it unless I hated myself for it!" Jay burst out. Spinner stares at the ground for a few minutes, quiet. He doesn't want to fight with Jay, especially not about this.

"I know you think I'm abandoning you, and that I'll just go back to all my old friends. But I won't. I never meant to do that. I care about you, you know? You were all I had," he says. Jay doesn't respond, and Spinner can tell he's trying not to stay mad.

"Fine," Jay says stonily. Spinner moves so that they're chest to chest, and he tangles his fingers in Jay's hair, pulling him forward and kissing him hard on the lips. Jay straightens up to pull Spinner in closer, and he kisses him so hard it almost hurts. Spinner takes Jay's lower lip between his teeth, something he'd never have known people do during kissing if not for Jay.

"I love you," Jay whispers. The words are out for one second before he yanks back, stunned. Spinner stares back. There have been many times when he's been unsure of what to say with Jay, but this definitely tops everything else that has ever happened in the entire history of the universe. He has absolutely no idea what to say in response, and his mind is completely, buzzingly blank. He has to say it back, there's nothing else he can say in that situation.

"I lo"

"I mean… I didn't mean it. I was just… the kissing. That's it. It was just the kissing, and I didn't mean it, and I-I have to go now," Jay says. His composure, along with his sanity, has completely disappeared. He yanks open the door to his car and climbs in, twisting the key in the ignition. Spinner gets off the hood and tries to meet Jay's eyes through the windshield. Jay is staring at the steering wheel, looking shell-shocked, and it amazes Spinner that he doesn't hit anything as he peels out of the driveway.