Authors Note: this chapter is why I ended up naming the story Music When The Lights Go Out. I've actually re-written part of it very recently (to make it less confusing, pretentious and generally embarrassing), so if bits seem a bit disjointed, that's probably why. But it might be a nice idea to put it on now if you've got it to hand…

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Music When The Lights Go Out
Chapter Nineteen (Something about searching)

-Music when the lights go out. Love goes cold in the shades of doubt, the strange face in my mind is all too clear. Music when the lights come on. The girl I thought I knew has gone, and with her my heart it disappeared…-The Libertines

After he had been so suddenly ditched by Rogue, Remy had gone back to his office, but his mind was now so pre-occupied he couldn't do anything more productive than just sit in his chair, staring at the wall, replaying what had happened over and over again in his head.

He knew he had put a lot on the line by saying to her what he had, maybe it was a risk he shouldn't have taken but maybe it was necessary, otherwise how were they ever going to get anywhere? At least now she knew exactly how he felt, he just needed to be patient and wait for her answer. That was if the waiting didn't kill him first.

There was a quiet knock and Ororo put her head around the door, checking to see he wasn't busy before she let herself in.

"Are you alright? You've just been sitting in here for a very long time now…" she asked, concerned.

"Yeah," he let out a deep breath, releasing all the tension that had built up in his muscles. "Just a lil girl trouble."

"Oh…" Ororo was interested now. She shut the door behind her and made herself comfortable in the chair on the other side of the desk. "This would be with this Rogue girl you've been so madly in love with for all these months…"

"Yep, dats de one."

"From the way you talk about her I thought she could do no wrong…what happened?"

"I might o' said dat I wanna get married…"

"And…"

"She still hasn't given me an answer." Remy ran his hands down his face and leaned back heavily in his chair. All of this was driving him crazy, it was a bit like the start of their relationship all over again.

"Oh dear." Ororo commented, bluntly. "Well if you both want different things, at least you know sooner rather than later."

"Non, I don't wanna lose her."

Ororo had never met Rogue, she had seen her but they had never had never had a proper conversation. Although she had put up with Remy's reckless habits regarding woman in the past, him sitting here moping for hours about this was not something she thought was a good idea. More than anything, it was bad for business.

"Remy, I know this sounds harsh, but maybe you need to find someone who does want what you do."

"But dey wont be her…" he slumped down on his desk, burying his head in his arms. He knew he was right. He would never find anyone quite like her again, with all her little quirks and idiosyncrasies that just made her, her. Just the way her lips were like velvet and her kisses were as sweet as honey, and the way she felt when he held her in his arms that made him convinced she had been created just for him.

"Remy you're my friend and I want you to be happy, but don't just keep chasing Rogue if its never going to happen."

"Well I gotta try, don't wanna give up yet. Y' know what I'm like, ever de optimist." Remy picked himself up out of his chair and headed for the door.

"And this might well be the one that finishes him off…" Ororo muttered under her breath as the door shut behind Remy, leaving her in the office by herself…

o-o-o-o-o-

Remy felt all edgy and jittery now, like he had just drunk gallons of really strong coffee. He needed to find Rogue, and the sooner the better. Quickly he pulled his cell phone out of his pocket, dialling her number like a pro…but there was no answer.

Perplexed, he tried the gallery, but there was no answer there either. He even tried her apartment, but there was still no reply, it was like Rogue had just vanished. At a loss, he decided to go home and see if she had gone to his place instead, or at least he could think about what he could do there.

As soon as he got to his front door he knew something was wrong. For a start, it wasn't double-locked like he had left it this morning…his heart leapt, that meant she must have been here, maybe she was still here now!

Quickly he threw open the door, hoping he would find her sitting on the sofa, watching TV and waiting for him to come back so they could talk about earlier. But the room was still an empty, Rogue had been and gone and now a crestfallen Remy stood in the doorway.

It looked like she had left something for him on the coffee table though. Frowning, he went over to see what it was. It was his spare key, well, Rogue's key… Remy picked it up, now he didn't know what to think but right now, this had to be one of the worst signs he could have gotten. Folded over next to where the key had been, there was a little slip of paper, a note she had left for him. Eagerly he unfolded it, hoping it would shed some light on the situation.

Remy,

I'm so sorry. I just couldn't stay any longer. Please forgive me.

Rogue.

She had left him.

Distraught, he crumpled up the paper and dejectedly fell onto the sofa, bitterly sobbing for the loss of the only good thing that had ever happened to him. He had been so hopeful that things would work out only an hour beforehand, and now everything was gone. Trying to pull himself together, he resolved he would find her, win her back whatever it took, he couldn't admit defeat, he just wouldn't let himself.

He knew he should be getting out there and trying to find her but he needed a moment to himself. He had had his heart broken before, by Belle, but it hadn't hurt this badly. Rogue didn't want to marry him; she didn't feel the same way about him as he did about her. Maybe she didn't love him at all anymore. If that were true he didn't think his heart could take it.

That was it; he couldn't stand this any longer. He needed to find her, he needed to find her now and he knew of only one person who might know where she was…

"Kitty!" Remy yelled up at the closed window of a high up apartment. Remy hoped he had got the right place, he had only been here once before…Finally, one of the windows in the row was pulled open and a familiar pony-tailed brunette stuck her head out and looked down to the sidewalk below.

"Would you please stop yelling?" she hissed. "My neighbours are gonna get like, totally mad at me!"

"Sorry! Jus' please, I need t' find Rogue, is she wit' y'?" he pleaded.

"No, I saw her earlier, but she like, left."

"Where? Please, y' gotta help me."

"I'm sorry to say this Remy, but I don't think she wants to be found…" Kitty tried to break it gently, but it was hard.

"Whatever's wrong, we can work it out, but not unless I can talk t' her. Please Kitty, I'm beggin' y'."

Kitty looked at him pityingly. When Rogue had turned up earlier, she hadn't fully understood the explanation she had given for leaving Remy. Other than Rogue's complete fear of any commitment other than what she had now, Kitty could see one either. Now she found herself stuck in the middle and she wasn't sure what to do.

"The thing is Remy," she said finally, "I don't think Rogue's planning to be back for a while, she left all her keys with me and asked me to collect her mail for her…"

Remy was starting to get worried, that all sounded quite ominous and knowing Rogue, she could have well gone and done something crazy.

"Please Kitty!" he actually got down on his knees on the pavement and clasped his hands together, the last actions of a desperate man. Sighing deeply and feeling sorry for him, Kitty finally gave in.

"Fine! But I don't think your like, gonna be able to get to her. She's gone to London."


And so that is how I managed to base a whole story around about half a line from a song. It was about a million billion times worse before the re-write, believe me.

Anyway, the next chapter is the last one so please please please Review!