Chapter 9- Say you'll be there
Sean's P.O.V.
I spent the whole night thinking about Ellie. Her and me a couple isn't that crazy. I have barley said two words to her before the party maybe it was fate? Look at me talking about fate and stuff this is so not me. I have to see her now. I kept looking at my clock I was dieing for it to be morning so I could see her.
I finally got to go to her house and I think she was happy to see me to. "Hey you." I said greeting her with a smile and her face light up.
"Hey" she pushed me up against the wall kissing me. "What are you doing here?" Then she totally ruined the moment but that's okay it probably had to do with the shrew she called her mom.
"Couldn't stop thinking about you all night I had to see you, I missed you." I said pouting she was punched my arm and then took my hand.
"Let's go up to my room more private." I walked passed her living to see her dead beat mom curled up in a ball and vodka containers ever where. If it was my house I wouldn't be phased by it my parents were such losers it's like I didn't care. With Ellie I cared I felt for her it was so upsetting knowing that kids don't just get to leave home sometimes they have to live in hell.
"I know what you are going through." I sat down on her bed and motioned for her to come sit next to me but she just stood there in horror that I would mention that.
"You don't know about anything and could we not talk about this." She starting playing with her hair and went to the mirror to fix it.
"My parents are alcoholics so bad I cant even live with them, so I live with Tracker my brother." "I know a lot more then you think." It took her by shock that I had said that I could tell she felt bad but wanted to drop it.
"Yeah well anyway do you want to see if Ashley and Craig want to double date tonight or just me and you can go out." Ellie was so good at keeping everything bottled up and shutting people out it was sad.
"Come on El you can talk to me about it I understand." "You should talk to someone." No one deserves to go through hell like I did I would love to be there for her.
"I talk to suave isn't that enough?" It would be enough for a normal person but for my girlfriend I wanted to be the one she opened up to.
"I guess but why don't talk to someone who understands and doesn't get paid to tell you how things are going to be." Suave is someone who kids talk to even I managed to get myself in there once and it was like she was telling me things were going to okay but she doesn't know that.
"I want to show you something." She said kissing me and then grabbing my jacket.
We started walking we didn't say anything we just held hands it as starting to get cold out but I didn't mind.
We were at the grave yard and stopped at a tomb stone that read "Here Lies Jake Nash, loving father, husband and solider he will be missed by all." It was Ellie's dad he was dead.
"I loved him so much; he was the one pulling me through each day." She knelt down and put her hand on the stone.
"It must be hard loosing someone close to you." I could see her eyes fill with tears I put my arm around her.
"I blame myself I should have told him about mom's drinking he could have come home, I could have saved him." She hugged me and started to really cry. I couldn't believe she was blaming herself for this.
"It's not your fault you know that don't blame yourself." I read some where that most kids when a family members die feel some kind of blame.
"Its one month today that he died and my mom doesn't acknowledge what's going wrong, damn I miss him so much." Her eye liner started running do I took my finger and wiped her eyes.
"Come on El its cold we can go to my house get away from it all." The grave yard was such a morbid place it was some place I couldn't take any longer or I would have cried and I didn't want to cry in front if her.
Ellie's P.O.V.
"That
was my first time to the grave yard since the funeral." I couldn't
believe I had actually gone there I never wanted to have to go and
admit that he was dead but it felt like the right time.
We came up to Sean's apartment building and I was so cold I couldn't wait to get inside.
"Hey Sean." It must have been Sean's brother Tracker. "Who is this?" He said smiling at me.
"This is my girlfriend Ellie." I smiled when he said girlfriend I was his girlfriend haha.
"Hey Ellie I am Tracker do you guys want some Chinese food?" He offered.
"Yeah I am starving." We all sat down to eat. Tracker and Sean spent most of the time talking about school and how he should be working harder and the about how his mom called again. They were arguing for a while and I just kind of tuned them out until my phone rang.
"Hello?" It was my house number and my mom never called my cell so I knew I was in trouble. Sean and Tracker were staring at me they probably heard my mom's screaming I was so embarrassed.
"You know what I have to go, but thanks for the Chinese food." I grabbed my jacket and ran home.
"Do you like doing this, leaving home and not telling me where you are going?" She was so drunk she couldn't stand up straight.
"I sorry I was at-"I was going to say Ashley's but of course mom had to cut me off.
"That boy's house weren't you I don't want you off with people I don't know." God she made me so made I couldn't believe that I actually lived this life.
"Mom you don't have to worry okay I can take care of myself its not like you are much of a mother anyway I proud it only took you a few hours to notice that I was gone." I really wanted to piss her off, but I think this time I really made her made.
"Don't you ever talk like that ever again, I am your mother and you will do as I say." She then picked up a plate and chucked it at my head. I couldn't believe she just did that. I ran upstairs and packed some stuff I wasn't going to stay there with her.
"I hate you so much mom I really do." I slammed the door and my luck it was raining. "Great my fucking luck." I started running but I didn't even know where I should go. So I just ran I don't even know where I was going. I look up and I was in front of Sean's and I guess that I just knew I had to go here.
I knocked on the door and Tracker answered. "Sean I think you better come out here now." Tracker nodded for me to come in.
"Oh my god Ellie what happened?" Sean came up to me. I didn't even want to think about how bad I looked I could feel blood and eyeliner running down my face.
"Its nothing I just pissed her off, I'm fine." I was a terrible liar because they could tell I wasn't okay.
"Come to the bathroom you have blood all over your face." I followed Tracker in to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror I looked worse then I though I did.
"She made you bleed." He said wiping on my face; I didn't respond I didn't know what to say. "Is this the first time?"
"Yes she never got this mad before, maybe it's because it has been one month since my dad died."
"Its no excuse she could have really hurt you." Tracker put some crap on the slice on my forehead it hurt like hell.
"Yeah well it's not like I could heave her she will have no one and up hurting herself." What else was I going to do there is nothing that can help her.
"She needs help from an adult not a teen."
"I'll look in to it but tonight I need a place to stay so she can cool down." I felt like such an orphan begging for a place to stay.
"You can take my bed I will sleep on the floor." Sean offered but I wasn't about to take his bed.
"No Sean you stay on your bed I'll take the floor." I was like an intruder maybe next time I will stay in the park so I don't feel like such a burden.
"No you take the bed trust me; I want you to have it." I thought it was sweet to have someone who cared about me.
