Ellie's P.O.V.
I took one last look at my bleeding head to make sure that it was okay and then followed Sean in to his room. I couldn't belive it we were together for two days and I am already spending the night as his house. He opens his door and I start kissing him we fall back on to his bed. After a good ten minuets he rolls off of me and we just stare at each other and smile.
"So do you want to go out see a movie or something?" He asked, I didnt' want to go out I just wanted to stay with him.
"No we can just stay here and talk." I said.
"What do you want to talk about." He said, but what could we talk about there was so much I wanted to know about him.
"Tell me something you would never tell anyone else." I was turning this in to some cheesy girl talk but still I want to really get to know him.
"OKay, dont freak out but Ashley and Craig don't have as much of a chance as Ash wants to think they have." "Thats because Craig has a girlfriend." My mouth dropped I coulnd't believe he had a girlfriend and Ashley didn't know about it.
" What! oh my god Ashley is going to freak." "How do we not know he has a girlfriend." I was caught so off guard with this one.
"Guys night a month ago Craig told us about Tanya, and made us promise not to tell any of the girls becuase they would tell Ashley and he couldn't do that to her." "So you can't tell anyone." He is asking me to keep a secret from my best friend. How was I going to do this?
"Yeah I promise not to tell her I don't want her to get upset." Craig could be such a loser he made Ashley believe there was still hope for them.
"So what about you, I told you my secret." My secret was so embarassing, its something no one believe unless they heard it from me.
"OKay well sometimes in the morning I look at myself and think about everyone at school and for that one second I care what people think about me." Of course after that I get pissed for thinking that and forget about it.
"You should never care what people think about you, one of your best traits is that you dont give a shit." He started to play with my hair, it made me blush.
"I care what you think about me, all the time." "Ever since the party I have always wondered what you thought of me." I said.
"I think you are a kick ass chick, your beautiful, and even though you will put up a fight to keep people out of your life, I love that you let me in." I was probably as red as a tomato I was blushing, thats right me Ellie Nash blushing.
"So thats all you've got is a secret about Craig?" "Thats not fun." I really wanted something that was more his secret and not his best friends.
"I have another one." "On nights when Tracker and I are having a big fight I come in here and think about my mom." "She some how always wanted to make things work for our family but she couldn't." "I sometimes really miss her." Sean sounded really serious and kind of upset, it was like how i felt with my mom.
"You love her don't you?" I loved my mom I just couldn't stand being around her.
"It weird how I could hate someone so much and how I can never want to see her again as long as I live." "But I still love her."
"I feel the same way about my mom, she is such a drunken loser but at the end of the day I still care about her and I pray that she can make it through this alive." I put my head on his stomach and closed my eyes.
"Ellie how can you be so calm, I mean your mom just made you bleed and its like it doesn't even phase you." Sean said.
"I have to be calm for her, becuase if I am not calm then we would both be a mess and it would make everything so much worse." I remember loosing it once after mom and me had a fight and I was crying so she started crying. She drank so much that night I thought I was going to have to call the hospital. I learned to keep my cool for her.
"Are you scared of your mom?" He asked me, and of course I am scared o f my mom everyone gets scared of there parents.
"Sometimes, she seems to be the only person that can get under my skin and find things to say that will really break me down." "She's my mom everyone is scared of there parents." I hope my mom is okay I just kind of left her alone with no one. "Are you scared of your brother?"
"No he is usually easy on me after all we have been through but I usually try not to be scared of him." Just then he grabbed a pillow and hit me in the head and it was on.
"You want to go, because I have never lost a pillow fight ever." I stood on his bed with a pillow in my hand.
"Until today." The next thing I know we are beating each other with pillows it is so much fun. He woudln't be able to beat me if he tried. He got on top of me and kissed me.
"You are so beautiful he said." I didn't want to start blushing again so I just smiled becuase he had it coming. I slowly reached out for the pillow and hit him with it in the head.
"Whoo! I won" I started jumping on the bed becuase I beat Sean in a pillow fight.
"I want a rematch." He asked being a sore loser but I was tired.
"Tomorrow I am tired." I said laying down on his bed.
"I just go Mean Girls, well Tracker got mean girls he had a thing for Lindsay Lonhan, want to watch it." I couldnt believe he asked me that I wanted to gag.
"You are kidding me right?" I would rather chew my hand off then watch that movie.
"Yeah I am, we can watch The breakfast Club." Finally he was speaking my language.
"Of course." Sean kissed me and then went on to the floor. I watched the first hour of the movie and we were completley silent. Then I was really tired so I rolled over to go to sleep.
"Good nigh Ellie Nash." He said .
I was silent for a few seconds and then said, "Good night Sean Cameron." I felt so safe at his house it made me feel really good.
Sean's P.O.V.
I couldn't fall asleep I kept thinking about how pretty Ellie was and how she was sleeping in my bed. It made me really happy. Just then Ellie started moving and her arm feel on to the side of the bed. Finally the rumors I have heard for a few months now was confirmed. I saw cuts all up Ellie's arm. I was afraid to ask her I didn't know how she would take it. I sat up and touched her arm.
She jumped up. "You scared me." Then she looked at me and then her un-covered arm.
I stood up and she moved over to let me into the bed. "You don't have to say anything I am not going to ask." "You can talk to me about it when you are ready.
She nodded and turned back around to fall asleep. I put my arm around her and she was a little shaken I could tell. I have heard so many story's about her but I never thought they were true. Even when she would be over at Craig's she didn't look like someone who would cut herself. She was always smiling and laughing. She was really good at hiding her pain.
