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Authors Note: You guys really think that my last authors note was scary? It's just a quote I made up in my spare time. Back to the subject if lemons aren't allowed on this site please tell me, I don't want to risk getting kicked out. There's so much I haven done yet and I don't want to blow it. And In case your wondering this entire chapter is all flashback. As a matter of fact most of the story is flashback and takes place when Raven and Beast Boy were sixteen. Got it?

Ch.2 Secret Feelings

Beast Boy yawned as he headed down the hallway towards his room. It was ten in the evening and he and the rest of the team had just had a hard day of solving crimes, capturing thieves, and of course beating the crap out of super villains! And as if that wasn't enough Robin had them train for five hours straight, without any breaks or anything. So as you can guess he was dead tired and very disoriented. After tripping over his own feet a couple of times he finally reached his quarters. The door slid open and he was about to enter when he saw something at the corner of his eye. Turning his head he saw Raven walking down the hallway towards her room which was not too far down from his. Although he couldn't see her face he knew she was angry, her hands were balled into fists, her eyes were narrowed and the pupils were small, and she was muttering rather colorful language.

Half of him wanted to step into his room and not say a word to her. For he knew what Raven was capable of when she was angry. And it wasn't pretty. But part of him wanted to see what was going on. Shutting his eyes he groaned and stepped in her way, Raven stopped suddenly and stood scowling at him.

"What are the consequences for what I just done?" Beast Boy thought to himself when he opened his eyes and stared at her. "Oh yeah! She's definitely upset."

"What do you want Beast Boy I'm busy!" Raven growled suddenly.

Beast Boy studied her for a few moments and then spoke in a gentle voice, "what's going on Rae? You've been acting like this for months now. Is there something you want to talk about? You know I'm always here for…

Before he could finish Raven cut him off, "It's none of your business Gar! Now step aside!" and she tried to walk past him.

Once again he stepped in her way and stared down at her, no with anger or contempt but with worry.

"Raven look I'm getting worried about you, you don't talk with us, you don't eat with us, you don't socialize with us whatsoever. What's going on?" He pleaded.

Raven took off her hood, her face was an emotionless mask, "I have my reasons for doing this Beast Boy, can't you just respect that? Can't I just live my life without you or anyone else prying into it?" she shouted.

Beast Boy understanding that she wasn't going to talk to him stepped out of her way, and started for his door. He was about to close the door when he stopped and let out a sign, he turned around slowly and faced Raven once more. His face was filled with grief and hurt.

"You know Raven when you keep yourself isolated your not just hurting yourself, your hurting others as well." He told her wisely before shutting his door.

Raven stood silently for a few seconds and then started walking down the hall. She was surprised at his words of wisdom, and she was even more surprised that he was right.

"If only he knew," She said aloud. "If only he knew the truth."

Beast Boy let out a sign when he came out of the shower and got dressed for bed.

"If only she knew how I felt about her." He said to himself as he put on his grey pajamas.

Unknown to the other titans Beast Boy was secretly in love with Raven. He loved everything about her she was his greatest envision of beauty, her flawless grey skin, her silky violet hair, her deep supple lips, her perfect sculpt, her gorgeous face, that beautiful red gem on her forehead. He loved how her personality, her knowledge of the supernatural. But most importantly he loved her of her beautiful soul, he loved it when she let herself go and showed him not the moody goth Raven he usually has to come into contact with but the caring and loving person she was on the inside. He longed to tell her how he really felt but alas there was one obstacle that stood in his way, Raven couldn't express her emotions without blowing something up or hurting others.

"And how do I know if she feels the same way about me?" he asked himself. "Why would she fall for a screw up like me, I just annoy her. I don't mean to I'm just trying to get her to smile but she always takes it the wrong way."

He threw himself on his bed and signed. "And how do I know that this just isn't puppy love?"

But he knew very well that it was anything but puppy love. He wanted to be by her side all the time. He wanted to make her happy, this wasn't puppy love this was the real thing! He was truly in love with Raven, and true love lasts forever.

Beast Boy signed when he began remembering the events of the last few months. Raven out of nowhere started to keep herself isolated from the rest of the team, she wouldn't talk to anyone, she wouldn't even eat with anyone she would eat in her room. And whenever someone tried to talk to her she would just tell them to leave her alone. Beast Boy approached her a couple times and it always ended the same. She would call him stupid, and to fuck off or something as bad as that. It hurt him more than she thought.

"Maybe it's just a phase she's going through, maybe it'll pass over eventually." He said aloud as he drifted off to sleep.

Little did Beast Boy know that this was no phase. What Raven was going through threatened to destroy her and the ones she loved.