This is Beast Boy's alternative to suicide in the first chapter. "Adam's Song" by Blink 182. It...Still doesn't end well. Just to let you know, it's rather gory. Really. We're talking organ loss. And eye loss. I hope my psychiatrist doesn't see this. Or the school phsycologist. Or the school counsler...That wouldn't be good...I scared my parents with my first chapter. Had to reasure them that it didn't reflect me.
/I never thought I'd die aloneI laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all/
Guess I am the dumb one, huh? I ran off just to get myself killed. Well, better than my other idea. I'd still end up the same. Spilling blood. I wonder how much I've lost. Five, six pounds? Wait, you don't use pounds for that stuff, do you? That shows how much I know.
I try to remember when I decided I'd run away. Oh yeah. 6:39 pm. I was cooking dinner. I was staring at a knife. I don't want to go out like that, I thought, Instead, I decided I'd go get myself killed by Sladebots. Actually, I was just going to run away. The Sladebots just sorta popped out of nowhere and thought it would be fun to see my insides. Slade has always had a sick sense of humor.
/I took my time, I hurried upThe choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone/
I met up with them when I was in the same cannyon we met Terra in. Slade really knows how to mess with a kid's head. He would be a horrible counsler. His robots mutalated me. I'm covered in blood. I wonder if I even have all my fingers. I've got a huge gash in my stomach. I'm even missing an eye. My right eyeIsn't that the same one Slade's missing? I'm really not pretty to look at right now.
/I never conquered, rarely came16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside/
I finally get to the bay. My goal is to reach the tower. I tranform into a hawk and very slowly fly to the island. A few times I nearly fall in the water, but I make it to the tower.
I open the giant doors and walk inside. The entry way. The biggest room in the tower. Blood drops on the floor with ever step.
/The world was wide, too late to tryThe tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone/
I trip over my own feet and land face down on the floor. Great. Now my nose is bleeding, too. Is there any part of my that isn't? Doesn't feel like it. My eye socket, my gut, my arms, my legs, my chest, my nose, my hands. I'm very attractive right now. I reach my hand out and clutch the floor and drag myself further.
/I never thought I'd die aloneAnother six months, I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again/
This won't be a big loss for the city. No one even knew me. I'd be walking down the street and all I'd hear from people was "Why's that guy green?" and "I've never seen that guy before". No big loss. The only ones affected by my death would be the Titans. Only four people. And they'll probably forget me after about a month like they did Terra. They'll probably even forget to clear out my room. Again, like they did with Terra.
/You'll close it off, board it upRemember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault/
Maybe they'll just board it up do they won't have to think about it. I wish they did that to Terra's room. So it wouldn't have hurt so much every time I walked by. It was on the way to my room. Talk about torture.
Whatever happens, I hope they don't blame themselves...I don't think they will.
/I never conquered, rarely came16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside/
I wonder, when was the last time I was really happy? With Terra? Or was it way back when my parents were still around? I've got no clue. Whenever it was, it was a long time ago. I wonder if anyone noticed that I wasn't really happy? I guess I'm just a good actor.
I roll over on my back. I wonder if I've lost anything important. Like a kidney, or my liver. Or my intestines. No more eating for me. Oh well, looks like I'm gonna die anyway. Wow. That's depressing.
/The world was wide, too late to tryThe tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone/
I don't know how to feel about this. I don't think I want to die. Weird. I know there will be a lot I'll miss out on. I really want to beat the crap out of Slade. Possibly more than Robin does. But still not like Robin. He's creepy obsessed. Well, he got better after going to...to...ASIA! That's it! Blood loss is getting to me. Not enough in my head.
Point is, I also hate Slade's guts. And not because of this. Star was miserable when Robin was with Slade. Like I was when Terra was with him. I didn't show it. Star didn't bother hiding it.
Another reason I hate him. Raven. She was really freaked after he popped up on her birthday. Robin found her half naked...What is it with this dude and kids? Seriously? It's freakin' creapy! I don't even want to know what happened with him and Terra. At the park he said some creepy stuff.
/I never conquered, rarely cameTomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside/
Where are they? Are they home? Or are they out looking for me? Funny. This could be the most thinking I've done in one day. Yay me. Do I get a gold medal? Seriously. Where are they?
"This is hopeless!" I hear a faint, angry voice. Then there's the sound of a fist punching right through a wall. It's Cyborg.
"We can keep searching tommarow." Robin's voice. Probablt followed by the punching of his own hand. He always does that.
"I would sell myself to the Klokits if our friend could only be returned safely!" Star. Would she really do that?
"He isn't safe! We found his eye!" Raven shouts. Maybe they can put it back in. I hear foot steps then a soft "No".
/The world is wide, the time goes byThe tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone/
They're too late. Oh well.
I'M NOT A BEAST BOY HATER! He's tied for second with Raven and Terra. I just had to put the "Slade's a pedophile" jokes in it! They're classic! Well, this didn't end like I wanted it to. But there you have it. Yet another Beast Boy death. R&R. I STILL accept flames.
