Momento Viscus Mori- Remember that your heart will die

I love him. I think I have since the first moment I met him. 1st year, on the train to Hogwarts. My father requested that I make friends with the boy with the funny scar on his head. It didn't go over too well. I ended up insulting the only friend he had, and in turn, I made my love hate me. I know, you think that I couldn't love because I was 11, but it wasn't a sexual love, it was a spiritual, pure love. At the time, I thought it was weird, but now, I am so thankful for that day. Merlin, how I love him. I'm a 4th year now. Yes, still young by all but medieval standards, but I know that my love for him is true, and I also know the underlying truth. It's unrequited. That has got to be the most painful blow to my existence. I see him every day, I laugh at him everyday, but I have to pretend that I feel nothing more than an intense hatred for the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. In 3rd year he went out with his best friend's sister. That hurt. The sad thing was that I wasn't even mad at him, I was mad her, I was mad at myself for even entertaining the notion of him being gay. So, to dull the pain, I got a girlfriend. She disgusted me, with her perfume and sticky glossed lips. I think I'm going crazy, I sit and caress the bruises I get from our almost-daily brawls, savoring the last of his touches. I would love to imagine that he hit me just to touch me, but I suppose that's my excuse. I want to tell him how I truly feel, and how much our fighting hurts me, but, since he is so comfortable in his naiveté, I won't dare hurt him by making him face the reality of his actions. So, for almost 4 years, I have sat in the shadows, unable to like another because my heart is utterly and truly devoted to this one person. I know that I have to move on, but I honestly don't want to. I, Draco Mori Malfoy, give my heart, my soul, my all to Harry James Potter, for now and forever.

Momento viscus mori,

The Lonely Watcher

Yes, rather short, I know. Rather rambling, I know. But it's written in the form that I want it to be. The next chapters will be actual events.