Dear Diary

Author: Sparkling-Diva

Rating: PG-13

Genre: Drama

Feedback: Yes, please! Also being nice would make me happy.

Disclaimer: I do not own Judging Amy and I am no way affiliated with it.

Summary: Crystal Turner has some thoughts about Vincent. It takes place before the episode "Hard to Get".

Author's Note: Okay, so I am not a very big fan of Crystal's but something came over me and I wrote this anyway. Enjoy

Dear Diary,

Here I am sitting in my apartment. At the AA meeting they sad that I should keep writing in here to cope with the pain and anything else that I might feel. I'm proud to say that I am and have been sober for nearly a whole month which is a good thing considering everything I've been through all of this time.

One month ago, I was here hanging around and feeling guilty about a shooting I had witnessed. I still feel responsible, I could have helped. I did try. I failed. Either way, that night is when I got drunk again.

I don't remember all of the details but all I can remember is Vincent, the guy who works with me at Teen Harbor coming to see me. You see, what I've always found funny is how he seems to show up at the worst possible moments and wants to help.

Help? Can you imagine it? We hardly know each other except for when we talk while we are at work and now he wants to help. He started talking to me but I don't remember much other than me kissing him sometime later and how he pulled away. I felt a little angry and I guess I must have said something because shortly after he took off and closed the door. I feel so much guiltier now since we hardly are speaking to each other. We had a good sort of beginner friendship and now it's been smashed to pieces. At least, I think it has. He just went through a separation with his wife. I don't even know if they've already filed for a divorce or whether they already did. He keeps all of that stuff so secretive.

Vincent is an overly sweet guy. Probably the nicest one I've ever met and ever will meet. He's also cute. I can't help it, can I? I mean being this attracted to him. I have no clue what to do.

I have an AA celebration tomorrow. I'm going to be awarded for my soberness of a month in two days and I need a supporter to come with me. I have no one other than him.

Should I invite him?

There's only one way to find out. I'll use all the guts I have tomorrow and confront him about what happened to us and if he wants to come with me.

Maybe there is hope between us…