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Chapter 3 : Death is but the begining
Even though his father was dead, he still felt the hatred he had towards him. Ever since his mom died, he had always hated his father. He felt alone and abandoned. He only wanted to cry and scream 24/7. He started crying not because of his loss but because he remembered the kiss. That one kiss Matt, his best friend, gave him. That one kiss that made his heart beat harder than it ever had and made him feel that one thing he never really felt: love…
Tai was woken up by soft knocking on his door. He didn't want to get up and answer so he just growled at the door. The knocking continued and Tai threw his pillow at the door but then frowned as he realized that he had gotten rid of the only support he had. He then got up and opened the door. Kari had sat down by it not really wanting to disturb her brother.
''I don't want to go to the funeral. Even if he was my father, I don't want to go'' Those were the first words to come out of her mouth ever since they got back from the hospital.
''I'm not going either. I hate him too much to just go.''
That was all they said and they fell asleep in each other's arms.
Matt was still shaken by what he had done to Tai. He felt really bad but didn't regret it one bit. He stared at the clock weary at the fact that he had to wait so long for Tai… It was now 3 in the morning and Matt really wanted to talk to him but he knew he had to wait 'till later. He hated waiting. Just like when his father was being checked for cancer. He hated waiting for the results. He fell asleep at 3 :15 A.m.
He woke up and it was past noon. He tapped himself on the head as he knew that he could never reach Tai at home and besides he knew that Tai wouldn't want to talk to him. He was so angry at himself… why couldn't he have waited to express his feelings for Tai. He then realized that Tai always had his phone on him and never checked who was calling. So he jumped to the phone and he dialed Tai's number.
Tai's phone rang and as usual Tai answered without looking who it was.
''Hello?'' He said.
Matt hesitated before saying anything but then decided to talk and try to clear out what happened.
''Taichi… It's me.'' Just as Tai was about to hang up, Matt jumped in. ''Don't hang up I have to talk to you!''Matt almost screamed saying this.
''Yamato. I'm sorry but… I can't do this. I can't do this to you. I truly am sorry''The dial tone then replaced the brunette's sweet sweet voice.
Matt thought to himself. Sorry? SORRY? What could he possibly be sorry for. He didn't do anything! I did.. He felt so bad having heard those words come out of Tai's mouth and hang up. He then saw Tk trying to sneak Davis out of the house.
''TK DAMMIT!! I TOLD YOU I DIDN'T CARE BUT IS HE GOING TO FUCKING SLEEP HERE EVERYDAY.'' Matt was mad at himself more than his brother but he just burst.
''I'm sorry Matt. But he ummm…didn't have anywhere to go… Yeah! That's it!''
''It's ok Teeks. I'll leave.'' The two kissed and Davis left.
Matt glared at his younger sibling and stormed out of the room. Tk looking at him sadly. Matt was still thinking about what Tai had said to him.Tai seemed more sad than mad and that puzzled Matt. There was a soft knocking at the door and Tk answered. They had an unexpected visitor.
''Oh Yamato!''Kari said in tears as she fell into his arms. ''. He was drunk and he drove in the opposite direction on the highway. THAT IDIOT!'' Kari regretted not having been able to tell her father she loved him and now he was dead.
"Who? What happened?" Said Yamato, worried she was talking about Tai but then remembered he had "talked" to him just a few minutes ago.
"My dad, that idiot of a father..." and she trailed off.
''I'm so sorry Kari. But I think I'm not the one you should tell this to... I need to talk to Tai. Where is he?'' Matt said in the calmest voice possible trying to recomfort her.
''He's at home. Oh!…And Matt… Tell him you love him. He needs to hear it from someone other than me. You know… He loves you too but he just doesn't realize it yet. If you could just talk to him…''
Matt hugged Kari tightly and left Tk to take care of her. He grabbed his coat, put on his shoes and walked out. He ran to Tai's house hoping he hadn't left. Running seemed to be taking forever until he finally got there. He saw Tai trying to lock the apartment door.
''Tai!''screamed Matt, wanting to get his attention. Tai turned and saw Matt. He did and didn't want to see or talk to him but he opened the door and waited for Matt to come in.
''I have to tell you something Tai. But you have to promise not to kick me out or storm out like you did last time.'' Matt saw tears start to flow from Tai's eyes and felt his best friend fall into his arms. They were now on the ground. Tai's head on Matt's shoulder.
''Matt… You know when I dumped Sora 'bout two weeks ago? Well I did it for you''
''Tai you didn't have to say that.'' Matt felt stupid having come here to tell Tai what he felt and ended up hearing what Tai had to say.
''Taichi… I uh… I…'' he never got the chance to say it when Tai pressed his lips against Matt's interrupting him.
''You don't have to say it... I know...''
Their tongues danced together for the first time. Matt had finally gotten his first kiss and it was from the one person he loved. Tai looked at Matt straight in the eyes and stopped crying. He started laughing at himself. Matt though he had gone mad, but kissed him again. He felt his heart pumping even harder than the night he had kissed Tai. They put their hands together and Tai smiled.
''Taichi… I love you.'' Matt said, feeling that Tai needed to hear it. Tai smiled and started touching Matt's groin area. Matt jumped in surprise and embarasment.
''For the love of god Tai!'' Matt said angrily''Your father just died and this is what you're thinking about? I don't really think it's appropriate.'' Tai shushed Matt and continued what he was doing.
He then undid Matt's pants and put his hand in. Matt blushed and Tai kissed him all over. Tai then snapped out of it and said :
''You're right. We shouldn't''
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Back at Matt's house, Tk was holding Kari as she cried feeling that he shouldn't be doing this to himself OR her. He had lied to her all this time and she probably thought that he loved her or something. He knew he had to tell her that he loved Daisuke but thought of the reaction she might have. Then again she was mature for her age so maybe she wouldn't react so badly.
''Kari. I have something i need to tell you. The thing is that um…'' Kari interrupted him
''I know you're gay or bi or whatever it doesn't matter.'' She said this crying even harder and shaking. ''So. Do you have a boyfriend?'' She asked wiping the tears away pretending that nothing ever happened.
''I'm with Davis right now'' Tk responded hesitantly.
''Wow that's great. He told me he had his eye on someone a while back. I just didn't know who.''
She then got up and said she had to leave. So she grabbed her stuff and left after kissing Tk on the cheek and saying:
''I'll be alright. I promise.''
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Tai had started to cry again but this time they were tears of joy. Joy of finally having someone to hold him when he felt alone. He had finally heard the words he sought for so long and he could return those words as well. That made him cry of joy. Matt held him close and was passing his hand through the brunette's hair kissing him every so often. Watching TV without a worry in the world. They really had nothing to care about and could relax. Matt interrupted the comfortable silence.
''When is the funeral?''
''He's going to be cremated. I'm not going to the wake though and neither is Kari.''
''Hey. You need to go Chi. Now you could tell him how he made you feel without him starting to beat you or something.''
''I don't have anything to say to him so I won't go!''he raised his voice saying this kinda irritated.
''Ok then. Don't go but please don't regret it after. Ok?'' Matt closed the conversation saying this and continued to watch the TV.
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Tai woke up in Matt's arms and jumped not being used to waking up in someone's arms. He smiled and went to make some breakfast. Tai had a feeling things would get better. Even if he was still 17 Matt would be 18 soon and could take him and Kari under his responsibility. That was the only way to not be sent off to some foster home. Besides he would be 18 soon too so it wasn't like he really needed to worry. He worried more about Kari.
Matt woke up to the smell of burnt food. He ran to the kitchen and saw that Tai had burnt everything he tried to cook, even the toast! He laughed and took his brown haired lover in his arms.
''I'll cook.'' They both smiled and Matt took some food from the fridge and started preparing some bacon and eggs.
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''Maybe we should go out for the weekend or something. We could all have some alone time with our special someone.'' Tai said to the other digidestined. ''We could go stay at a hotel or camping or … ummm. I don't know where else''
''Let's all go to a hotel and get a luxury sweet or something really expensive!''Tai glared at his sister as she said this and added
''We don't have that much money you know!''
''So it's settled! We're all going to a hotel tomorrow. But just for the night.'' Matt interrupted not wanting to let his lover fight with his sister.
''Why pay for something we can get in the digiworld for at least half the price.'' Ken's comment was accurate but not everyone was all for it.
It had been a while since they had last gone to the digiworld or saw their digimon partners. Since the last time they saved the digiworld no one had the guts to return because everyone had a feeling since the event that took place. With Yamato turning to the dark side and Sora being lost in her own darkness. They feared that if they went back, Ken would become evil again, or that anyone would try to take over the worlds or something like that. Everyone stared at Ken making him feel uncomfortable.
''I don't think it's such a good idea. I mean what if we have to start saving them again. We're getting too old for that. Besides I'm busy tomorrow.''Daisuke said to Ken then slightly hitting Tk with his elbow.
He wanted to try and sleep with him yet again. Tk had always refused to sleep with him because he didn't feel right with his brother and all. But Tk had told him to get ready cuz he was and knew they could go to Davis' house to do it. (his parnets and sister were heading to Tokyo for about a week and Daisuke didn't want to go)
''We can party at my place. My folks are gone for the week and I'll be all alone''He said in whiny voice just to irritate everyone.
So it was settled. They were going to stay at Daisuke's place tonight and tomorrow and were going to leave Tk and him alone afterwards. Everybody knew now about their it-was-supposed-to-stay-secret couple. Tk was upset by this inviting everybody to a party thing because he wanted to spend the whole week as quality time with his beloved. Oh well guess it'll have to wait.
Like usual r&r and i would like to thank to my reviewers and merry X-mas and Happy New-Year!
Saitam-
