Disclaimer: I sadly don't own anything Digimon. And I don't own Final Fantasy X either (but it's just an FFX refference in here)

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infinitystar : Thanks for reviewing every chapter I really appreciate. Anyways I started reading New Life right after I finished I love you I'll kill you and I also read Don't go breaking my heart. I really liked them(the ones I finished reading).

Ok! So the title was inspired by Guess what song…. I got the idea while I was listening to Beautiful goodbye by Amanda Marshal on the radio the other day so anyways. The chapter isn't very long but. Oh well! And you know how in the title there is the word diary. Well I bet you didn't care much but I thought that it was stupid to say it in the title and never mention it in the story so Matt might write a diary later on.


Chapter 4 : Beautiful goodbye.

As unusual as it may seem, Matt's parents were home when Matt, Tai and Tk got there. A bad feeling took over Matt knowing that when they were home it meant bad news. Like last time when they found out that their dad might not make it. Or the time before that when they found a tumor in his brain.

''Tai, I think you should go.'' Matt whispered to Tai as he kissed him on the cheek.

When Matt headed for the kitchen, he felt anger and sadness and all sorts of feelings rushing through him as he saw them.

''Yamato we need to talk. Go get your brother.''

''Whatever you want to say I don't want to know. I don't want anything to do with you! I'm happy now. I'm happy when I'm not with you!'' Matt blurted out and turned around to leave but his mom grabbed his arm to stop him.

''I don't care Yamato, we are going to China. All four of us.''

''What? Why?''

''Your father's condition has gotten worse and there is nothing they can do here in Odaiba so we're leaving for Beijing on Monday''

''What!?…But it's Saturday! You can't possibly think that we'll be ready by then. Are you nuts?'' Tk screamed surprised at what he had just heard.

''I'm not going''

''What did you say.''Mrs. Ishida said menacingly towards the words that came out of Matt's mouth.

''I'm not going. You're not doing this for dad! You're doing this to get away from some shit you got yourself into. You know he doesn't stand a chance so why do you even bother''

''Yamato! I swear…''

''Don't interrupt me!'' Matt yelled in anger ironically interrupting his mother. ''I have friends here. I have great memories here. I have my boyf… I have somebody who I love and who loves me. So just fuck off! You're not taking all this away from me!''

For the longest time ever, Mr. Ishida spoke to his son.

''Son… You know that the person you love is a teen love that will only last a few months. A year at most. After that she'll just be one of those memories. And sure! Memories are nice but that's all they are. Is it really worth abandoning your family?''

''I have no family.'' Tears started falling and Matt just left.

He stayed with Daisuke for the night since he lived so close to his own house. Matt was sitting there not doing anything but thinking when the phone rang.

''Matt. It's for you.''

Matt hesitated and grabbed the cordless.

''Hello?''

''Matt… Please… Don't do this. You know you have no choice really. You're still under their care. And I won't have anyone there either. No more than you will anyways. So please.''

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Sunday morning and Matt knew what he wanted to do. He went over to Tai's house thinking on what he would do. They passed the whole day together instead of going to Daisuke's.

That night, Matt made the food and they ate it all without saying a word. It was now 9 o'clock and Matt was confident on what he was going to do.

As Tai came out of the shower, Matt got closer and closer to him until his sweet lips touched the brunette's.

''Taichi… I love you so much. I want to show you.''

''Oh Yama. You don't have to do this just cause I want to.''

''That's not why I'm doing it. I want this.''Matt whispered in Tai's ear and kissed him more.

Tai lead the blond to the master bedroom and on to the bed. They laid there not knowing how to start.

Tai was the first to take action. He jumped up and got on his boyfriend. He started planting kisses wherever there was any skin. The brunette's hands wandered all around the blonde's slightly muscular body. Matt then took off the towel Tai had around his waist. They switched places and now that Matt was on top, he couldn't help but kiss every inch of Tai's tanned skin. He took off his shirt and his pants. Before they knew it they were both completely naked. Just as Matt saw Tai's hardening erection, he started kissing downwards until his mouth was at the tip of Tai's prick.

He gently kissed the tip and then put it whole in his mouth. Tai moaned in pleasure and Matt smiled.He motioned up and down for a while.

''You want me to go in now?''

''Yes Yama. I want you now!''

Matt took the lube they had bought earlier that week and rubbed his dick with it as well as Tai's fine ass.

Tai felt him go inside him as they kissed and he screamed for more. Matt was holding Tai's legs going in and out as Tai screamed in pleasure. The action got faster and faster until Matt came and collapsed on Tai's chest kissing and savoring the moment.

''Now it's my turn.''

After the necessary preparations, the love making took place once more. Tai did the same in and out movement that Matt had done to him. After Tai climaxed, he came out of Yamato and started kissing him under the navel. Matt pulled him up to his face and gave him the best kiss he'd ever had.

''Taichi. I love you so much.''

''I love you too Yama.''

As Tai fell asleep, Matt said his goodbyes and kissed him softly. A single tear fell from Matt's eyes. Once the brunette was asleep, Matt headed to the kitchen, grabbed a post-it and wrote.

'I'm sorry Taichi. I love you but looks like fate doesn't want us to be together. I'm leaving Tai. But I'll never forget you. You were and always will be my one true love.'

Right after Matt wrote those words, he got dressed, kissed Tai one last time and left. When he got home, he got his bags ready to go and he went to sleep crying.


Ok so I know the chapter was short but more will come. Don't worry. Please review and umm I guess that's all.

I won't be updating for a while cuz my computer is gonna get reprogramed or something. I'm not sure but I won't be able to use it for a while. So that's all. Don't forget to review on your way out.