What happens when the person you loved the most cheated on you and your best friend who knew about it lied straight to your face. Some might break down and cry, some might blame God but not me. I was too numb, too tired, too broken. When I married Nathan I really thought we'd survive anything together, but not this. This was too painful for me, so I had to leave. I had to leave everything….and everyone. Everything I hold dear and everyone I loved. There were only two people who knew that I was leaving, Peyton and Karen.
Peyton understood and tried to console me. She even bought my ticket to New York for me, sort of a parting gift she said.
Karen just cried. It broke my heart to see her in pain, but I had to leave. So with a heavy heart, I kissed her on the cheeks and said goodbye.
Walking out of the café, I saw Nathan and Luke together. Wow what a great improvement, the two brothers actually talking to each other.
They were shocked to see me; Luke ran to me and started mumbling his apologies. He said Nathan asked him to keep the secret, so he did! What a great and reliable friend, Luke is, I thought. Not to me apparently, but to my lying and cheating husband.
Luke knew that I wasn't listening because he could see that my eyes were blank. Honestly, I couldn't care less if a truck passed by and hit Luke.
Too harsh? Nah, he deserves it. I hate him.
I hate them both. I guess blood IS thicker than water.
Lucas eventually gave up and turned to Nathan. Nathan asked me to come with him and I did. I wanted to hear what he had to say, not to forgive him but to laugh at his face.
"Hales, I'm really sorry for this mess"
I was silent, Nathan was really nervous but of course being the cocky bastard that he is he continued
"I was drunk. I didn't know what I was doing"
Ah, the classic and oh so logical reason men use to get away with things. I looked at him unaffected. Inside I was crying, my heart was breaking but I couldn't let that stop me.
"I'm really sorry; I want us to work things out"
This time I laughed a really cold laughter.
"Us? There were never us Nate. All there was me, trying to cover for all your stupid mistakes and always being there when you broke down and fell. Me, who supported you,. Haley your tutor, then your girlfriend, and lastly your wife."
"I know that Hales, and I'm grateful for everything you've done."
"So grateful that you slept with my sister in our own bed?" All my anger was surfacing, this wasn't good. This was not good.
"It was a mistake."
"A mistake? So that's why you did it twice."
"I'm sorry, what more do you want from me?"
"I want nothing from you Nathan. I want nothing from you or from Lucas."
With that I turned my back at him, but then I heard him say
"I love you Hales"
I stopped. I was frozen. My heart was urging me to look back and run to him but at the same time I knew that nothing will ever be the same. I can never truly love him anymore because I lost faith in him. He no longer had my trust. But I know that he'll always have my heart.
So here I am, in New York. Starting anew with a new perspective on life. Here, I'll start to heal and be okay with what happened. Hopefully I'll accomplish every goal I've set even if I'm too broken.
