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Chapter 12

Nathan's POV

It's been three days, and she still hasn't woken up. The doctors said that Haley had a broken left arm; she had bruises everywhere and cuts on her body. But that wasn't what the doctor worried about, it's that damn concussion. They first said that it was just a mild one but apparently it got severe.

Now, well….I'm confused! All I know is that, Haley needs to wake up tonight or even tomorrow. That's the only assurance they can give us. Haley's body needs to recuperate on its own and stop the concussion from growing…spreading…I don't know!

The waiting is killing me…I feel so damned helpless… I don't like this feeling. I'm Nathan Scott, control freak! It's a good thing I have a strong heart or else I might be lying in bed also.

I just want her to wake up. I want to see her smile, laugh, cry even. I just want her awake and alive. I honestly don't know what I'll do if I lose her.

Now here I am, in church. Who would have thought? I'm not much of a believer, but I knew that in order for Haley to wake up I need to believe.

I prayed for over an hour….begging, pleading…..but it didn't seem enough…. I felt like I had to give something….I had to do something for God in return….

"If Haley wakes up and she still doesn't want me…I'll let her go. I'll let her go even if it kills me"

I left the church knowing that I'd have to keep my word…I mean… I did it inside the church and in front of God.

If marrying Chris is what Haley really wants, I'll give her that chance. I know that somehow this accident was partly my fault.

I shouldn't have pushed her to the edge. I knew that cheating on her destroyed her. It destroyed her belief, she couldn't fully trust anyone.

She couldn't trust me and I don't blame her.

I blame myself for everything that has happened. I blame myself for being weak, it's what my Dad always told me and now….well, I realize that it's true.

If I really loved Haley, I wouldn't have cheated on her. if only I was strong enough…. If only I had some sort of power I'd turn back time.

I'd go back to the days when Haley and I started dating. When I first kissed her in front of her house. When I used to tease her and she'll pinch me.

But sadly, I couldn't do all those things.

Maybe….

Maybe in another lifetime the two of us could find each other again.