Chapter 18
Haley's POV
GOD! They can't keep knocking me out every time I get…I get hysterical. Okay…okay maybe they have a good reason. I felt a bit woozy, but I could see Lucas clearly. He was sitting on the chair beside me. He was asleep, so was Peyton who cuddled with Jake on the sofa at his back.
Brooke probably went home to Felix. They all look tired. I rose, I could easily reach Lucas but I wanted to watch him for awhile. His face was streaked by dried tears.
I really thought I could tell him without breaking down…. I guess it still pains me to talk about my little girl. When the doctors performed the removal of the baby inside my womb, I felt lifeless.
I felt like a part of me was dead, and that I couldn't continue living. I was so deep in my thoughts that I barely heard Lucas moving.
"Hey Hales, you're awake"
"That I am, I cant believe they knocked me out again"
"So…how are you?"
"I'm alright"
"Really?"
"Yes."
"Good, um so Hales. I gotta go now."
"Where are you going Luke?"
"Away"
"Why?"
"Because you were right….you were right with everything"
"Everything? I'm not sure about that…I mean I never thought I'd be stupid enough to get run over by a car….but here I am"
I could see he wasn't laughing….he didn't even think it was funny.
Well, I thought it was funny!
"Hales…don't make light of all the things you went through okay?"
"I'm not…." I said defensively "Where are you going? Will you come back?"
"Basketball season starts soon, so I have to go back to LA. I don't really know if I can come back here anymore"
"You're leaving me?"
"I…uh…I don't know Hales. I don't deserve to be in your life"
"Lucas Scott! None of this is your fault. I have the only right to tell who should be in my life or not and I want you in my life." I touched his face then hugged him "I won't lose you again"
He nodded and hugged me tighter. "But I still have to follow Nathan there"
"Nathan's there already?"
"Yup. He left this morning."
"Oh"
I didn't know how to react. Nathan's really gone, he left. My knees went weak, Lucas caught me and gently put me to bed again. He sensed that I was bothered by the fact that Nathan already left.
I thought he'd stick around for awhile until I get well….
OH HALEY JAMES STOP IT! My mind shouted. I chose Chris and I have to live with that for the rest of my life.
There was a knock on my door, it was Chris. I pretended to be happy and motioned for him to come in. Lucas woke up Peyton and Jake and they went out.
"Haley, we need to talk."
I was relieved; at least we can finally work things out.
"Thank you Chris for giving me another chance. I never meant for you to find out about the whole thing from Nathan."
"It's fine now. Peyton explained to me everything."
I smiled, a part of me was happy that Chris and I were gonna be okay.
"But Hales, do you still love Nathan?"
"I…uh..I" Should I tell him the truth? Damn I don't know anymore….
TBC
