Chapter 25

Nathan's POV

"How did you know?" Hales asked weakly. I could already see the emotional turmoil that was happening in her. I didn't want her to remember the pain of the death of our child. I hugged her even tighter and kissed her forehead as I wiped away her tears.

"When we were in New York looking for you, I was getting desperate and I called Karen. She didn't want to tell me…..but somehow I convinced her that I had a right to know everything. She told me where you were but she didn't tell me about our baby. I found out about it at the hospital you were brought to."

Her eyes were filled with so much tears, it was breaking my heart. "You were there at the hospital?"

"I was too late…the nurses told me that someone had taken you away. They didn't want to disclose any information but I managed to get some."

"Our baby….i didn't mean for her to die. I didn't want to but I was under so much stress and I…."

"It's okay….if it's anyone's fault then all the blame should be on me."

"It's no one's fault Nate…."

"Are you sure because…..because everything that happened between us is all my fault" I heard my voice break and I could taste the salty tears falling from my eyes. I felt Haley kiss me on the cheeks murmuring how it was not my fault.

All my insecurities and anger towards myself surfaced. Every painful memory came back to me. I was an asshole, selfish and uncaring. I don't even know what made me think that I deserved to have Haley in my life when I have nothing good to add to hers.

"Nate look at me" she said cupping my face in her delicate hands. They were warm but I was too cold inside to feel it. "I love you and it wasn't your fault. Please don't think that way. You've made mistakes, we both have. That doesn't make us any less human than anyone out there. "

"it's just…aren't you afraid I'm gonna hurt you again Hales?"

"I'm afraid Nathan, I'm very much afraid of what could happen if our relationship…if we…if we don't work out."

I looked at her and knew the fear that was in her. I was thinking of ways to soothe her fears but I was helpless. I had my own fears and anxieties but I love her and I was willing to give it all.

"We'll make it work Hales because we love each other. We'll face our fears together and we'll be happy wont we?"

She nodded and leaned to kiss me on the lips. I smiled then kissed her with all the passion I've withheld for so long. We were both breathless after that stormy kiss, I pulled her close again and nuzzled her neck.

"It's late Hales, I need to go." I said a bit reluctant to let her go. She buried her face on my chest and shook her head no.

"You don't have to go, you can stay here with me."

"I don't?" I asked teasing her a little.

"We're still married Scott…."

"Yeah about that…how do you feel about getting married again?"

"To whom?" her face looked so innocent I was a teeny bit nervous

"To me" I answered.

"I'd love to marry you Nathan Scott….again"

"I love you Haley James Scott"

"I love you too Nathan Scott"

I felt butterflies in my stomach, I still feel this way every time she says those words. We stayed on the balcony for another hour when I felt Haley's even breathing. I knew she was already asleep so I carried her inside and looked for her room

I eventually found her room and I laid her on the bed, making sure she was comfortable. I felt sleep take over me and I laid down with her, knowing that tomorrow will bring more happy memories to replace those sad ones we've been carrying this past years. I fell asleep with a smile on my face.