Chapter 4
What if….
Seating himself at one of the empty tables at the tutoring center, Nathan took his notebook out of his bag when he remembered the gift he's planning to give to Haley next week.
"I hope she likes it"
Seeing Haley happy a few minutes ago really made his day. He just wished that he was the one who could make Haley happy. He imagined Haley's smiling face when she hugged the bear Luke put in her locker. His stomach was filled with butterflies just seeing her so happy.
"Damn! What that girl does to me…I'm like a stray puppy waiting for her to take me home and care for me." He smiled sadly knowing that somehow he feels contented that she was happy but it's still not enough for him.
"I love her even though she doesn't love me."
Hearing the door open he immediately looked up to see Haley coming in with her bear in her arms.
"I'm sorry I made you wait Nate"
"It's cool." He said trying his best not to pull Haley into his arms and hug her.
"So let's start?"
"Sure"
After tackling Algebra and Chemistry, Haley thought that they've had enough studying and started chatting with Nathan.
"So Nate, how's basketball?" she said conversationally
"Its okay. We have a game this Friday at the gym."
"You do your best okay, hotshot?"
"I'll try, I mean basketball's the only good thing in my life right now. I don't want to mess up like I did with y.." stopping himself before he did something foolish Nathan bowed his head down and pretended to concentrate on his homework.
"Mess up with what?"
"Nothing" he mumbled.
Nodding her head she said "So I guess that's all for today. You did great."
"Thanks! So where are you going after this?"
"I have to work at the café."
"I'll drive you."
"Thanks but I don't think…"
Nathan knew what she was about to say so he said
"I'm sorry I forgot. You're with Lucas now."
Her heart stopped beating for a moment when she saw the pain in Nathan's eyes. How she wished she wasn't the cause of that pain. She loves Nathan, but only as a friend. 'Only as a friend' she said in her mind with such conviction that it seemed forced.
"That's not the reason Nate. I know you're going home and the café is out of your way. I wouldn't wanna bother you. "
"I want to do it" offering his arm to Haley, she surprised him when she took it and answered:
"Okay! Just don't drive too fast I want to get there alive"
When they arrived at Nathan's SUV he opened the passenger door for Haley.
"Wow! I didn't know you we're such a gentleman"
"There are a lot of things you don't know about me….Tutor girl" he teased knowing that Haley hated being called that
"Oh God! Not you too."
"Just kidding" Turning the engine on, he immediately turned the radio on too. A soft familiar melody came on; he heard this song a few days ago. This was his song for Haley.
"I like this song, it's so sad though how he can't have the girl he loves" she said interrupting his thoughts
"I like it too." Looking straight into her eyes he said "If there's one song that would describe where I'm in right now, this would be it"
Both sat silently as they listened to the song, too many emotions and thoughts came to them but none were uttered.
What
if we were wrong about each other?
What if you were really made
for me?
What if we was supposed to be together?
Would that not
mean anything?
