Chapter 15
Haley felt cold and utterly frustrated. Not once in her life did she feel so horrible for making a mistake. A mistake that seems like would cost her the love of her life. She barely noticed the pouring rain, all she was that she felt so cold.
She felt so alone, lost and miserable. Haley wanted to go somewhere safe and familiar, she wanted to go home. "But Lucas is my home"
The rain burned her eyes along with the tears that were unnoticed.
Lucas on the other hand finally realized that his hand was bleeding. He automatically washed the blood away, but the blood won't stop from flowing. He took the towel near the sink and wrapped his hands with it.
His mind still kept on replaying a scene, a scene that tore his heart into bits and pieces. Nathan and Haley drunk and having sex. Did she enjoy it? How many times did they do it?
"God! This is driving me insane!"
Just then a lightning flashed outside his window. "Haley"
He knew Haley hated thunderstorms and lightning. It scared the crap out of her.
"I am such a jerk!" he said angrily. He forgot that he and Haley drove here to his house together and that she was supposed to sleep over. Lucas ran outside and looked left and right. He wasn't sure what direction Haley headed to.
'If anything happens to Haley…this is all my fault' he thought to himself.
Haley shivered as she walk, she didn't know where to go. She can't go back to her parent's house; they'd question her about what happened.
"Why couldn't he just understand that I made a mistake? It's so unfair…. I forgave him yet he won't forgive me? Is this how I want my life to be?"
"Why do I have to be the one who needs to be so understanding! I'm so sick of being like this! Everyone's allowed to make hundreds of mistakes and stupidity yet when I make one…just one it blows up in my face!" she shouted. Getting worked up… the thunder almost agreeing with her.
Shaking her head and deciding that if Lucas wanted to be an ass, she'd let him. She's through being hurt and waiting for Lucas to come around. Now she wants to be the one chased.
"You better run fast Lucas, I'm not gonna stick forever…I'm too tired"
Lucas felt stupid for not even bringing an umbrella or even a jacket. How was he supposed to find Haley? She left her phone and he was sure she wasn't gonna go to her parent's house.
"Where? Where could she be?" he asked himself over and over again.
After almost walking for two hours in the pouring rain he finally decided to go back to his house. He was already coughing and almost feverish.
He reached for the keys in his pocket only to find the door already open. He walked inside and asked the housekeeper who came by because the door was already open.
"Ms. James is upstairs in your room sir. She's sick; your brother found her and brought her here."
"Nathan's here?" He asked coughing. It seems Haley isn't the only one who's gonna be sick.
"Yes. Sir, are you sure you're okay? The doctor is upstairs Mr. Scott called him. "
"I'm gonna be fine"
Lucas went upstairs and went to his room. He greeted Dr. Ross and saw Haley lying on his bed. She looked so pale and weak.
"I suggest you change your clothes first Lucas. You're not looking too well yourself. How long have you been out in the rain?" Dr. Ross asked
"About two hours…."
"That's not good Luke; you better dry off and let me have a look at you."
Lucas saw Nathan at the corner of his eyes. He was sitting quietly and looking at Haley then at Lucas.
Lucas went in to his cabinet….well technically it was a whole room. He had this dressing room made for him and Haley. It was connected to their huge bathroom. He went to his side of the room and took a towel and dried himself. He put on new clothes and felt his hand sting. He forgot about his hand.
"What happened to you and Haley?" Nathan asked softly. He had no idea what was happening to his brother but he took notice at Lucas' bleeding hand. "Dr. Ross I think you should check on Lucas now"
"I'm okay Nathan" Lucas said as he seated himself on the leather chair near where Haley was sleeping.
Dr. Ross shook his head. He carefully looked at Lucas' hand. "Fortunately the wounds don't need stitching. I'm gonna clean your wounds and then you have to drink something for your fever. Nathan go get some hot soup for Lucas"
After Dr. Ross checked Lucas and then checked up on Haley again.
"She's really weak…she's anemic and fatigued. She needs a lot of rest and no stress" The doctor seemed threatening as he said those words. He looked from Lucas then to Nathan.
When the doctor left, Nathan pushed his brother on the bed with Haley and told him to get some sleep.
"I'm not a baby Nathan!" Lucas half-yelled
"Lucas…keep your voice down. I'm not saying you're a baby; I just want you to get some rest and get well. We can talk about everything when you feel better or if you want we can talk tomorrow morning."
Lucas rose and went outside his room. He went to one of the empty bedrooms of his house deciding he's gonna sleep there. Nathan immediately followed him.
"Why are going to sleep here?"
"Because Nathan, if you haven't seen…. Haley and I are both sick and I don't think sharing a bed together would make us healthier. She might get a fever too."
"Oh…I didn't think of that"
"That's okay, I mean….its not as if you ever think at all" Lucas said sarcastically.
"What's up your ass man?" Nathan could feel an unspoken hostility coming from Lucas.
"Nothing. Just leave me alone Nathan."
"Fine"
Nathan walked towards the door and opened it when he heard Lucas ask
"Why did you sleep with Haley?"
"It was a mistake Luke…that's all. We both regretted it. Don't hold it against Haley. Believe me…the morning after was awkward and well…it took us awhile to have things go back to normal"
"Right…whatever" Lucas said dismissively.
Lucas knew that it might have been a mistake…but that still doesn't erase the pain and suspicion in his heart. He thought of Haley… lying on his bed yet that still didn't warm his cold heart.
Vindicated
I
am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear
I knew it all along
And I am flawed
