Title: The Writing's on the Wall pt.5

Author: meremortal2k3@yahoo.co.uk

Rating: Pg

Pairing: Helena/Dinah

Disclaimer: I don't own them but please don't take them away from me

Author's notes: I was going to finish with part 4 but this fic is like Rose Red - it's feeding on my energy and it just keeps growing (SPOOKY). I tend to make most of my mistake when I write nookie - no nookie mean hardly any mistakes. But Lena's the best and she still found some in here - thank you.

.................................... Part.5

Flying, that's what it usually felt like. Running and jumping over the roof tops, over the city, it was a freedom that was very rarely realised and achieved. But Helena wasn't feeling anything.

She ran and she jumped. Eyes feral as she scanned the streets for her. There was none of her usual acrobatics. No flips and somersaults between the buildings as she flew. Rain, something she detested, bit at her face and she didn't even realise that the heavens had opened. This was a search and rescue mission more important than any other because this time she was searching for Dinah.

....

Hours passed. Limbs pushed beyond their capacity screamed in protest. Her lungs burned with exhaustion. If it wasn't for the dawning day she would have continued to push.

Helena headed back to the Clock Tower. There was a chance that someone would see her if she carried on jumping high above the ground and the streets were getting busy.

She would continue using the SUV. She would not stop looking until she had found Dinah and killed Todd. Helena wanted blood and she wasn't about to be denied this time.

.......

"Helena, you can't keep doing this to yourself." Barbara rubbed at her eyes as she removed her glasses. She turned from the Delphi as the brunette had stormed into the Tower from the roof access. "You're gonna end up killing yourself."

It had been three days since the blonde had disappeared, three days since they had seen her dazzling azure eyes and sunny smile. But Dinah had run away before and she had succeeded in hiding herself very well. When she had run away from the Redmond's, she had moved from town to city. She had only been found because she had settled. The blonde was smart, she wouldn't settle again if she didn't want to be found.

"I have to find her, Barbara." Helena was too tired to be angry with the redhead for trying to make her quit. Dinah could be in serious trouble, she could never quit.

"I know, Hel." Barbara sighed heavily. "All I'm asking . is that you have something to eat and get a couple hours of sleep."

Helena shook her head and buried her face in her hands. She rubbed hard, trying to wake up her senses.

"I'll carry on looking." The redhead would beg and plead if she had to. She didn't want to lose anyone else. "I'll get in touch with my sources and see if they've heard anything new."

"Did you circle the pictures of *Todd*?" The brunette couldn't help the hatred in her voice as she said his name. "Someone could know something now."

Barbara nodded. "I'll check if you get some sleep."

"Are you saying that you won't check if I don't?"

The older woman winced at the anger that flared. "No. I'm saying that it's going to take a couple of hours. Time in which you could rest up."

Helena glared.

"Please, Hel." She pleaded. "You'll be better for it."

"I won't be so tired . when I'm out." The brunette mumbled as she fought to keep her eye lids from drooping.

Barbara nodded. She didn't tell Helena that she had already checked in with her sources only fifteen minutes before she had returned. She didn't tell Helena that she wasn't even looking in New Gotham anymore. Barbara Gordon had used her connections as the ex-Police Commissioner's daughter and as Oracle to widen her search to the neighbouring towns and city's. Every police officer within the search parameter was on the lookout for the blonde and her boyfriend.

Barbara knew that keeping Helena in the dark was a risk but she didn't want the younger woman to give up hope. She was afraid of what would happen if the brunette gave up hope that was already waning in herself.

"Okay." Helena finally relented to get something to eat and then hit the hay.

...

She padded softly away from Barbara and headed towards the kitchen. Pulling open the refrigerator, she reached for the milk and poured herself a glass. Helena shut the fridge when she couldn't find anything that she wanted to eat. The brunette swung open the freezer door, looked inside and then shut it again. She moved to the food cupboards and scavenged before shutting them, empty handed. Helena opened the fridge again and pulled out a couple of chicken drumsticks, putting them on to a paper towel she carried them and her milk into her Clock Tower bedroom.

The brunette sat on the edge of her bed and sipped at the cool beverage. She blinked one long blink to try and ease the throbbing behind her eyes. It took real effort to force her cobalt eyes to open again. Helena ripped a piece of cold chicken from the bone and chewed. As her stomach churned she put the drumstick back down on to the kitchen paper and placed it on the bedside cabinet. Food would wait until after she had slept.

Her body ached and protested as she removed her duster, boots and tight pants. If she hadn't been drenched from the unnoticed downpour, Helena would have climbed into bed fully dressed. Easing herself under cool sheets she closed her eyes.

....................................

"You are so beautiful."

Even in her drunken haze, Helena couldn't help blushing at the compliment.

"You have the most amazing eyes."

The brunette felt tender lips on her eyelids, on the tip of her nose, on her lips.

"The most delicious mouth."

Her cobalt eyes were lost in deep azure oceans.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

"You know what, Hel?" She rasped into the other woman's ear. "Todd used to hit me . but he never made me feel as dirty or . as small . as what you have made me feel."

"Dinah." Helena breathed. Confusion knitted her eyebrows as she looked at the woman on top of her.

"You wanna know what I did to you?" Dinah snarled in response. She pushed her palm against brunette's heart. "Here . this is what happened."

....................................

Tears squeezed between tightly shut eyelids. Helena was awake now. The dream had come immediately as she had fallen into a deep sleep. Mere minutes had passed before it woke her and she was crying again. She wasn't crying because of the harsh words - she was crying because even though the dream hurt, she was at least seeing Dinah.

.................

Barbara glanced at the clock in the system tray of the Delphi and then out towards the bedrooms. She then looked down at her wrist watch just to make sure.

Twenty-four hours had passed since Helena had gone to bed. The redhead had eaten, showered, slept, worked out and entered new search parameters into the Delphi while the brunette was sleeping.

"She must really have needed it." Barbara sighed as she continued to tap at the computer

.................

"Helena." Barbara had come to check on her friend. It was like Huntress to sleep like this. She stroked at dark bangs, noticing a small smile on the brunette's lips. The redhead frowned when she also noticed the tears.

Helena was sound asleep and she was crying. Barbara shook the other woman gently. "Helena."

Tears trickled more freely as reddened eyes fluttered open. "Why did you wake me?" her lower lip trembled.

"Helena?" The mighty Oracle was confused by the reaction. "You've been asleep for thirty-six hours."

Helena shook her head disbelievingly. "I need to go back to sleep - leave me alone."

Barbara was starting to worry now. "What's going on, Hel? Come on, you need to wake up and talk to me."

"I can't." The brunette's voice trembled. "I can't lose her again."

Barbara closed her eyes tight. Something was really wrong. It had been for a while and she had missed it. Parts of an unknown puzzle began to click into place inside her mind.

"Did you two fight?"

Helena guffawed as she clutched the bedclothes up to her chin.

"Tell me what happened." 'Oh this must be really bad'

"We were drunk." Helena began to sob. She turned her face into her pillow so that she couldn't see the intense emerald gaze. "It wasn't her fault and . and I blamed her."

"You blamed Dinah for getting you drunk?" Barbara was incredulous.

The younger woman shook her head. "I blamed her . cuz . we slept together." Her voice was muffled against the pillow but she was sure that her friend could hear her.

Barbara, who had been running her fingers through dark messy hair, tightened her fingers reflexively. "You slept with Dinah?" She felt the other woman wince under her hand. "With Dinah?" Her voice was strangled, anger consumed her but she managed to release her fingers.

"She was in love with . me." Helena hiccupped.

"And you took advantage of a seventeen year old?" The redhead spat.

"I thought that she'd . used her powers . to ."

Barbara backed off. A hand flew to her mouth. "Oh God . did she?"

Helena shook her head. She finally turned her tear blotched and swollen face towards her best friend and mentor. "I couldn't . I just couldn't remember so she . she showed me what happened."

"With her meta abilities?"

The brunette nodded and wiped at her own tears as she pulled her knees up into a foetal position. "It was both of us . we both wanted it. If . if I hadn't been drunk, it would've never happened, Barbara. Never."

"But you love her." It was a statement not a question. No one would be in this much pain over a one night stand. "And she's run off with Todd because you broke her heart."

Helena swallowed hard. She bit at her lower lip, not knowing whether or not she should finally tell Barbara about what Todd had done to Dinah. "Dinah would never have run off with that bastard."

"What?"

"He hit her, Barbara. Why do you think I've been so out of my mind with worry?" It was all coming out now and there was no holding back. "That little prick had been hitting her . I convinced her to dump him. She would never have run off with him."

"You can't be sure of that." Barbara grimaced. Blood pounded at her temples as her pulse rate quickened. If Dinah hadn't gone willingly . then Todd must have taken her. "Why the hell didn't you tell me this before?" The anger was back. She had been betrayed and it had put her young wards life in danger.

"I promised her." A fresh wave of tears escaped the dam. "Please, Barbara, don't be angry about this."

The redhead ran her hands roughly through her fiery hair. "Jesus Christ, Helena. Are you stupid or something?" Shaking her head disbelievingly she spun her chair around. "I'm gonna check into Todd's family background . and you should stay out of my way."

.................

Helena had cried herself to sleep again. It was only when a pair of leather pants, which had been lying on the floor of her room, hit her in the face did she wake up. Startled, she bolted upright and swung in the direction they had come from.

"Get up, get dressed. You have fifteen minutes or else I'm going without you." Barbara Gordon glared at the brunette from the doorway. "Dick's just called, he's found Dinah."

"Where?" The younger woman threw back the covers and began to pull her pants on.

"She's in Bludhaven General Hospital." The redhead couldn't even look the other woman in the eyes. "A helicopter will be waiting at Wayne Manor to take us there." She turned and left as the woman she had trusted most in the world scrambled to put her clothes on.