Denial and Acceptance
I've suspected it for a while now. I don't know what happened to make me accept it, but something did.
I just wish I knew how to make him accept it.
So many things could wrong. I think I'm going to get sick if I keep worrying about it, but I can't help it. So I just have to hope.
I know I have almost no chance of convincing him. I'm almost positive that he doesn't feel the same way.
I just can't help it…everyone else is so happy, why can't I be? Raven finally woke up, and Beast Boy hasn't been more then two feet from her since then. And Robin and Star finally got together. About damn time, too…but what about me? Seeing him here, so close...I almost admitted how I feel about him. But I didn't.
I'm scared. At first I thought I had fallen for him, because of Robin. I always liked Rob, but I'm really good at hiding things. And it was pretty obvious he liked Star, you know? Then he came along…and I thought I liked him just because of how much he was like Robin. But I got to know him, and I fell for him. They all think I'm after someone else, don't they?
Who cares. I know Beast Boy suspects, but I know he doesn't care. That BB for you…always ready to look past the preconceptions and see the real you. Will he though? We're nothing alike, not really. Well, might as well try I suppose.
Here I go, ready to take the plunge. God, please don't let him freak out…
Time: 10:03 p.m
Date: October 20th
Place: Titan's tower
The sound of knuckles rapping against metal echoed through the halls briefly, fortunately unnoticed by the occupants of the nearby rooms.
"Cyborg?" The door slid open to show a rumpled looking Speedy, his eyes narrowed slightly "It's ten o' clock man. What's up?"
Cyborg blushed slightly "Umm…damn. This is hard to say. Promise you won't freak out?"
Speedy's eyebrow arched and nodded, stifling a yawn. "Sure."
"I think I love you."
Speedy's yawn became a choke as he tried to breath in and out at the same time "W-what? Your gay?" he stared at Cyborg in shock.
"Bi, actually. Why?"
"Just surprising, you know? You don't seem like you are. So if you're Bi, why aren't you after Bumblebee?" Speedy was still shocked, but hadn't screamed and run away, which Cyborg took as a good sign.
The hybrid shrugged "She's cool, but not my type."
"And I am?"
Cyborg blushed "Listen, I'm sorry. I knew I shouldn't have done this…sorry for bugging you, man."
"So now you regret it?" Speedy grinned slightly "I'm just impressed that you had the guts to do that. Most guys wouldn't have, even if they were sure."
"Sure of what?" It was Cyborg's turn to arch his eyebrow.
"That the guy they were after was gay. Or Bi. Whatever." Speedy shrugged and yawned "Names don't really mean much, you know?"
Cyborg blinked. He hadn't thought about whether Speedy was gay or not, just whether or not he would accept that he was. "So…um…" he scratched his head, confused "I'm not really sure what your saying here."
"What I'm saying is that we'll have to figure out who has to do the traveling from tower to tower. Because I'm not sure about love, but I wouldn't mind spending some time with you." Speedy smirk slightly as Cyborg's shocked look, then yawned again "Night, man. See you in the morning." And with that he closed his door, leaving the hybrid to blink stupidly for a few more seconds before finally registering what had just happened.
His "YESSSS!" echoed around the tower several times, and by that time the next night he and Speedy had a visiting schedule planned.
Okay, I know, weird pairing. I have always seen Cyborg as gay or at least Bi, but in spite of that I was originally planning to put him with Bumblebee. Then one day my muse came up and smacked me and told me that a SpeedyxCyborg pairing was in order. CyborgxBumblebee and CyborgxJynx fans, please don't kill me! Blame the evil muses.
