Please don't be mad at me. Or stop reading this story. This next part picks up seven months after the last part. Everything will be explained quickly. And as much as I hate to say it, I've decided not to include Jack in this story. :( I know, I know. But there was no way I could accurately recreate the whole 'Jack/Jen patented Fag Hag Banter. So he met a guy and decided to stay in Italy. Like I've said before, I'm painfully new at this. But I promise I'm trying! So please don't hesitate to tell me where I'm messing up. I think the story drags a bit times. But I'm trying to get better. So if you read this story and you think it really sucks, please tell me (As nicely as possible) What exactly you hated about it. How else can you get better right? And thanks so much for the support so far guys:)

I'm not sure why I'm just starting this journal now. I guess it's because Jen's about to pop, and I don't want to forget a thing. But tonight, I'm sitting here feeling like my whole life is spinning out of control. I'm not really sure where I stand in anything anymore. It's been seven whole months since the night Pacey and I had sex. Wonderful, mind blowing sex. And we've only spoken about it once. It was the most magical night of my life. But the morning after sucked pretty bad. I'll never forget him telling me how much he loves me. But that he loves me enough to let me go. He told me that he'll always be here waiting until he's sure that I am ready to stop running. I've been trying so hard to prove it to him. Trying every day for the past seven months. I'm not sure how I can make him see it. Sometimes I think that I shouldn't have forgiven him for overreacting so badly. But I probably would have too. The funny part was, that even though I was furious with him, I was the one doing all the begging. I love him, more then I can even describe to myself. And I know that one day we will be together. I'm just getting really tired of waiting for that day to come. It's so hard, just being friends. Hanging out but not really not talking about what's going on between us. Feeling the sparks when his hand brushes mine accidentlly. Feeling my heart skip a beat when he walks into the room. I know that he feels that same way, but there is nothing I can do about it right now. He has apologized for freaking out when he didn't have the whole story. But he's being stubborn/But I can't really think about it too much! There's too much else going on in my life right now. Over the past seven months we have all dealt with so much. Jen's being pregnant was been the biggest change. But she and Dawson have it all figured out. She took the four credits she needed to graduate, and she'll just have to suffer wearing her robe with a big baby belly. It's really cute you know? I know that she was Dawson's first crush, and now here they are expecting a baby together. I'm so happy for them. I don't tell them that enough. I miss Audrey. It's funny at first I didn't think I could life with her. And now I'm struggling to get through it without her. But I'm glad she's getting the help she needs. And Jack. Damn him. He met a handsome Italian guy and left us for him! We haven't even seen him yet this year. He says he'll be back for the big baby event...but we have a hard enough time getting him on the phone. Grams and Gail adjusted pretty quick to the baby. Now I think Gail's almost as excited as I am. And the biggest baby news? I get to be the God-Mother. Pacey is the God-Father or course, but I didn't know for sure if Jen would ask me. But she did! And I'm honored to do it. And guess what? I'm going in the delivery room. So I'm getting dragged along to the Lamaze classes tonight.. Trust Jen to break the cycle. People will probably think Jen and I are together. She would laugh so hard at that. And Pacey and I? We've spent seven horrific months being friends. We see each other almost every day. But it's harder then anything I've ever had to do before. Sometimes I don't know what to say. But I'll get through it. I can't imagine my life without him. But I should say good-bye now dear journal. Jen will be here soon to pick me up for her class...is this really a God-Mother's duty?

"Where's Dawson?" Joey asked as she slid into the car, "He couldn't make it tonight. He's at a meeting with some guy from the local cable access channel. Something about a documentary." Jen was mad, but she knew this was a great opportunity for both of them.

"That's great! So I get to be Daddy tonight?" Joey couldn't resist.

Jen giggled, "Can we hold hands and everything?"

Joey laughed at her, "Jen? Honey? How did you fit behind the steering wheel anyway?" Jen was getting close to her due date. And it showed. Big time.

"What! Joey! Shit, do I really look that fat?" Jen franticly tried to look down at herself. "Damn. I do look like a whale. Joey? Could you do me a favor?"

"Um, Okay." Jen tried to lean back, "Can you look at my shoes and make sure they match? Dawson usually does it but he left before I did. Damn it Joey stop laughing!"

30 Minutes Later

"That was a fast class" Pacey remarked as Jen slowly sank down on the coach. "What happened?"

"I don't want to talk about it" Jen looked disgusted.

Joey couldn't stop laughing, "Jen you were there when Bessie had Alex." Jen pouted

"It wasn't the same thing Josephine"

"Wow, she must really be upset" Pacey was trying not to laugh. Dawson came into the living room to join them. He saw Jen looking really pissed on the couch and Joey trying to hold back her laughter.

"What did I miss? How did class go honey?" Dawson plopped down beside her on the couch. He tried to kiss her, she Jen swatted him away.

"What did you miss? Are you kidding me? This is all your fault!" Jen poked him in the chest. "You can kiss me when you are finished peeing out a bowling ball!"

Pacey coulnd't stop laughing, "Rough class? Or are the hormones kicking in?"

"That's great Pace! Make fun of the pregnant woman. Do you have a death wish?" Joey whispered to Pacey, trying to warn him.

"Hormones? Hormones?" Jen shrieked, "I'll show you men hormones! Do you know what they just tried to make me watch!" She was outraged, "Do you realize how easy you guys have it?"

"Birthing video" Joey explained, "The baby was just beginning to show and Jen freaked and dragged me out."

"Lindley, did you not know how this baby was going to come out?" Pacey knew he was treading thin ice, but he couldn't help himself. "Or were you holding for the stork?"

"That is so funny! Ha! I'd like to see how you hold up in a delivery room Pacey. You coulnd't handle it. And yet you sit here and make fun of me. I look like a whale, I haven't seen my feet in two months and some lady tried to make me watch a torture session. Some friend you are" Jen huffed.

"Oh Lindley, you know I love you. And just think, Dawson will be there with you the whole time!"

Jen turned on Dawson, "He got me into this! And speaking of being there, that was a pretty quick meeting! Why the hell didn't you come over to the hospital for the rest of the class! You didn't know that I'd be home already. Thanks for the support" Jen burst into tears and ran, well waddled, up the stairs.

Dawson looked at his friends helplessly. "What did I do?"

"Bessie was like that at then end" Joey told him sympetheticaly. "It'll be over soon. She really can't help it"

Dawson sighed and turned to Pacey, "Do you think she knows?"

Pacey shook his head, "I haven't said anything, she has no idea. But we'll give you guys some privacy"

"Dawson!" Jen yelled from the top of the stairs, "I need you. NOW!"

"She probably needs help taking her shoes off" Dawson headed up the stairs, "I guess it's now or never. Wish me luck"

"What's going on?" Joey asked looking at Pacey. "What is he going to do?"

"You'll find out soon enough. Come on, let's go get something to eat."

Joey and Pacey walked along the streets of Boston. Joey was lost in thought, and Pacey had his hands stuffed into his pockets.

"Pace? Can we just sit here and talk for awhile?" Joey had noticed they had walked to the park. She really needed to get some things off of her chest.

"Okay. I guess so" Pacey knew what she had in mind, and he knew he could't put off the enivatble.

They sat quietly side by side on the swings for what felt to Joey like an hour.

"I really need to know how you feel", Joey started, "Because I've spent the past seven months unsure of everything. I know we decided to be friends for a while. But I'm tired of that. You know that nothing happened back then. I really want us to go back to where we were before that night happened. I love you Pacey," She told him, cutting him off everytime he tried to cut in, "And I know that you love me. We were going to get together that night. We both know that. And you were mad at me for something that didn't even happen. I want you Pacey. This is it. What do you want with me?"

Pacey looked up at the night sky and tried to gather his thoughts. He knew that she was hurting. He was hurting too. He had tried to put the fear in the back of his mind to rest. He knew that Joey was right. They would have gotten back together that night. And he had thrown that all away over a misunderstanging. He had spent the past seven months wishing he could take that night back, and do it all over again. Make it right. He loved Joey with all of his heart. And he was finally able to be confident that she loved him just as much. And the past few weeks he had felt all of his resolve melting away. He stole a quick look at her in the moonlight. All the feelings that he had ever had for her came flooding back. She looked so beautiful in the soft light. He just wanted to reach over and touch her cheek. To kiss her. And when she turned her sad eyes towards him he knew. He knew that they had both stopped running.

"Pace? Are you going to say anything?" Joey felt the tears threatening to spill. "I just told you exactly how I feel and you wont give my anything?"

"You want the truth Jo? I love you, I've always loved you and I always will. I've always had it in the back of my mind that I wasn't good enough for you. That one day someone better would come along and take you away from me again. And I held back from you because of that. I was an ass Jo. I wanted to be sure of your feeling before I risked getting hurt again. But I've never been able to get you out of my head. I think about you every minute of every day. I don't want to think about you anymore Jo."

Joey looked crestfallen. She wiped away a stray tear. So this was it. She opened her mouth to tell him goodbye when he grabbed her hand.

"I don't want to just think about you Jo. I want to be with you!" He looked tenderly in her eyes. "And I realize I was a complete jerk. I wanted to say this to you for awhile now, but I thought I didn't deserve you. But I love you Josephine. I guess what I'm trying to say is...will you be mine again?"

Joey grinned, "I thought you'd never ask" Everything that had happened was forgotten as her heart burst with joy. "So we'll both stop running?"

"We'll stop running!" Pacey grabbed her face in his hands and met her lips in a sweet, gentle kiss. "Forever. Or for as long as you'll have me"

Joey laughed and stood up to grab him in a hug. "Then it's forever!" Pacey picked her up and spun her around, "I LOVE THIS WOMAN!" He shouted to the empty park, "FOREVER!"

Joey laughed and beat on his chest, "Let me down! Or I just might have to change my mind" She teased, and when he turned on her, she took off running through the trees. Pacey chased her, and brought her down to the ground. He laid a little kiss on the tip of her nose, "I love you." He whispered, "Forever"

Back In Jen's Bedroom

"Jen? Honey what do you need?" Dawson asked breathlessly, leaning against the doorframe. He looked in her room and saw her laying on her bed crying.

"Are you okay? What's going on?" Dawson had a note of panic in his voice. No matter how cranky Jen had been lately, he knew that she didn't mean any of it. And he loved her more each day that went by. Although he could never predict the kind of mood she would be in when he came home, he cherished the fact that he had her to come home to. And someday really soon, he would have a child waiting at home as well.

"It's really nothing. I just couldn't reach down to pull my socks off and.."She started crying again. Dawson sat beside her on the bed and cradled her in his arms, "I was just so upset at the video and I wished you were there with me"

Dawson stroked her hair back from her face, "I'm so sorry I wasn't there. I'll be there beside you for every other class okay? I promise."

Jen sniffed, "I'm not really mad. And I'm not going to another class. There scary. I'd rather just go in there and demand the drugs." Jen knew she had been a bitch the past few days, "And I'm so sorry about the way I've been acting lately. I just can't help it sometimes...and"

Dawson inturrepted her, "Honey I understand. It's perfectly natural. It's just your hormones. I love you, and I love our baby" He put his hand over her rounded belly. "I love you guys so much. I don't know what I'd do without you."

"Speaking of being without me, how did the meeting go anyway? Good news or what?" Jen asked hopefully. He had been really secretive about the meeting and she figured that he just though it might be some strange show biz superstition.

Dawson fidgited around on the bed, "The meeting? It went really, um, okay I guess?"

Jen wrinkled her nose, "Okay? You guess?" Jen laughed, "Honey if it didn't go well you can tell me. I'll be here for you"

"Well honey, I didn't really have a meeting tonight" He started aprehensively

"What! Where were you then?" Jen demanded, hurt that he didn't go to a meeting but still didn't attend her class with her.

"Well," Dawson stammered, wiping his palms on his pants. He was starting to sweat. Jen eyes him supiciously, he was starting to look really guilty.

"Oh my god! Are you seeing someone? Is that it? Is it because I'm getting too fat" Jen spat at him, "Please tell me that you're not seeing someone else!" She stood up, hands on her hips, "I expected better of you Dawson"

"No, no honey. It's nothing like that." He took a deep breath, "Jen do you remember what today is?"

Jen thought about it, "Oh my God! It's our two year anniversary! I forgot! I'm sorry!"

"It's okay. But I've been doing a lot of thinking and...well...Damn it! You know I'm not good at this stuff!Okay," He took a deep breath, "What I'm trying to spit out is this. I love you Jennifer Lindley. I've loved you since the day you stepped out of that cab. And I know that the road hasn't always been so smooth. We've tried this out a couple of times before. But two years ago the blinders came off. I know now that I was so wrong believing in the whole 'Soulmates' stuff. I love Joey dearly, but like a sister. And I've come to realize that they only woman that I want to be with is the beautiful woman standing in front of me. And I'm not just saying this because you're pregnant" He rushed on, seeing the look on her face, "The truth is I've been trying to work up the nerve to do this for awhile. I'm just sorry it took so long. So here goes," He kneeled down on one knee, "Jennifer Lindley, you are the light in my life. The one who completes me. The one woman I would lay down my live for. I love you more then words can describe. You are my leading lady, for now and for the rest of my life. Will you marry me?"

Jen was stunned. She had no idea that he had been planning this but there was no doubt in her mind. "Yes! Yes I'll marry you!" She held out her hand to accept the ring. "I love you!" Dawson stood with a smile and kissed the love of his live, "Damn it!" She cursed him, "Now I'm crying again!"

Joey and Pacey were slowly making their way back to Grams. They had given up on the thought of dinner and they were just enjoying their newfound relationship. Their hands were linked, and neither one could help the smile on their faces.

"I'm so glad you finally woke up" Joey teased his, stopping to kiss him over and over again, "I wasn't sure I could wait any longer!"

"I'm sorry. I told you I was an ass. I didn't think I could wait to kiss you any longer"

"Well now you don't have to!" Joey smiled at him and leaned into another kiss. She broke off this kiss and looked up at the house in front of them. "We're home. Should we run before the cranky pregnant lady see's us?"

Pacey suddenly remembered what Dawson had planned for the evening. "I think we'd better go in and see what's going on"

Joey remember as well, "Okay, out with it. What did Dawson have planned?"

"You'll have to wait and see" Pacey told her, leaning her against the porch railing and kissing her deeply.

"Oh my God!" Suddenly the porch light went on overhead and they heard Jen's voice. "When the hell did this happen?" Jen was pulling them into the house, "I want details damn it!"

Dawson joined the group in the living room, "What's going on?" he asked.

"Our two best friends finally got a clue and patched thing up!" Jen was so excited. "Guys! What a night!" She leaned down to hug Joey. Joey noticed the ring at the same time as Pacey.

"Oh my god! Was that what Dawson had planned?" Pacey nodded at her. "Congratulations Jen!" She jumped up to hug her pregnant friend.

"Way to go D-man" Pacey shook his best friend's hand, "See? I told you she'd say yes"

Dawson walked over and slipped his arms around his fiance. "I'm just glad she did!", he smiled, "But I'm glad you guys finally worked things out."

Joey's mouth opened in horror, "Oh Jen I'm so sorry!" She cried.

Jen was confused, "For what? Making my night even better?"

"Didn't you see that episode of Friends? Jen I'm stealing your thunder!"

They all laughed at Joey's outburst, "Joey! You're not stealing anything! You're my best friend. I'm just glad your as happy as I am!"

Pacey stole his girlfriend back from Jen's embrace, "Okay ladies, way to sappy here"

"Now we're just one big happy family" Jen bounced around the living room. Suddenly she sat down on the couch. She grimiced.

Dawson rushed to her side, "Oh my god! Is it that baby?" Jen burst into tears.

Everyone froze and waited for her to explain what was wrong.

"No!" She whimpered, "But if this is like that episode of 'Friends' That makes me Monica. And I'd rather be Rachel" She cried in despair.

No one knew whether to laugh or cry. "Only one more month" Dawson muttered to himself.

"I heard that!" Jen burst into laughter. "That's not funny!".