Broken Hallelujah

By:

iLoVeFrUit

Chapter 5

A/N: Thanks for the reviews guys! I really appreciate it! Well, we just found out Jimmy tested positive for HIV/AIDS GASP so let's go on with the story! Oh and in this part…It's going to be in Manny's POV and Emma's POV! Keep that in mind! Alrighty! Then tell me if you like no POV, or POV! And this is more like Manny and Emma's journey through the harsh world they call college and all its mishaps and joys. So that's why it's in their POV! Just explaining some things!

Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or any of the characters! And blah blah! Or the Blink 182 "I miss you" song.

MANNY'S POV:

"What? HIV/AIDS? Are you kidding?" Jimmy asked breathlessly. HIV/AIDS? Was this a joke?

"Oh my god, did I give it to you? Oh my god, am I a carrier?" I asked, tears already in the corners of my eyes. "Do I have Doctor Watson? Do I? Did I give it to him, I'm so sorry Jimmy!" Already I was apologizing! I had taken a test too, but I couldn't have had it. Even though we didn't use protection, I couldn't have, but there was a slight chance.

"No, you don't have it. Have you gotten any kind of tattoo or blood transfusion?" Doctor Watson replied.

"Um…" Confession time. Jimmy knew where he got it from. He needed to Manny alone. "Can you leave us alone for a few minutes?"

"Okay, Jimmy we need to run some more tests when you're done." Doctor Watson headed to the door and before she walked out, she turned back and whispered, "I'm so sorry."

Jimmy nodded his head and turned towards Manny, just as the door shut close. "Manny…first of all, I'm sorry-"

"Sorry for what? What did you do?" I asked, already fearing the worst. "Tell me Jimmy!"

"I cheated on you, I'm sorry! Really I am! It was just-"

"Sorry that you got caught?" It was a rhetorical question, but oh well! How he could he do this? I loved him! LOVED HIM! Gave him my all! My body, soul, and heart and he does to me! "I loved you Jimmy! I had sex with you!"

"And I'm sorry, it just happened." He mumbled, looking down.

"Just happened huh? So, in blink of the eye, your clothes were off and you were just kissing her? Huh? Is that how it happened Jimmy?" I shouted at him, standing up from my chair. I could feel the tears fall from my face, as I reached out my hand and slapped him on the face. He deserved it! He just stared at me and put a hand over where there was now a red mark. "How long?" I asked.

"What?" He looked confused, but oh he couldn't play this game with me.

"How long, was it going on?" I needed to know. How could I have been so stupid!

He looked hesitant to answer the question, but finally after a few minutes, he answered, "just a few weeks."

A few weeks? "Was it with her?" I meant Stacey. She was such a bitch, always holding on Jimmy's arm or something. She had a crush on him and was always flirting with him right in front of me. He told me it was nothing, and I was stupid enough to believe it.

Jimmy just nodded his head. I grabbed my purse and started towards the door, before I stepped out of the room, I muttered, "Serves you right to get HIV, I can't believe you jerk!" And I walked out of the room, feeling confident and satisfied, while Jimmy just sat there, alone and scared out of his mind.

x

Emma's POV:

I felt some of my hair being put behind of my ear and suddenly awoke to find Craig, staring at me. My eyes blinked a couple more times and then I smiled at him. "Hey..." I whispered. He smiled at me and stroked my cheek with his hand. I could not believe what had just happened. It was magical, better than ever with Sean. Oh right, Sean. Now what happens? Craig's just…better, but I can't leave Sean. He'll be heartbroken. I have to tell Crai-Oh great, now my phone's ringing.

"Hold on," I muttered, sitting up on my bed, putting the t-shirt that was thrown on my bed side table on. I grabbed my phone and picked up, "Hey, Manny is this you?"

She knew it was Manny because of the phone number, something must be up.

"Emma! Jimm-Jimmy-he-has-and-" Manny stuttered, and everything else was drowned out by tears. What was wrong with her? Did something happen to Jimmy? Oh no, they broke up, didn't they?

"Manny, speak clearly! What happened?" I questioned. What was happening? She was crying and I could hear in the background a TV. Oh no, she's watching game shows again. This tradition had started when the jerk named Ben, who she had been dating for 6 months, broke her heart. She had started to watch Wheel of Fortune that time. Then it was The Price is Right. Now it sounded like, like who wants to be a Millionaire.

"Jimmy has HIV/AIDS!" Manny shouted, and I could hear her crying even harder now, as I also heard the voice of the girl saying, 'Is that your final answer'? Jimmy has AIDS? Oh no, what was happening? Sean, Snake and now Jimmy?

"He has AIDS?" I asked. Hearing this, Craig sat up and put his hand on my shoulder, and looked worriedly at me.

"He cheated on me Emma! He cheated on me and got HIV! He cheated on me with that Stacey. That bitch." Manny coldly remarked. "I had sex with him Emma! And then he just goes and does it with some slut!" Manny muttered.

"Um, okay, look I was supposed to leave on Monday, but look I'll leave today." It was Saturday. Emma couldn't leave her friend in trouble. Jimmy had cheated on her! "Manny," I spoke into the receiver.

"Yeah?"

"Hold on, and don't worry Jimmy's a jerk!" I heard Manny sniffle and mumble a simply 'yeah' and then I said bye and hung up the phone. Craig and I just sat there for a few minutes, his arm around my shoulder now, and me just staring at the wall. I just realized, (Right now!) Jimmy has AIDS. I couldn't help but feel bad for him. "Jimmy has AIDS," I spoke quietly.

"Is Manny okay?" Craig asked, taking my hand.

"I don't know." Jimmy had been my friend, he really had been. No, not that type of friend where he's your best friend's boyfriend kind of friend, but a real friend. I knew that he should pay for cheating on Manny, but I didn't think he'd have to pay this bad.

"It'll be okay." I heard Craig murmur, and a few seconds later, I felt his hand intertwined with mine. He squeezed it and I smiled weakly at him as we sat like that for the rest of the night.

-x-

Paige's POV:

As I sat there, in my lawyer's office, I still couldn't believe I was here. Bob Johnson was the lawyer I had gone to. Why was I doing this? Matt was going to get better, it was just all the stress he had from school, and his job, and maybe even me.

"Hello Paige." His voice startled me and I slightly jumped at Bob's voice. He sat down in front of me and smiled, as if easing the pressure. "How are you doing today?"

"Um fine," I shifted in my seat. "I wanted to talk about…well, my boyfriend...he's...He's," I couldn't find the words to say it; I didn't want to say it or even believe it. I just wanted to wake up as if this was all a nightmare. I wanted to wake up with Matt next to me, cuddling up.

"Paige? He's what?" Bob's voice rang out, as I came to reality. He had a questioning look on his face and I could tell he was somewhat worried.

I took a deep breath and finished, "abusive. He's abusive." Mr. Johnson was silent for a minute as he pondered this and I just shifted around uncomfortably, playing with my hands, trying not to look at him. It was embarrassing of course, my boyfriend was abusive. How could I pick such a guy?

"Okay, what do you need to know?" He looked up at me, leaning back into his chair.

"I need to know what my rights are. What can I do?" I asked, almost screaming. I couldn't take anymore of this. I wanted out! I wanted out of this so called "relationship" with Matt. "If-" I hesitated, but I could see he wanted me to talk. "If I break up with him, he'll hurt me." I stopped, letting this all sink in. "He'll hurt me real bad," I continued, quietly.

"Okay, I know, I will help you." He replied. I smiled and chuckled a bit out of happiness. "But you will have to pay me."

My smile slowly turned to a frown as I inquired, "What?" Pay? I hadn't thought about that. Where was I going to get the money to pay a lawyer?

"Pay, you'll have to pay." He repeated, starting to stand up now from his seat. I stood up after him and nodded my head as I shook his hand, but inside, I didn't know what to do! I couldn't tell my parents and I certainly couldn't tell Emma or Manny. Emma was going through too much and I had already moved out. Wait! Where was I going to move in? I would have to find another roommate? This is more complicated than I thought. Suddenly my phone rang and as I looked at the flashing screen, I saw the caller ID. It read Manny.

-x-

Emma's POV:

As I ran into the apartment I could hear Manny crying from her room. I dropped my purse and keys on the table in one swift motion. "Manny?" I called out. Craig was still going up the stairs. He preferred to go up the stairs instead of an elevator because who knows when you could get stuck in an elevator? "Manny, oh my gosh, are you okay?" I gazed at my friend, teary eyed, mascara smeared, and her holding a pillow. I had never seen my friend this way; it was always me like this. Never her.

"Yo-you came…" Was all Manny could say, as she took deep breaths and reached over trying to get a tissue. "Emma….he has AIDS!"

"I know…" I replied, coming over to her bed. So many memories on this thing, like that time that Jimmy-oh, but they were broken up now. It was hard to think of Manny and Jimmy broken up. They had been together in so long, been in love for so long-or so I thought. "It'll be okay."

"No, no it won't!" Manny cried out, putting her hands over her face. "It won't…" She looked up at me and continued, "He has AIDS, Emma! AIDS! He will never get better!" I heard Manny mutter something, but I didn't hear what it is. She started crying, but I didn't know why. Didn't she want him punished? Punished for cheating on her?

"Oh Manny…I'm so so-" I started, but she put her hand up to my face and glared.

"Don't." She looked down at whispered, "God, Emma you don't understand!" She muttered, looking away from me. "I loved him, he cheated and now he has AIDS. I can never rekindle my relationship with him It would be too painful." Manny continued, gazing back towards me, with a glum look on her face.

"You would seriously go back to him? After what he did?" I asked, gazing at her quizzically. She shrugged it off and sighed. She said rekindle her relationship? She would go back to him? What was she going through? I couldn't understand.

Hello there Angel from a nightmare

"Listen, Em, I know you came all the way from Toronto," She took a deep breath and shifted her position on the bed, "but you think you can leave me alone for a bit?"

The shadow in the background of the morgue

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

I nodded my head and stood up from the bed. I walked to the doorway before taking one last look at the girl who was my best friend. I looked around the room for a moment and saw all the pictures that Manny had in her room. I gazed at the picture of her at the bedside table. She was smiling, the girl she was. The girl she wasn't anymore.

We can be like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

And we'll have Halloween on Christmas

I walked out of the room, to find Craig sitting on the couch, watching TV. "Hey.." I greeted, sitting down next to him and right then and there, I realized it. What was I going to do about him and Sean? I just couldn't break Sean's heart, not now, but what happened with Craig-had happened. I liked Craig too. Oh why was love this complicated? "Craig, we-"

"Need to talk. I know." He finished for me. He grabbed the black remote and flipped off the TV. "So, what happened-" This time I would interrupt.

"What happened in Toronto, can't ever," I took a deep breath, "happen again." I watched his smile slowly turn to a frown and then I felt like the worst person in the world. I had led him on and now I was telling him that this could never happen again. That what had happened, shouldn't have happened.

And in this night we'll wish this never ends

"What?" He questioned, a confused look on his face. He put his hand over mine and smiled lightly as if this was all a joke. Like in the next second I would smile and shout out, 'gotcha!' But this wasn't a game.

"Me and Sean-" I stopped there and pulled my hand away from his, thinking this was not the best way to start living with my roommate. "I love Sean, very very much. And what happened between us was-"

"Wonderful and blah blah blah," Craig looked up at me, almost angry and continued, "Okay I get it. You love Sean and me and you was a mistake." He stopped for a second and let this all sink in. I was thinking in the next minute he would shout at me and asked why, but all he did, all he simply said was, "Okay."

We'll wish this never ends

I sighed and started to fumble with my hands. Was this all he was going to say? Was he playing it hard to get? "Really?"

"Sure, but everything that happened, I really meant it. I don't know what's going on between us, but sooner or later, you'll figure it out." And with that, Craig ran his hand through his hair and got up, walking towards the kitchen, leaving me stunned.

Don't waste your time on me, you're already a voice inside my head….

"Um…" I whispered to myself, looking up at a photograph of me and Sean, smiling together. Except, photographs only showed the happy moments, never the fights, tears, or I hate you's. Just the happy moments, the ones where there's love, and somehow that picture of me and Sean didn't look right. Like Sean didn't match. I reached out for the picture frame slowly and took the picture frame into my hands.

Don't waste your time on me; you're already a voice inside my head….

I sighed and put it down on the table. I knew what I needed to do.

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

Webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

and hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight

"So what do you want for dinner?" Craig shouted from the kitchen. I hopped up from the couch and started towards the kitchen.

Don't waste your time on me; you're already a voice inside my head.

-x-

you guys like? I hope you do! But the next part will be more intense! a little long wasn't it?