Chapter 3
A/N: Okay, this is a song fic in Jesse's point of view. The song is Swing Swing by All American Rejects…gotta love them.
Disclaimer: Do we really have to do this? Isn't it obvious that I'm not Meg Cabot? And that (unfortunately) don't own Jesse or any of the Mediator characters? Or Swing Swing? That the only thing I own is the plot?
Whatever. So, read and be readers. Erm…yah.
Jesse's POV
Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall
I watched Susannah step out of the Mission. It was three o'clock and the school had just let out. She walked over to a tall fair haired boy and kissed him on the cheek. She had only talked to me once in a week, it hadn't been a real conversation. The last time we'd spoken had been in her room. She had started seeing this young man a few days ago.
I didn't know why she wouldn't talk to me. I loved her. Why would I 'dump' her? I needed to talk to her. But how could I when she wouldn't allow me near her?
I felt jealously stir inside of me. I wanted to walk over to the two of them and pull his hand from hers, kiss her…but no. I wouldn't. Every time I saw a sunset, I would think of her. How many of those I had watched from her window since my death. Why wouldn't she talk to me? What did she think I had done?
Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new
I remember the day I talked to her. She hadn't talked back, much. She had said she'd found someone new, Dan. I assumed he was the light haired young man.
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.
My heart felt crushed as I watched them walk to the car. I had never felt like this before…so alone. Even the 150 years that I spent with out her, I didn't feel this alone. I didn't think I could carry on. Not when I loved her this much. And there wasn't anything I could do. But that wouldn't stop me from trying. I needed to know why. And then, if she wished, I would leave her alone.
Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love
I wished there was something I could do. But wishing is useless. I had wished for her to love me. She didn't. Not anymore.
I looked to my left. There was a tall girl with red hair. She had beautiful blue eyes. She walked toward me. I recognized her from my Spanish class. I thought of Susannah. Susannah was far prettier.
Bury me
you thought your problems were gone
Carry me
away. away, away...
"Hey Jessie," oh, now I knew her. Her name was Samantha. She was very nice. Not as pretty as Susannah…
"Hello," I smiled at her, but I was looking past her, at Susannah.
"Do you think you could help me with my Spanish homework? I can't get this whole conjugating thingy…" I smiled at her.
"Of course. Tonight maybe?"
"Perfect, what about at seven o'clock at the coffee clutch?"
"No problem."
"Gracious," she smiled at me. Her white teeth flashed in the sunlight. She really was a sweet girl.
"De Nada, Samantha." I took one last look at Susannah and walked away.
Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new
A/N I know I know, the song is out of order and everything, but I wanted to use that song, and that was how I could make it fit. Plus, I really wanted something in Jessie's POV, so yah. Anyhow, REVIEW! …please...the more reviews, the faster I update…lol. Or the boarder I get. It depends on which comes first.
