Well...here's the thing. That first chapter? I don't remember writing it. Seriously. But, apparently while I was drunk on soda, I promised three chapters. So...here's chapter 2! Tsukasa's POV this time. And it's still short. And a LOT angstier than I meant it to be...oh, well.

P.S. Thank you mentaru for beta-ing this! (huggle!)

...Shame On Me: Chap. 2...

You're a mystery to me, Tomonori-san. I thought I understood you before all this happened, but I guess I was wrong. I thought I could tell what you were thinking, but I can't read you anymore. I thought you would hate me.

Yet, you called me an angel and held me while I cried.

I don't understand. How? How can you still keep me, smile at me, trust me, when you know what I'm capable of? How can you look at me with such kind eyes after I...

You were there. You saw me. The others insist that I'm not like that anymore, that I'm their friend and ally now. They say that they forgive me.

But they weren't there. They didn't see me...see what I did to Lafayel. They didn't see how I smirked at his pain, smiled at his suffering...

You did. You, Tomonori-san.

You stood there and watched me kill him. How can you look at me with such care in your eyes after you saw the monster that I really am? I don't understand.

I just don't understand you, Tomonori-san.

How can you be so sure that I won't do it again? How do you know I won't...that I won't kill you, too?

I had a dream that I did. Kill you, I mean. It was awful.

My whole body was burning...I was laughing (it wasn't me),and you lay there, bleeding (oh, God...) and I...I wanted to run to you and hold you and heal you...

I couldn't move...And you looked at me with such pain in your eyes (don't look at me like that)...and then you died...while I laughed. It was such a terrible sound.

I've had that dream a lot. Each time I wake up crying and go to your room and I watch you sleep. I hold my breath and stay silent and I listen to you breathe. Is that silly? It's just a nightmare, after all. But I'm still scared that one time I'll wake up and...and you won't be there. I don't want you to leave me. Please don't leave me.

I don't care if I keep having that dream, as horrible as it is, as long as I keep waking up and you're still here. As long as I wake up, I can watch you dream.

Sweet dreams, Tomonori-san.

...End Chap. 2...

Less romance, more angst. I promise that the next chapter WILL have fluff. It WILL!

...I can't write fluff. (sweatdrop)