Author's note: This chapter is extremely deep… there are instances of rape. So this is a pre warning… do not read if this makes you uneasy. Another note I wanted to mention… this chapter was co written by kitsuneakai13. Thank you SOOO Very much. I really appreciate the help. You're the best! cuddles Alright then, one with the story… and once again… beware of terrible things that happen.. enjoy.
The reason

Gogeta was worried about his little brother. He had not heard from him in hours. Hakkai didn't like to see his friend so worried about anything. He embraced him. Hakkai was trying to get his lover to relax but it wasn't doing much good. Gogeta was so uptight about the whole thing. Hakkai looked at let go, got in front of him, and asked, "Why are you so uptight What's on your mind Gogeta?"

" I'm worried about my little brother. He really shouldn't be out there all-alone at this time a night, and if I remember correctly, the weather is going to get bad tonight. He shouldn't be wandering the city this late… I'm just really worried." Gogeta bowed his head. He looks out the window again. ' O I hope you do come back. I couldn't forgive myself if anything happened to you.'

Hakkai looked at Gogeta again. " Hey… don't worry so much. I'm sure Vegito is a resourceful young boy. I'm sure he can take care of himself."

" I'm glad you are confident in my little brother's abilities. I just hope he comes home soon."

" Gogeta, Hakkai! Dinner!" Came Bulma's voice.

" Coming!" The boys shouted back.

Both boys ran down stairs. They came in the kitchen. Damien and Miranda were already sitting down at the table. Gogeta looked at his brother's chair and it was still empty. He sighed again as he sat down. Gogeta was even more worried now. ' He still hasn't come home… O I hope you do come back. I couldn't forgive myself if anything happened to you.'

Miranda looked at her big brother. " Uh… Gogeta? You alright?"

He didn't answer her at first. Goten and Trunks looked at him as well..

" Son? You alright over there?" Goten asked.

" Gogeta? What's wrong?" Trunks asked.

Damien was very confused. He didn't know what was wrong. But then again most time he was out of the circle. Hakkai knew better then anyone what was going on.

Miranda blinked a few times. She started waving her hand in her brother's face. " Hello! Anyone in there. Earth to Gogeta!"

Gogeta shook his head. " Uh… what?"

" I asked you are you alright?"

" Oh yeah I'm just fine… don't worry about me."

" What are you thinking about Gogeta?" Damien asked.

" Vegito… I'm thinking about him."

" Speaking of which.. where is that kid?" Trunks asked.

" I was wondering the same thing. Gogeta where is your brother?" Goten asked.

" Gogeta-san? Where is Vegito-san?" Miranda asked.

" He's blowing some steam…"

Bulma was in shock. " WHAT! You let him go out alone!" Bulma shouted.

Gogeta cringes. " Bulma… please. Don't shout. I'm the last person he wants to see right now."

Bulma looked over at her grandson. " What did you do to him?"

" I kinda made him mad about something… guy stuff."

" Oh I understand. Well you better find him and bring him home!" She shouted.

Gogeta looked down at his empty plate and then he slams his hand on the table. Hakkai looked up at his lover. " Gogeta?"

" I'm going after him! I don't care if he wants to see me or not. I'm not going to let my little brother get hurt out there!"

Hakkai got up from his seat. " I'm coming with you! I won't let you go alone."

Miranda got up from the table. " I'm coming too."

Gogeta looked back at her and shook his head. " No… I don't want you coming with me. It's too dangerous. Hakkai and I will be able to handle with this alone."

Miranda put on a sulky face. " Alright.. you bring Vegito-san back safely Gogeta-san."

" I will…"

Gogeta and Hakkai walked out to the door. Bulma walked up to the boys.

" You be careful out there… you hear me?"

" Yes ma'am. Well be careful." Hakkai said.

" I'll bring Vegito back soon!"

Gogeta and Hakkai opens the door it suddenly starts to rain outside. ' Darn it! This is the last thing I needed… I gotta hurry up and find my little brother before he gets sick. I couldn't forgive myself if anything happened to you.' Gogeta looked at Hakkai. And vice versa. Both boys ran out in the rain to find Vegito. " Vegito!" Gogeta calls out as he runs.

" Vegito! Where are you!" Hakkai shouts. Both boys were soaking wet. After a few hours of running they started breathing hard. " This isn't working! We gotta try something else. Lets do this… you got north… I'll go south."

Gogeta nodded at Hakkai and Gogeta ran off to the north. The rain was coming down even heavier then before. He was so worried about his little brother. " VEGITO! WHERE ARE YOU!" He called out again. ' Why… why did all this happen? It was because of all my insecurities about my past relationships! That is what got us in this mess… I couldn't bring myself to tell my little brother about all the bad things that happened to me.. Well I gotta bring it up to him some day… if anything will EVER come about with this… he must know…'

Flash back….

Gogeta was about six years old. He was the cutest little thing. Most boys were jealous of his good looks. One day something happened to him that would scar him for life. He was fucked by an older boy, a ten year old. He was somewhat of a friend of Gogeta's. The guys name was Gorno. He approached him one day when Gogeta was walking home from his walk.

" Hey there… Gogeta… its been a while. So how have you been?"

Gogeta looked up at the elder boy. " Oh hey Gorno. I'm just headed on home…"

" Why don't you come over to my place."

Gogeta hesitated for a moment. He looked up at the elder boy. " I kind of have to get home." He frowned.

Gorno grinned. "Ah come on, don't be such a momma's boy, you can just come over for a little bit, you know to hang out." He chuckled.

Gogeta looked in the direction of his house. " Well I guess if I came over for a little while it wouldn't hurt anyone." He said slowly.

Gorno smiled. " Great. Promise...you will have fun." He looked away from Gogeta. ' Oh yes... this will be entertaining!' He thought. ' You are all mine little Gogeta.'

Gogeta followed his friend unaware towards his house, still unsure about not telling his parents and getting bad vibes from his older companion.

" So how've you been doing in school?" Gogeta asked, trying to break the uncomfortable silence.

Gorno glanced toward the younger and grinned charmingly. " Nothing much." 'Besides watching you.' He thought evilly.

Gogeta nodded. " Oh, that's cool I guess." He smiled as a strange feeling arose in his gut. He didn't notice the strange looks Gorno was giving him and continued on as they reached his house.

" School sucks most of the time Gogeta... smart people like us don't need old geezers to tell us anything. There are more important things in life that take principle." ' and one of those things come to mind... every time I stare at you... I so wanna do it and now is my chance.'

Gogeta nodded and smiled, not seeing the strange glance Gorno was giving him. " Hey, isn't this you're house?" He asked as he pointed, turning to the elder of the two.

Gorno was broken out of his thoughts and smiled sheepishly. " I suppose it is." He said.

Gorno led them into the house and Gogeta smiled happily. " So what do you want to do?" He chirped. Gorno smiled and laid down his schoolbag.

" How about something fun?" He suggested. Gogeta smiled and laughed.

" Well okay." He shrugged. " Well.. .Gogeta, I was thinking we could go up to my room... and well have a few snacks... and do some other cool stuff... if your up for it."

Gogeta nodded enthusiastically. " I'll help get the food!" He offered excitedly, as any Saiyan would.

" No need.. I already had them prepared."

Gogeta frowned slightly. " Oh okay." He smiled. " Well that's always convenient." He said.

" Yes. Yes it is." Gorno smirked. " Let's go upstairs now." He offered.

Gogeta smiled. " Of course... your room was always the best room in your entire house."

Gorno smiled. ' And it is the best place for me to have my way with you.'

They raced up the stairs and Gogeta happily jumped into the room and bounced onto the bed. He spread out on his back with his hands behind his head and grinned at Gorno as he walked in soon behind. " Beat you." He smiled.

" Your still just a kid... but your just so darn cute." He shuts his door and begins to light candles around the room

Gogeta frowned in confusion. " What are you doing, I thought we were going to have snacks and do something cool." He pointed out.

Gorno simply smiled. " Don't worry, we're going to do something very cool." He reassured the boy. Then he played some mood music. Gorno was smiling at Gogeta he was in the process of taking his cloths off. " You have never done anything like this before have you little Gogeta... I'm sure you will enjoy this."

Gogeta sat up in bed and looked worriedly toward his friend. " What's going on?" His voiced started to rise in panic. Gorno dropped his clothes to the floor until he was only in his boxers.

" I'm going to show you something very, very cool my little friend." He said huskily as he leaned forward and pushed Gogeta back onto the bed.

" No!" Gogeta struggled, vaguely understanding that something wrong was happening.

Gorno growled and pushed his weight onto Gogeta's limbs. " I'm not going to let such a pretty little thing escape." He nipped at his throat.

Gogeta turned away. " Let me go, i thought you were my friend!" He cried.

Gogeta smiled softly and brushed Gogeta's hair back. " But I am your friend and so much more little Gogeta, I love you so much. Gogeta froze at those words.

" What?" He whispered.

Gorno leaned down and kissed his brow. " I love you." He repeated. Gogeta let that thought run through his mind and he soon found himself being kissed more firmly as Gorno trailed his lips down his face.

" No, you're lying!" He shook his head desperately.

Gorno growled. " No I'm not." He said forcefully. He gripped Gogeta's wrists more firmly, wrenching a protesting squeak from the boy beneath him. " I have been in love with you for years now Gogeta... you are the cutest little thing I have ever seen. I'm sure you must feel the same way about someone.. I know you do. You can't hide you feelings from me.. I know you. I want you." Gorno said as he forced himself on the small child again. " I will have you Gogeta... you are my little Chibi."

Tears began to run down the small face. " I don't want this." Gogeta choked.

Gorno smiled and shook his head gently. " I'll make you want it little one." He soothed. He ran his hands over Gogeta's chest and slowly unbuttoned the cloth. " We can't have this here now can we?" He chuckled. "Show me your pretty skin." He purred. He had difficulty loosening the last few buttons and growled angrily. " Damn buttons." He ripped the shirt from Gogeta's quivering chest and threw it over his shoulder. Gogeta quivered under his rough hands and Gorno smiled at him. " Don't worry, I'm not mad at you." He stroked Gogeta's now bare chest. " I could never hurt you." He said.

Gogeta tried to cover his skin but his arms were still above his head. " Please Gorno, just stop it and let me go." He pleaded. " I won't tell I promise." He sobbed.

Gorno shook his head. " I can't let you go now Chibi, you're mine." He chuckled. "And now I shall claim you." He grinned as his nimbly fingers moved toward his pants.

Gogeta tensed up. " Please.. .Gorno... don't touch me there." More tears came down from the young Chibi's eyes.

" I'm afraid I have too... but I'm sure.. you'll enjoy my touch. most boys do." Gorno reached down. Gogeta struggled to get away from his... by this time, ex friend. But it was no use... Gorno was much stronger then Gogeta was at this age, even know Gorno was human, Gogeta hadn't learned how to use his own powers. Gorno smiled deeply. " Lets see...what we got here."

In the tense silence the sound of Gogeta's zipper echoed loudly. He whimpered as Gorno made show to pull down his jeans slowly. The pants slipped to the floor with a muffled thud and Gorno grinned as Gogeta was now laid before him in only his boxers. " Such a pretty boy." He smiled as his eyes drank in the site before him.

" Gorno, I swear if you do this my fathers will hunt you down." Gogeta sniffed back his tears.

Gorno frowned. " Now that right there is something we don't want." He said darkly.

Gogeta stared defiantly at the older boy. " Then let me go." He demanded. Gorno laughed.

" There are other ways to shut you up." He grinned evilly. " We want to make sure you stay quiet." With that he jumped onto Gogeta's body and roughly gripped his hips. " I was going to be nice to you and make this gently, but you've pushed me too far and now you must be punished." He continued grinning. Gogeta's eyes widened in fear and he tried to slip from his hold.

Gogeta had had enough of this game. He couldn't handle being tornmented by his once closest friend. With great force he managed to get himself free from Gorno and he knocks him to a wall. He quicky grabs his cloths... and runs away from the house.

Gogeta trembled as he looked up at his fathers. " I don't want to talk about it." He said shakily.

Goten frowned. " Gogeta, we need to know." He said firmly.

Trunks and Goten moved forward to embrace him in comforting arms but Gogeta pushed their questioning hands away angrily. " Don't touch me!" He cried.

" Gogeta..." Trunks began.

" No!" Gogeta spat, " You weren't there to help me before I don't want your help now." Goten frowned.

" What happened."

Gogeta shook his head and laughed. " You were supposed to protect me, you're my parents and you should have stopped him!" He said angrily.

Trunks growled. " Who's the bastard that touched you?" He asked angrily.

" Why Father-san, are you going to go punish him now that it's too late?" He trembled.

" Gogeta, did he touch you? Please just tell me if you're alright." He pleaded.

Gogeta turned away from them. " I'm fine no thanks to you." He said softly.

Goten moved forward and crushed Gogeta to his chest. " Thank Kami." He sighed. " If you had gotten hurt I don't know what I would do." He said.

Gogeta closed his eyes and leaned into his Papa-san's arms. " I was so scared." He sniffed, " I was so scared when he came at me like that... i... i tried to get away... but he was far too strong for me... i didn't want him to do that... he was my friend..."

Goten embraced his son. " Don't worry about him... we will take care of him.. and he won't harm you again."

Gogeta nodded into his chest and mumbled a muffled 'sorry'.

Goten pulled him away and locked eyes with his son. " Never say that, it wasn't your fault." He said firmly.

Trunks nodded beside him. " Don't ever think that way, we'll get the bastard who did this, don't you worry." He assured.

Trunks got up, put his shoes on, and started to walk out the door. " I'm going out Goten... I'll be back in a little while."

Goten looked at Trunks. " Where are you going this late?"

" I 'm going to beat the shit out of that brat!"

" Trunks as much as I want to do that he's just a kid." Goten sighed. " We can 't hurt him, there's something called the police." He said dryly.

Gogeta nodded. " Please don't hurt him, I don't want you to kill him." He said softly, knowing the strength both his parents possessed.

" What!" Trunks growled. " That little Fucker laid his hands on you and you want me to just sit back and let him get away with it?" He demanded.

Gogeta nodded slightly. " Please, don't hurt him Father-san, I don't want you to get in trouble because of him." He said.

Goten looks up at Trunks. " He's right... its child abuse... here...call the cops... they will put him away... and he won't get away with what he did to our little boy." Goten hands Trunks the phone

Gogeta looked up. " Father-san... i don't want you to go to the slammer!"

Trunks nodded. " Fine then, you both got me there, we'll let the police deal with him." He sighed.

Goten looked to Gogeta. " Now can you tell us who it was?" He asked gently.

Gogeta looked hesitant for a moment before nodding reluctantly. " It was Gorno." He whispered. Both of his parents flinched at the familiar name.

" That older boy that lives a little ways from here?" Trunks asked angrily.

" Hai." Gogeta replied.

There was a loud crunching sound as Trunks crushed the phone angrily in his fist. "That little bastard." He trembled in fury. Goten bowed his head too. "I can't believe we asked him to watch over you." He said regretfully. Gogeta frowned. "You're not going to hurt him are you?' He questioned. Goten shook his head. "We won't lay a hand on him. Trunks, you sort of killed the phone." Goten pointed out. Trunks looked down and nodded sheepishly. "I'll use my cell to call." He said whipping out the small phone.

Trunks manages to pull himself together and he ends up calling them. The police arrive in minutes in a matter of minutes. The cops take the young boy to jail. Gogeta felt a big relived he was gone from his life forever. And so do the adults... they were glad that the person that hurt their little boy was locked up and wouldn't touch him again.

End of flash back…

Gogeta stopped in his tracks as he finished thinking about what seems now like a terrible dream. ' God.. how could I have forgotten something like that? It was the worst day of my life. And to think… it could have happened with Vegito and me… that scares me.' Gogeta shakes his head. ' No… that is different… I would never abuse my little brother like Gorno did me. But there was one time…. Where I did get carried away.. that is probably the second reason why I wouldn't want to have a relationship with him.'

The rain continued to fall onto Gogeta's head. He continued to look around. " Vegito! Where are you little brother?"

Gogeta started running off again. ' But what if I do what I did the last time… six year olds are so fragile… like glass… I don't know.. would I hurt another young boy by accident?'

Flash back…

Gogeta was now ten years old. The incident with Gorno was long behind him. He was walking home when he heard this cute little boy crying all by himself on a bench. Gogeta being as nice as he was walked over to the boy.

" Hey kid… what's wrong?"

" My boyfriend dumped me. He said I was too winny… and I want to much. I wanted a relationship with someone who would make me happy."

" Hey.. I'll tell you what.. I'm available I'd be glad to… if you want of course."

The boys eyes widened. " Wow.. you mean it! Thank you so much."

So Gogeta and the young boy ended up going to his house. Goten and Trunks weren't home today. They were busy doing something fun with each other. Gogeta was so polite.. or he tried to be. He and the boy hit it off fast. Gogeta sat in his bed and the young boy started to get undressed. " Woah! What are you doing?"

" I'm getting ready… don't you prefer it when you don't have anything on…"

" Well to be honest… I rather not have you do that. I find it brings back some bad memories. So if you wouldn't mind…"

The kid didn't question the older boy's request he didn't think it would be fair to bring it up. So he did as he said and he put his cloths back on. He jumped back on the bed and he looked at Gogeta. " You know… your have beautiful eyes… uh.. What's your name?"

" I'm Gogeta… and you are?"

" My name is Ryo."

" Nice to meet you Ryo…"

The boy got on the bed with Gogeta. " Alright, I'm ready whenever you are... please... don't go too rough..."

" I'll try not to Ryo."

He moved over the smaller body beneath him and gently ran his hands along Ryo's chest. He slowly lifted the clothing away from his body, pulling the shirt over Ryo's head and arms. He then smiled at the flushed boy who was obviously aroused. " Such pretty skin." He said gently as he caresses the bare chest beneath his hands.

Ryo grinned and played with Gogeta's hair. " I'm glad you think so." He chuckled.

Gogeta smiled and leaned closer to Ryo's warmth, kissing him gently on the lips. " How could I not, even your kisses are sweet." Gogeta grinned as he pulled away.

Ryo laughed and pulled Gogeta's face closer. "Not as sweet as yours though." He said and promptly smooched Gogeta. His tongue snaked its way passed Ryo's lips and the younger boy blinked in happy surprise at the intrusion.

Ryo felt it.. he couldn't believe it... but Gogeta didn't realize something... he was pushing too hard not being Saiyan the young boy was in pain. He pushed away from him. " Gogeta... that hurts."

Gogeta looked at the boy with a hurt expression. " I'm sorry, I'll try to be more gentle." He reassured. Ryo frowned but nodded his consent.

" Okay, but go slower, I'm just not used to this kind of stuff." He said softly.

Gogeta nodded and kissed him more gently this time, lightly running his fingertips down his neck, wrenching a small gasp from Ryo. " Like that?" He grinned. Ryo nodded and clenched onto Gogeta's shoulders, digging his nails into his shirt at the new sensations. " Then i assure you you'll like this." He smiled into the kiss. He trailed his kisses down Ryo's neck, licking slowly at the warm flesh, trying to get the reaction he wanted from the young boy.

He opened his mouth and gently ran his teeth along Ryo's throat, along the veins hidden beneath his skin. Gogeta's breathing grew heavy and before he knew what he was doing he had bite down into Ryo's neck. "Gogeta! What're you doing?" Ryo cried.

Gogeta snapped back to his senses and pulled away in shock. " I'm so sorry, i never meant for that to happen!" He said quickly.

Ryo brought his hand up to the wound and pulled away his fingers with blood coating them. He looked up at Gogeta with a look of horror. "I don't want his anymore." He said softly.

Gogeta frowned in worry. " Ryo, I am so sorry." He said, reaching forward. Ryo flinched away from his hand and Gogeta pulled back with bitter resentment. " I'm sorry Ryo, I swear I will never hurt anyone like you again." He said sadly.

" Of course not... because I'm not going to see you again... I don't wanna be hurt... thank you for trying to help me though... that was really sweet of you. But we can still be friends right?" Ryo said.

" Yeah we can... I guess I'll see you around some time..." With that Ryo walked out on Gogeta.

End of flashback…

Gogeta runs to a place where you can look down upon the city. And Vegito was standing their, his hair was blowing in the wind and rain feel upon his face. Gogeta's face lit up. " VEGITO!" He couldn't believe that he finally found his brother.

Vegito looked up to see his older brother, sopping wet but not as wet as himself. Vegito was crying. " What do you want? Haven't you made things hard enough as it is…."

" Vegito.. let me explain please. There are two reasons I can't, so will you hear me out?"

Vegito looked away from his older brother. " Why should I listen…"

" Please Vegito…. I had some bad things happen to me. So please… if you listen to what I have to say you will understand."

" Alright bro…. Tell me what happen? I wanna understand your reasons…"

Gogeta nodded and told him every last detail about his experiences with Gorno and Ryo. Vegito's eyes widened as his brother told him. He started crying even louder after the story. " I had no idea…. I had no idea that happened to you Gogeta. If I had known…."

" Its alright squirt… so now you understand?"

" Yes I think I do. But I don't think it will happen with us. I mean you know better now… and you won't make the same mistakes twice….." Vegito suddenly fainted in his brother's arms.

" Vegito!" Gogeta said in a panic. ' Oh gosh no…. I gotta get him home… if I don't….' Gogeta shakes his head. ' No… you can't be thinking that right now! I won't lose my little brother now… or ever!'

Hey everyone. Alright that was the most evil that was ever put into a chapter in any of my fics. I hope it's not over doing it… but the event had to be traumatizing in order to have an impact. Once again I thank kitsuneakai13 with all her wonderful help. I couldn't have done it alone… thanks a lot, you really do have the best ideas! So please review. No flames.

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