Eyes of the Heart
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Chapter 6: Forgotten Nightmare
"Fiancé?"
"Makino do you know him?"
Why now, after how many years, is he coming back? What did I do to deserve this? Just when I was feeling comfortable with my new position, my past rears its ugly head. Now that he has found me I'm sure he will want to continue where we left off. And he had the audacity to say I was his fiancé, he must have fallin and bumped his head if he thinks I would go back to him. He set me up that day and he hurt me in so many ways. I'll run away as far as I can if I have to, I'm sorry Doumyoji but I don't think I can stay and help you.
Tsukushi ran, out of the club into the street not really knowing where she was going she didn't realiz it had began to rain. Her tears and the lights of the night blurred in with the rain making the world seem surreal. The rain poured harder it seemed the further she ran. She ran until she came to an empty playground. It looked so abandoned like her heart. The lights on the street were mostly out and the only light on the playground was over a swing set except there was only one usable swing the other had a missing seat and only one side of the chain.
She sat down in the swing and just allowed the rain to wash over her. Her make-up had washed away, the bun on her head had become a soggy mop, the dress she and Tama made would be ruined from all the rain and she...she was miserable. She knew that the rain couldn't wash away her past but at least it could wash away the coming ach that she couldn't understand. The ach she felt was not that of seeing her ex but that of losing someone she was growing to ...admire. Why had it turned out like this 'Because you ran away from him before.' But I had no choice, if I stayed with him I would have lost all respect for myself, like I lost for him.
She closed her eyes reliving her last moments with Junpei.
"Come on Tsukushi, I know you love me and like you said you would do anything for me. Forget what you heard from that friend of yours she's a tramp. She only said those things to get with me."
"But Junpei I saw the pictures and you were in them all."
"They were all fakes, come on hun, I know those virgin eyes of yours would fall out if it was really me. Why would I do anything like that to my baby? You know I love you, and all I ask is that you make a few memories with me. We haven't even kissed yet and I have been patently waiting for you to come around. What do you say babe, meet me here tonight and I'm sure we can make wonderful memories."
In a way Tsukushi knew that Junpei was no good, but she refused to acknowledge it. She had been blind and that blindness like everyone else makes you overlook any possible faults. Those rose colored glasses really had thorns.
She sat in the swing surrounded by walls of water and gasped when she heard her name. She looked up to see a soaked Tsukasa, but there was something different about him. Gone were his usual arrogance and the carefree demeanor, in its place was hurt and anger. He looked right pass her but remained standing in the same spot. He couldn't see.
"Tsukushi are you there?" His voice shook with frustration.
"Yes I'm here." She whispered. Even though she said it very low he still heard her.
"Why did you run?" He asked calmly.
"I...I got scared. I was really surprised to see Junpei and my first reaction was to run. Silly huh?" She let out a sad laugh and than sighed.
He wanted her to keep talking so he could find her exact location. He slowly walked in her direction not wanting to stumble about as he had done earlier looking for her.
2 HOURS HOUR EARLIER
"Makino, stop."
"Don't bother its not like she cares about you."
Tsukasa turned back around and glared at the person who was apparently named Junpei.
"How do you know that? Who are you? And why are you calling her your fiancé?" Tsukasa was getting upset and he had a feeling he knew exactly who this character was.
"Not that it concerns you, I'm Tuskushi's fiancé even though she ran away from me the night we were to uh...how do I say it... consummate our engagement." He let out a lustful laugh.
"As I'm sure you probably found out that hoe has a great body, and I have yet to taste it. And as her fiancé I had every right, but she was always the prude and conservative one. Always saying 'lets wait till after the marriage.' I decided to humor her, but always making sure I had mine when I needed it at night. As a man you know we have certain needs. I was going to stop once we got married of course but, until that time I needed to let out my frustration since she wasn't going to give me any booty anytime soon."
Tsukasa couldn't believe that such disgusting thing could come out of a man once engaged to Makino. What was she ever thinking being engaged to such a jerk? I have half a mind to take out MY frustrations on him, by knocking some teeth out and messing up that pretty boy face of his.
"Hmmm I've seen you before around here. Your usually with some other pretty boys, the fag four is what they call you. And just my luck that you would bring back my fiancé. But hey I'm willing to share her with you. As long as I get the first round you can have sloppy seconds. I've been hot for her, ever since I got some nice pics of that body. I'd be very willing to share them with you ...for a price."
Pictures...of Makino!? What kind of pictures? What kind of pervert sells his fiancés pictures? Where did he get them, and he wants to have me pay for them, what kind of sick guy is he? I must keep my calm; I have to find out what he is trying to do. 'Hey if their naughty we can keep a few for ourselves hehe.' Shut up you, I have no need for porn pictures of Tsukushi.
"Say I was interested in your offer? If they are dirty pictures I'll take them. She is a commoner after all; I don't really have much of a need for poor girls except for what their body can give. Do you have any samples of your wares? I want to know if I'm getting a good deal or not."
Ugh I sound like such a perv, but this is for Makino's sake I won't let him hurt her again if this is the one. 'You say it's for her sake but you really want to see the pictures, you're just like him. Only you're blind and perverted.' No this is one thing I can do for her while I still have my sight. I'll get him to lead me to the other pictures and than I'll destroy them, I'll pay any price he asks. Hopefully I won't beat his head in before he shows me the stash.
Junpei just smirked as he took his hands out his pants pocket and pulled out three pictures he kept in his shirt pocket. Gotcha
"And there are more where those came from my friend."
Tsukasa's eyes widened in shock at what he saw, he also blushed profusely at what Tsukushi was doing in one of them.
She took all of these pictures, I...no she isn't like this...these must be fake.
"I can tell you like what you see, hey any man would..." He guided the shocked Tsukasa to the door.
"...why don't you just slip those into your pocket, they are samples after all. The real stuff is in my car. I had been planning on selling the whole lot plus negatives to a guy here that runs a very profitable ... entertainers' website, but I figure I could get a lot more from you for these delectable tidbits. Of course I'll eventually get the full meal."
Tsukasa was still in shock as he put the three pictures into his pocket. Junpei lead him to a red corvette, which had black zebra stripes on it. The inside was decorated the same way, with red and zebra stripped shag seats. He popped the trunk and showed him 3 boxes full of pictures and video tapes.
"How...how did you get all of these?"
"She's my fiancé, it has its advantages. She stayed at my house a couple of times, and I figure if I can't get her to come to me in bed than I'll bring a few videos of her to it. I have hidden cameras everywhere in my home and its nothing; I mean NOTHING that I did not catch."
By that time Tsukasa was filled with both rage and a tinge of jealousy (he's a guy after all). How dare he take such scandalous pictures of Makino, I'll make him pay but first...
"Wow man your quite the photographer, how much you asking for all of these?"
"Oh nothing much, say, I'll give you a discount for finding my future wife. How does 15k sound to you? These are some great pics after all, not only that but you get to see a younger body of the grown woman your with now." He draped his arm over Tsukasa's shoulder and whispered in his ear.
"That little tail of hers is worth it trust me I've had many other offers, but I think you will appreciate it even more."
That was the straw that broke the camels back. Tsukasa's rage had reached its boiling point and he snapped.
"Get your filthy commoner hands off of me." He hissed.
"Hey man what's your problem?" Junpei replied as he backed away from the feral look Tsukasa gave him.
"How dare you call yourself Makino's fiancé? You talk about her as if she's some kind of slut; you even took disgusting pictures of her without her consent. Not only that but you wave them around for all to see, even to the point of selling them. You're prostituting her behind her back. If these pictures were ever distributed she would be ruined, no respectable man would ever have her instead she'd be surrounded by sleazes like yourself. Its quite apparent that you never loved her and you only used her for your own sick pleasures. I see why she left your sorry butt you're a pathetic maggot that's less than a man. I don't understand what she saw in you in the first place. But I will tell you what I see and that is a bloody pulp in the making."
Tsukasa grabbed the front of Junpei's shirt and threw him against his car breaking a window. After that he head butted him in the face breaking his nose. The pain in his forehead was overridden by the blind fury he felt. Junpei tried to fight back but all his attempts were useless as the normal, strong-as-an-ox Tsukasa had doubled in strength.
"What are you guys doing? Come and help me!" Junpei screamed. Unknown to Tsukasa, Junpei had a gang awaiting the right moment to come out. They had planned on waiting for Tsukasa to take his wallet out and pay Junpei before they made an entrance to rob him. When they saw the way Tsukasa threw their leader into the car they were shocked. But now was a time for action.
One jumped on Tsukasa's back trying to pull him off of Junpei while another ran over with a bat. Tsukasa flipped the guy on his back over and threw him into the one with the bat. Junpei, forgotten at the moment, crawled away from the chaos holding his bloodied nose.
Tsukasa was getting angrier as thug after thug came to try and over take him. They just keep coming 'they deserve what they are getting, bash those two heads together, yes that's how you do it. Time for me to take over.' Tsukasa's mind became that of a mad man as he allowed his anger to posses him completely. He didn't think he just hit whatever came into his line of view. These thugs became like the assassins that were constantly sent after him. Yes they would serve the place of the ones who had ruined his life and he would take every last bit of his frustrations out on them.
The rain that fell went unnoticed by Tsukasa as he broke teeth, bashed heads, and threw men into cars. A couple of the got a few punches in but anything that came into close proximity was either broken or bloodied. And he was enjoying it.
Junpei watched in horror on the ground as his whole gang was being defeated right in front of his eyes. And the calm man that he had been trying to sell pictures to turned into the raging demon doing the fighting single handedly.
Before he realized it his whole squad was down in piles of broken flesh all just barely alive from the blows they had received. The rain became louder, because the screams of his men had died down, the demon had stopped and his down turned head shadowed his eyes. The heat mixed with the rain and blood caused steam to rise off of him.
The next thing Junpei saw struck a cord of terror within him. The shoulders of the man started to shake as he picked up one of the bats, his men had dropped. Tsukasa lifted up his head and let out a loud evil laugh and stared at Junpei with fury in his eyes. He than went to work on Junpei's car, smashing windows ripping off mirrors and denting doors, all the while laughing like a crazed person.
No he had gone crazy, he hated his fate and he hated his mother for causing this pain and the many insecurities he felt. But right now he hated this man, Junpei even more for the pain he caused Tsukushi and the pain he may cause her once she found out what had transpired here, when she found out that there was almost another darker side of him once his anger was unleashed.
After he was done he took a lighter from one of the men on the ground, and walked over to the trunk.
"No not those..." Junpei trailed off as he looked in to the burning eyes of a wild animal that was thirsty for more destruction.
"Yes these." he growled, Tsukasa took some of the alcohol in the trunk and threw it on top of the pictures than he tossed the lighter into the trunk, resulting in it bursting into flames.
Tsukasa walked very slowly over to Junpei. Junpei tried to move back on the ground only to come up against another car in the lot. Tsukasa looked down on him, with those eyes he was so afraid of.
"If I ever see or hear you so much as look at or whisper Tsukushi's name I will come after you. I will destroy you and any who are close to you. Your family, friends, your dog and the roaches that infest your disgusting home; I'll hunt you down and make sure you are never found again."
"I want to never hear you call her your fiancé because that is impossible seeing as how she is my girlfriend."
Tsukasa spat on him and threw the bat at Junpei's car breaking the last reaming window.
Junpei just stared at the carnage from his mangled car to his useless gang. He had been embarrassed single handedly by a rich brat. So this is the result of the infamous Doumyoji Tsukasa's anger I've heard tales of but never imagined this. But it isn't over, not by a long shot. He pulled out a recorder from his pants pocket and played it back.
"Say I was interested in your offer? If they are dirty pictures I'll take them. She is a commoner after all..."
Junpei placed it back into his pocket. I'll ruin that mans relationship and when Tsukushi finds out what kind of man he is she'll come running back to the one who loved her most. ME. And if that doesn't work than I'll make her suffer, there are a few negatives I kept just in case most of the lot was lost. Junpei walked away into the night whistling a tuneless song leaving behind his broken crew and a burning car to the engulfing down pour.
Tsukasa ran in the direction he saw Tsukushi go earlier. His rage, subsiding somewhat, was replaced by worry. Oh great I just took out a whole crew and now I can't find the object of those beat downs. The lights from the city caused him to have a headache, until he couldn't see them anymore. He hissed at the way his eye sight played tricks on him, making him forget that he was blind.
He called his driver on the phone to track him and told him that he would be looking for Makino.
He walked the streets blindly calling her name in the pouring rain. More than once he ran into people on the streets, tripped over trashcans and was chased by dogs. I must find her at all costs, what if one of that fools thugs followed her and was dragging her off right now? Tsukasa began yelling her name more franticly growing increasingly worried at the thought of her being manhandled. By the time he reached an abandoned playground an hour had passed.
The rain refused to let up but a twinge in his heart told him that she was near. He called her name once again and turned his head in the direction he thought he heard a sharp intake of breath. She is here I just know it.
"Tsukushi are you there?" His voice shook with frustration.
"Yes I'm here." She whispered. Even though she said it very low he still heard her.
"Why did you run?" He asked calmly. Keep her talking don't embarrass yourself.
"I...I got scared. I was really surprised to see Junpei and my first reaction was to run. Silly huh?" She let out a sad laugh and than sighed.
"No it's not silly, there's been many times when I have wanted to run away. But I refused to let anything I was afraid of control me. I have been alone for a very long time and I had only myself, and sometimes my sister." He was standing right in front of her. She looked up at him and gasped at his bruises and ripped up clothes.
"Wha- What happened? Please don't tell me that you came looking for me? Especially in this rain you could get sick." She jumped up and looked for something to shield him with.
Oh no he came looking for me in this terrible weather. It will be my entire fault if he gets sick. I have failed in my assignment, its best that I start looking for a new position. That is if anyone will have me, things just keep getting worse.
She was broken out of her musings when she felt two strong arms wrap around her waist. Tsukasa pulled Tsukushi to him and buried his face in her neck.
"I was so worried something happened to you." He whispered.
Tsukushi's hurt skipped a beat and she relaxed physically, even though her emotions where a mess. He was worried about me? He searched for me in this foul weather because he was worried? What a horrible person I am making him do all of this for me.
She turned around in his embrace and rested her head on his chest. Everything that happened caused her to begin crying anew. Her tears like the rain fell uncontrollably.
Tsukasa began to pull apart from her, but she stopped him.
"No, please, can you hold me a little while longer...I know I don't have the right to ask you this but could you do me this one favor." She whispered
She wants me to hold her longer? Tsukasa knew than and there that the lie about her being his girlfriend would turn into reality. He just had to convince her that it was the best decision either one of them would ever make. I want to be by her side to hold her like this. I want to be the only one to make her laugh as well as the only one to make her cry. I want to be all things to her, regardless of my position or my infirmities.
"I'll stay here as long as you need me to." He kissed her on the forehead and held her even tighter. The two looked like a sculpture of two sea urchins under a single light surrounded by the pouring rain, enjoying the comfort and warmth the others body gave.
This is how Tsukasa's driver found them. Tsukushi had by that time stopped crying and had been reduced to hiccups. As soon as she entered the limo she fell asleep on the seat. She slept like the dead in a deep sleep, exhausted from all the excitement that had occurred. She didn't even wake when Tsukasa pulled her on his lap and cradled her like a child.
She let out a contented sigh as she moved closer to the source of the heat she felt surrounding her. Tsukasa sat and contemplated what he did that night, the thorough beatings he disbursed and the girl he was tenderly holding. Such a stark contrast.
The rain had washed the perfume and probably make-up she had on earlier. But I can still smell that vanilla, which always seems to linger around her. I wonder if that's some kind of shampoo or soap she uses. I could stay like this, inhaling her wonderful scent, all night.
He sat breathing in her intoxicating scent and listened to her soft deep breaths as she slept. He allowed his senses to take in their fill of her. Other parts of him became aware of the way the rain caused her dress to cling to her delicate frame, leaving only a thin barrier between her and him.
As much as I would love to keep this enchantress on my lap I need to move her back. 'No keep her a little longer' No! Or I won't be able to refrain myself from touching her.
He gently placed her next to him, but draped his arm around her possessively. He closed his eyes for what seemed like 2 minutes when the driver called back to him, informing him that they had arrived.
"Makino wake up." He gently shook her.
"Mmm..." She just turned over and curled into a half fetal position.
Tsukasa sighed knowing where this was going and he prayed that he would have the strength needed to make it up to the door as his driver lead him to the mansions entrance. He picked her up, surprised at how light she was. He carried her like a baby, taking care as if she was a fine porcelain doll easily broken.
Haithem the butler opened the door before he reached it. Use to his masters late nights.
"Good morning young master."
"Good morning? What time is it?"
"It is approximately 4 am."
Tsukasa hadn't realized how much time had passed. I guess the saying is true. Time flies when you're having fun. If you call tonight fun. He made a grimace and continued up the stairs. He didn't even bother stopping at her room and instead went straight into his, where he knew by memory where everything was.
He laid her on the bed and sat on the edge debating his next move.
Ok now that we're home what next? I should wake her up. 'But what if she starts crying again.' Hmm maybe I should just leave her there and she can sleep with me. He blushed and grined as a few wayward thoughts crossed his mine. No, no, no can't think like that. He shook his head to get rid of those thoughts. What a predicament I'm in. Maybe I should call one of the maids to come and get her. 'But its 4 in the morning you don't want to bother them now do you?'
"Mmm..."
"Makino are you awake."
Tsukushi just turned over onto her side and began to shiver.
Crap, I forgot she still had those wet clothes on. She'll get sick if I don't do something. She needs to come out of that...out of that...dress. Ok, 'Take a deep breath Tsukasa you're not being a hentai you're just going to help her out of potentially life threatening attire. (It's amazing how people rationalize their actions)
Tsukasa reached shaking hands over to the shivering girl lying next to him, and blushed a deep red at the thought of what he was about to do.
Now where was that zipper? I think 'let's hope' it's on her side
He trailed his hand down her right side feeling for a zipper but to no avail.
Its not here! I know it's not in the front. 'Thank God.' My nerves can barely handle this little bit. In a way I'm mad and happy I can't see. Mad, because I would certainly enjoy seeing why lies underneath the dress. Happy, because once she wakes up and finds out what I did, I can always tell her I didn't see anything. Than again I am the Great Doumyoji Tsukasa I can do whatever I want to whomever I want. 'Your just fooling yourself, expect a beat down in the morning.'
After further rationalizing in his mind, Tsukasa gently turned Tsukushi over onto her back and traced her spine in search of the elusive zipper. Which to the delight of his increasingly frazzled nerves and waning control, he found.
He slowly puller it down removing the soggy material revealing a soft back he couldn't help but lightly touch with the tips of his fingers feeling as if something was missing but dismissed it because his thoughts had turned to that of a more perverted nature. 'STOP IT TSUKASA!' Next he removed his shirt and pants for silk pajama pants that clung to him because of the moisture from his wet clothes. He usually slept with nothing on, but he would make an exception tonight for both his and her sake.
By the time he reached the bed, Tsukushi was shivering badly. He touched her back once again getting the feeling that something was a missed, and she was burning up.
No she is already starting to get a fever. Ok I've seen this in movies where the guy keeps the girl warm by lending body heat. 'Oh yeah time for some action.' No this is serious.
He pulled the soft, warm sheets over her and got in facing her. He wrapped her in his arms and pulled her close to him lending her all the warmth he could give until she stopped shivering and relaxed once again into a deep sleep.
Thank goodness she stopped shivering. Maybe now I can...wait a minute why don't I feel a...
Tsukasa touched her back and ran a finger down her delicate spine causing her to whimper a little. Than he was hit with an epiphany as to why he thought something was missing before.
Why me, I'll never get to sleep now. I would gladly stay blind the rest of my life just so I wouldn't have to face the wrath of this girl. As a matter of fact she may just do me the honor. He let out a heavy sigh and tried to relax as much as he possibly could, given his current situation with a half naked girl that he felt a strong attraction to lying next to him. But what is done is done there's no turning back now; maybe she'll thank me for saving her from a dreadful fever. 'Don't count on it'. He sighed again
Tsukasa fell into a fitful sleep with a blush permanently tattooed to his face, and a question still on his mind before he succumbed to oblivion.
Why didn't she wear a bra with that dress?
Ho, ho, ho I feel so bad for Tsukasa he is being tormented. Oh for all you Inu-yasha fans out there my sister has a Shess/Rin fic called "Thread Bound" she is a much, much, MUCH better writer than me, so check it out. Anyway tune in next time for more TxT action. When Tsukushi wakes up in the morning will she (a) kill Tsukasa or (b) let him have his way with her. HINT: I'd choose (a) if I was you. Oh and plz forgive me if I missed correcting a few mistakes I had to rush posting cause I won't be able to post it friday or this weekend.
